(Thanks for the feedback on part one. Because of that, & the fact that this is the consummation, part 2 is longer. Some background is repeated, but reading part 1 would fill in the rest.)
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"Remember that wet dream you had last night, Roxy?"
My daughter knew what I was referring to, but decided to play dumb, like I had the night before. Only I hadn't been acting.
"Well, it wasn't just a dream, honey. It was me."
Her eyes lit up at my admission, though I suspected she had known already. "So can I sleep in your bed now, daddy?"
I stared at her kind of blankly, suddenly worried by what this was probably leading to. Exchanging handjobs while the other one slept was one thing. But now I started wondering if it was okay to take that next logical step. "I'm not sure we should..."
She interrupted, "But I love you. I...need you."
"I don't think it's...."
"Right? But it's not the worst thing in the world either. I'm an adult now and it won't hurt anyone." Her face turned red as she said shyly, "I at least want you to be my first."
Maybe that's why I was hesitant. Without a social life all through high school, of course she was a virgin. Since I had gotten her mother pregnant right out of high school and had been in mourning since she died, that meant Roxy would only be my second. "Why don't we wash the dishes, get ready for bed, and talk about it in the morning. I need to do some thinking." And I had decided I would need to take a cold shower.
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Standing under the water, I tried to make a decision based on our current situation. It was important to suppress my memories of Roxanne as a child and focus on the woman that I was now living with. The problem with that was that my excitement wouldn't go down, even in the cold.