Damn Computer Games
Thanks Kenji Sato for editing.
The years pass so quickly like beads breaking off a bracelet scattered here and there. Each bead is an experience. Each is a year that passes through a lifetime.
I am Suna. I am now forty-one years old. I work as a mid-level manager at a logistics company. After the pandemic I have mostly continued to work from home. To tell you a little about myself. I am a 1.64-meter-tall, 60-kilogram brown-haired and green-eyed woman. I have been happily married to my husband Mehmet for seventeen years. We have an eighteen-year-old boy and a thirteen-year-old girl born from this union.
My husband works in a law firm where he is a partner. We both have good incomes so we live a comfortable life. We live in the house that my husband inherited from his family. We want to build a good future for our children thanks to the savings we have made. I have been proud of everything I have done so far as a parent.
As the years pass marriage becomes more of a partnership. Our passion and love for each other in our youth gave way to respect and affection. After children unfortunately as in most marriages something ended. Although I try to have a fit body by dieting and exercising my husband does not desire me as much as before. Since I have accepted this I do not have many expectations regarding sex.
My son Veysel is in high school and my daughter Aynur is in elementary school. I have tried very hard to raise them both so that they will be useful individuals in society. I have taken them to courses and social events. There is no problem with my daughter Aynur for now. However, when a boy enters puberty, the things you do are left hanging in the air. I can't get Veysel away from the computer in the time he has after school. He never listens to me. Damn technology has completely taken over his life. He doesn't do anything other than close the door to his room and play games.
He is going to the same school as his cousin and best friend Turan. My big sister Zeynep and I are two years apart. Like me she also has a daughter and a son. We had gotten pregnant in the same year but she gave birth to Turan a month after me. I breastfed Turan when he was a baby because my sister's milk was not enough. I am both his aunt and his wet nurse.
My sister and I were suffering from the same problems. We were worried about their future. They were both skinny and frail young men. If someone saw my son they would think we were not feeding him. Turan was a copy of him. Zeynep and I sat in a cafe and talked about what we could do for these young men. We thought of classic solutions-- guidance towards sports or other activities this way Veysel and Turan would spend more time together.
Some weekends Turan would stay with us sometimes Veysel would stay with them. They would go out together. Study, go to the cinema and the theatre etc. It would keep my son away from the computer for a little while.
I worked from home four days a week and went into work one day. One day when I was home I tidied up Veysel's room while cleaning the house. I was happy that he was a well-organised young man, and that I had raised him well.
The computer light was on. Had he been playing games until morning again? When I touched the keyboard the screen came on. It was as I had predicted. I looked at his browser history to see what he was interested in. He had cleared it. When I looked at who he was talking to on Skype his correspondence with Turan was still there. They had mostly talked about games. When I saw that they were talking about girls at school I relaxed a little. It made me happy that he was interested in something other than games.
There were correspondences about their teachers. They used sexy expressions and made comments like some had beautiful legs, some had beautiful breasts. Teenagers, their minds are elsewhere. They were both ashamed of being virgins.
While I was looking at what else they had written I read the comment Turan had made about me.
"Dude don't be mad at me but my favorite is your mother in this race. She's so sexy." he wrote.
"Your aunt?" Veysel had made fun of him.
Even though I was angry at this comment it didn't hold me back from looking at myself in the mirror after I turned off the computer. Even though my husband was bored with me I was a well-groomed woman. Even though I had given birth to two children not much had diminished. My legs were still good without cellulite. Maybe a small operation on the breasts might be necessary.
On Saturday I was preparing for a charity dinner that my husband and his partners would attend. Veysel and Turan were probably playing games in his room. When I opened the door of my room to get my things from the bathroom I locked eyes with Turan who was coming out of the bathroom at that moment. I was standing in front of him in my black lace bra not fully dressed. After looking at my breasts for a while he covered his eyes with his hand. We didn't say anything to each other. I went into the bathroom and he went into my son's room.
I liked his embarrassment. Maybe it was the first time he had seen a woman in a bra in real life. I got ready and left the house for dinner. I noticed that he was watching me with furtive glances on Sunday. He hugged me tightly before returning to his house. When I had free time during the week I was checking Veysel's computer. I was wondering if he had written anything about the incident we had experienced. There was nothing about me other than normal conversations.
A month passed. One night when Turan was staying with us, I woke up to my husband's snoring. I put on my dressing gown to go to the bathroom. I didn't want another accident to happen. There were two horny teenagers at home. I left my room and went to my daughter's room first to check on her. I covered her with the blanket and walked towards the bathroom. Veysel's room was quiet. I thought everyone was fast asleep. When I opened the bathroom door I was shocked by what I saw. Turan was standing and masturbating. He froze when he saw me.
I couldn't take my eyes off his penis. How could such a weak and frail body have such a penis? Had the food he ate gone there? It was both long and thick. Our eyes met again. I felt embarrassed and closed the door. I was overcome with heat. I went to the kitchen opened the window and lit a cigarette. Turan silently entered Veysel's room. After finishing my cigarette I returned to my bedroom. I looked at my husband's penis lying next to me. It wasn't even half as long. I tried to sleep trying to get that huge penis out of my mind.
While the May sun was warming the soul I got in my car to go to the office on Friday. This was the day that potential buyers from Portugal would come to the company to negotiate. There was a high probability that they would be my new bosses. I had done my best to look well-groomed and beautiful. First impressions were important. I was good at my job anyway but no matter what anyone says people always look at appearance.
I left the parking lot as I turned onto the street and headed towards the office. When I stopped at a red light a little further on I saw Turan waiting at the bus stop. Their house was close to ours. He must have missed the school bus. Otherwise he and my son would be at school at this hour. I approached the bus stop and honked. He threw away the cigarette in his hand. I didn't know he was smoking. I wondered if Veysel was smoking too. He approached the window. I signaled to him with my hand. He got in the car. My guess was right he had fallen asleep and missed the bus. Since it was on my way I could drop him off at school.
I had been staying away from him since the day of that accident because I was ashamed. My eyes involuntarily drifted to the front of his pants. Turan kept looking at my red miniskirt and my legs. He kept staring at me without taking his eyes off me. Why did I wear my clothes so short? If my skirt was pulled up any further my underwear would be visible.
"Honey. You can't just look at it like you've never seen it before." I said.