We lay still for some time like that. It was nice being so close to him, to feel his warm skin against me and his breath on my back. I loved my brother. I knew then that I always had, at some level, known that he was the one I wanted. But wait.
A panic ran over me. What the fuck just happened? I could feel his softening cock in my ass and my ass was literally full of his cum. What did we just do?
"Are you ok?" Peter asked in my ear. He was so sensitive, I am sure he felt me tensing up.
"Um...yeah of course," I lied. I began to wiggle out from under him. "I need to get cleaned up and into bed." I got up and quickly grabbed my clothes. "4:30 is gonna hit us quick."
Peter sat up. He still had his shirt on, and his pants were around his ankles. He looked at me with a bit of a frown. "Andrea, are you ok? I mean with what just happened?"
I glanced at him as I slid my pants on. My heart pounded from panic, but I am not gonna lie, he still looked so beautiful to me. If I wasn't totally freaking out I would have, climbed on him and sucked his softening cock--I didn't care that it was just up my ass. "Yeah, I am fine," I managed to say. "I just, it is late and..."
"Stop," he said firmly. "Look, you are my sister. You are the closest one to me in the world. I know the, what just happened I mean, is so unexpected. I can't believe what just happened, I am reeling. I just need to know that you are ok."
I looked away from him. "Peter," I started. What do I say? "I am fine, I mean, I can't believe we just did that. I mean, you are my brother and we just had anal sex."
He smiled at me. "Yes we did."
I frowned at him. What were we doing? "I am sorry I just need to think about this. I mean, I am fine, but I need to think about this."
I walked out of his room before he could reply. My stomach was in knots and I felt tears building up around my eyes. I fell into my bed and lay still. Did that just happen? I could feel his cum in my ass, some of it leaking out. Fuck. It did. What do I do now? I went into the bathroom and did my best to clean up. I sat on the toilet for a long time. Peter knocked several times, but I just told him that I needed time. A cold feeling ran over me. My mind raced back and forth, trying to wrap around the fact that I had just had sex with my brother.
I slipped out of the bathroom as quietly as I could and went back to my bed. I grabbed my phone and sent a text to Tom: Hi honey. I miss you.
I felt like a fraud sending it.
My phone beeped. "Miss you too. I hope you have a good trip."
I sighed and wrote back: I really liked what we did today. Can't wait to feel you inside me.
He wrote back: Me too. You give great head.
See and that was the problem. Texting Tom and even talking to Tom was like trying to squeeze water out of a rock. I tossed my phone to the floor and sighed. The truth was that this was one of those moment when I had to be real. What was I feeling? Why was I texting this boy that seemed to have no interest in me? More importantly, why do I always run back to Peter? I mean I loved him. He was my closest friend. But, is he my lover? Or is that what you would call what we did?
My mind ran in circles and somewhere between cringing that I was going to end up on some talk show and missing Peter's touch I fell asleep.
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"Andrea," Peter's voice was very soft but firm.
I opened my eyes to see him sitting beside me on the bed. It was good to see him.
"It's time to get up, I don't think you set your alarm."
I glanced at my clock. 4:40. "Shit!" I blurted and sat up. "Is dad pissed?"