Thank you, readers, for hanging in with me for what was essentially the prologue of Destinee and Destiny. To make any sense of the story, make sure you're reading everything in order. Also, as promised, things start to heat up pretty damn quick from here. I hope you enjoy! Also, this story is categorized under incest/taboo, but that will happen in later chapters.
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Chapter Five - Fighting Destiny
"These violent delights have violent ends and in their triumph die, like fire and powder, which, as they kiss, consume."
-William Shakespeare
I have no idea why those words suddenly strike me as I wake up, filling me with a strange form of anxiety.
The last few days had been a blur of constant motion as Destinee and I rediscovered one another. I had no possessions left to my name, so Destinee had drove me to a few stores so I could buy some clothes as well as stuff for my new room like a bed, wardrobe, etc. It wasn't much, but really, I have never needed much in the first place.
As we caught up on each other's lives, it started to hit me just how much I had missed her over the years. That wasn't the heart of the matter though, nor the source of the strangely pensive Romeo and Juliet type thoughts. I knew I had feelings for her, but the more we talked the worse the constant ache in my stomach seemed to grow.
I caught myself staring at her occasionally as we went about the day trying to settle into a groove, my heartbeat noticeably rising every time she was near. I was constantly aware of her breathtaking figure, the subtle drop in her neckline revealing just a tease of tanned cleavage, the way her body moved imperceptibly in tight clothing every time she shifted or took a step. It was maddening. It was intoxicating.
Even when I had been engaged to Mikayla, I had never been that level of deeply enthralled. That was probably why I had never seen the warning signs of her cheating on, but that's just a hindsight realization. Not running from my feelings anymore, I had to admit it to myself. I was feeling what Destinee had felt for me years ago that I had ignored, maybe even more intense. I wanted her, with every fiber of my being.
Hell, if it was just a sexual response because of how gorgeous she has grown, I would've felt less guilty. Sure, it was totally pervy to have the hots for my own sister, but at least if it was just a sexual attraction, I could just excuse it as being a horny male. Shit, that was half expected of all men, right? 'Wanting to fuck anything that moves.'
No, somehow, this was even worse.
I was paying complete attention for the first time to a woman in my entire life. I know how that makes me sound as a guy, but I had never even realized just how much shit you could notice about someone before now. And those fucking long legs, they were killing me.
It got worse when I finally met her beau Zach. She warned me beforehand he was on his way, and I forced my own feelings to the dark nether reaches of the back of my mind - fully ready to be the friendliest, most welcoming brother on the entire planet.
Then he shows up, a ragged punk type, messy blonde hair, blue eyes, 'skater' slender, clean cut to the point of not even a trace of stubble on his chin, the palpable aura on him of 'I play drums in my garage band'.
That's when I know how doomed I am in regard to how I feel about Destinee, the moment of true, crystal-clear clarity. Instantly I want to punch this punk kid in the face several times as he walks in and devours my sister's face in front of me. Outwardly, of course, I paint a smile on my face and shakes his hand. Maybe a bit too much iron in my grip, but I act the model citizen.
He seems like a nice guy, exactly her type from what I'm quickly learning. I should be happy for her, I want to be happy for her, I need to be. We chat amicably for a while, the three of us, but I can't get the violent tendencies screaming in my head to go away. I know I need a distraction. Everything with the cartel, getting injured, seeing Destinee again - it was just messing with my head and clouding my emotions.
After talking for a while, I finally make my decision. I wait for the current conversation to lull before making my move. "Well, Zach, thanks for letting me borrow Destinee for a few days so we could work things out between us. It was nice meeting you. I'm just going to make myself scarce to give you guys some time alone. There's a bar down the street, right? Cobrahs or something?"
Destinee nods, sharing a smile with Zach, a mixture between relief and desire. They've been celibate for a week for my sake, their thoughts plastered clearly. It makes my blood boil and my desire to go blossoms ever stronger. "Yeah, just be careful, okay?"
I smile dutifully with a curt nod, "of course, Des, I always am." She's too distracted to note the semi-sarcastic irony of my attempted joke, and I excuse myself out the door.
As soon as I'm outside the apartment complex, I pause to let the cool evening air wash over me. My rage subsides enough to think straight. I was being insane. We weren't kids anymore, I couldn't let idle fantasies cloud my thoughts. She was my sister. There was no if, ands, or buts about it. Whatever I thought I felt, I needed it flushed out of my system for good.
Walking slowly to enjoy the night, I stop at the nearby convenience store and pick up a pack of Marlboro red 100's. I smoked in the army and quit right after, but whenever I drank those familiar cravings would always creep back up. Better safe than sorry.
Cobrahs was a simple storefront hollowed at and converted to a 'clubby' type bar. The air reeked of stale smoke and bar food as I entered, but the sounds of classic rock music instead of constant rap was enough to make me want to give it a chance. Not that I minded rap or anything, it just seemed unavoidable in the states like everyone was trying too hard to prove something.
Still fairly early, there weren't a huge cluster of people yet, so I settled for a spot by the bar where I could watch people playing pool. I grinned, tempted to hustle a few games for a quick buck, but really, I had no need currently for the money and if I was going to be staying here for a while it would be better not to piss off the locals.
The bartender finally made her way over to me, a cute, short brunette with enough meat to be considered curvy border lining chubby. I had no issue with a girl with some meat on her bones, but I much more preferred short, petite, and fiery. She looked a little too tame for my taste, so I just smiled friendly back at her.