The only time I spent the night in jail was over my Maddie. She was my angel, my sweet girl, my spitting image. Her mother made the mistake of pulling her from my arms while my girl was screaming and crying my name.
I had never known fury or strength like I did then. I rammed the door with my shoulder so that it shuddered. It was a trash trailer door and when I rammed it again the lock snapped.
My ex wife looked at me with terror and rage. But I wasn't paying attention. All I could see was Maddie. She held her hands out for me still and there was nothing but adoration and helpless need in those little angel eyes. I sang to her, softly, and she smiled in relief.
That smile was worth the night in the jail cell. I've always said it. My Maddie brought out the best and the worst of me.
After that I threw myself into my life. I had screwed up my first chance at school, my first chance at everything. But then Maddie was born. It's hard to believe now but when her mother came to me and told me I would be a father, I fought it. She was having sex with at least two others, my promiscuous and bipolar ex wife. I said that she wasn't mine. I said it right up until my Maddie was born.
And then I saw her eyes. There was no denying it anymore. Those were my eyes. I fell in love like I had never loved her mother or anyone else before her.
And there was no failure for an option. I served my marine corps and used it for a college fund, where I studied computer sciences. The years were torture. Maddie's mother had custody of her and she moved around a lot, switching from boy to boy. I hated it. The thought of Maddie in unsteady environments made me sick. I looked forward to every weekend I had custody of her and kept her in my dorm room when I was in college and she was a toddler. I didn't get many dates with Maddie. But I didn't want them anyway, not after what her mother had put me through. I wanted nothing besides my Maddie. And my end goal was an environment so steady and smooth that I could fight for custody of her. I kept every text, every email, every record of her mother's inadequacy for proof on the day I would need it. My brother in law was a wonderful lawyer who was willing to help since I had proven myself. I won him over with my marine service.
But it didn't matter. The year after I graduated her mother approached me without a fight. I had always been wonderful with computer sciences and my job opportunities were beautiful in their steadiness. I wouldn't call them lavish but they were certainly more than I could have hoped for.
And her mother had heard. So she offered to sign Maddie over to me if I continued to pay her child support and raised my daughter. In effect, she sold our daughter to me.
I didn't hesitate. I took her in an instant, knowing that there was no place in the world better for my daughter than by side. I was a man possessed over her. She was too quiet when I first got her and it upset me to see the insecurities of an unstable home in her eyes at first. So I homeschooled her. I refused to give my little girl back to the world. She was mine and she would live like a princess. I bought her stuffed animals and dresses. I bought her nail polishes and makeup and glitter and ribbons. I raised her in a castle of a bedroom with a princess canopy and butterflies decorating everything. Oh she had her teenage rebellions, but overall she was a wonderful child.
Maddie has always brought out the worst and the best in me.
After her 18th birthday and graduation I persuaded her to take a year off school to decide what she wished to do with her life. Maddie was indecisive at the best of times and she loved to learn. The problem was that she loved to learn everything and couldn't choose a favorite area of study. She grinned at me shyly when I suggested it. "You... you wouldn't be disappointed in me for taking a year, Daddy?"
"Of course not, Muffin. All I ask is that you help me with my own work at times. Is that in agreement?"
"Yes, Daddy, of course. Daddy, there's this boy at the book store sometimes and a movie comes out Friday that I want-"
"No. I will take you." The words were a snap out of my mouth. The thought of a boy with my daughter filled me with rage. She'd been through enough. I would not see her heart broken as well.
Her lip quivered. "But, daddy... I... I want to be held and... stuff."
I looked around her room, where we both sat on the edge of the bed. It had never really changed. Stuffed animals covered her bed and the butterflies glittered down at me happily. I looked at Maddie. "Muffin, no. I will hold you and keep you company."
Tears welled in her eyes and I hated myself, but I would not back down. She was mine. And I would not give her away. "D-daddy there are other... other things. I... I don't really understand them but I... I want... I hurt sometimes."
I disliked the thought of her suffering. I lay down on her bed and tucked her gently into my arms, spooning her close to me and kissing her cheek. " Maddie, dearest... Daddy's got you."
She turned around in my arms, cuddling closer to my chest and burying her nose in my shirt. "Will you pet me daddy?"
"Sure, Muffin." And I did. I stroked her long hair from her crown down her back in long, soothing strokes. I rubbed gentle circles on her shoulders and held her safely in my arms.
Maddie's hand moved lower from where she held me. She stroked my side and nuzzled my chest. For a moment, I didn't even realize quite what she was doing. She was so slow and steady. She moved her hand in matching circles to mine and stroked her way down my side. Down to my thigh...
"Muffin!" I grasped her hand, shocked, and met her innocent wide eyes. She froze when I grabbed her hand, staring at me.
"Did I do something wrong, Daddy?"
I held her hand for a while longer before deciding to let go and not draw attention to her actions. "No, princess. Come here. Cuddle with me some more."
Had she meant to do what I thought? Or was it me who was interested in her and had misinterpreted? As I cradled little Maddie, I wasn't sure. She had turned to a lovely young lady and I was possessive over her, it was true. I had always had fetishes and it had always made me question myself.
As I cradled Maddie, I decided that maybe it had just been a while since I found a playmate. I never dated after divorcing her mother, but I had needs, it was true. And I had more specific needs than most, but I had used discretion in finding partners for those desires and always treated them politely. There were a few playmates I could get hold of.
I decided to call one that night and have a date. That must have been it. I just needed to clear my head.
I cradled Maddie and watched a movie with her until she went to sleep and then I made my call. The girl was eager to play and home alone on a Friday night.
It was so easy to leave quietly and leave my lovely daughter to her night time dreams.
"Oh, daddy, yes. That feels so good. I'm sorry I was bad."
Her name was Sylvie. She was smaller in stature and downright cute in her submission. She also had a mouthy streak that I found needed correcting every time we first met up with each other again. At the moment I pet her drenched little pussy after giving her paddling. "I can tell that feels good. You're dripping, Muffin. Good girls don't have such foul mouths. I should clean your mouth with soap, but you took your paddling quite well. Why don't you wash your mouth with daddy's cum instead and we'll call it even?"