Part Two
The next morning I awoke in a cold sweat. The suffocating cloud of shame still hovered over me, my head foggy and reeling over the previous night's events. How could I have jerked off thinking about my own mother? I never once even had a hint of a sexual thought about her back in high school. How could have finding her that way have had such an effect on me now? What if my father had come home to see me spying on my mom pleasuring herself? He'd kill me!
I shakily got out of bed, showered, and changed into a sky blue Ambrecrombie polo and pressed pink bermuda shorts. I put some wax in my hair, pushing around the thickening agent until the hair on top stood up. I admired the shaved sides and lengthy spiked, messy hair on top. Satisfied, I went downstairs for some breakfast.
Mom was in the kitchen. She wore a golden silk slip dress, her hair back in a messy bun while she poured boiling water over her glass pour-over coffee maker.
"Good morning, sweetie," mom said as I came into the kitchen.
"Morning," I grumbled.
I went straight to the pantry and tried to avoid eye contact. I mindlessly looked over the different types of cereal, not really reading the labels or registering the different shapes in flavors. I could still see the outline of my mother in my peripheral field, and desperately tried to ignore the tight silk hugging her thighs and buttocks.
"You seem awfully quiet this morning. Everything okay?"
"Yeah, just tired. Last night I was really hot, had a rough time getting to sleep."
"Oh ok. How late did you stay up?"
I started to say ten- but I stopped. I realized I'd be admitting I was awake last night while she was doing...that in her room. I didn't want to, I couldn't bring myself to make the admission.