I arrive home and toss the car keys on the table. 'Mom, I'm back.'
'Did they catch the train?'
'Yes, no problem. Dad and I even had time for a quick drink in the buffet.'
I collapse onto the sofa as you walk in from the kitchen and sit opposite me. Not for the first time I cast my eyes over your face and body and marvel at your sexiness.
'Good,' you say. 'Your gran rang ten minutes before you returned to check everything was fine.'
'Yes, fine. I'm going for a shower, Mom. Want to watch a DVD?'
'That would be wonderful Chris. It's been ages since it was just the two of us.'
..
You're sitting in your usual spot on the sofa and look up as I enter the lounge. 'Oh, you're in your dressing gown.'
'Yes, Mom, I'm off to bed after the film.'
I settle next to you and you give me an affectionate kiss on the cheek. 'Gran's so excited at knowing Claire is on her way,' you say. 'Such a shame they live so far away. She misses her granddaughter.' You press the remote to start the DVD and rest your head on my shoulder. 'This is good,' you whisper. 'Just us two.'
'Mom, I need to talk. It's kinda serious.'
'OK, son. What's it about?' Your eyes are on the TV screen watching the warning about illegal copies of movies.
'It started just after Claire was born and you came back from the hospital.'
You put the DVD on pause 'What about it? You have me curious.'
'It was a few weeks after my eighteenth birthday. Didn't understand what was happening to me. You recall when the midwife came to the house because you weren't able to breast feed Claire?'
'Yes, she was struggling to suckle.'
'You opened your blouse ... the bra undid at the front. You unfastened it and lifted your breasts out.'
You turn to face me. 'Son, that was normal. Because Claire wasn't getting my milk, the midwife was checking my teats ... but maybe you shouldn't have been watching.'
'Hm, maybe, but it was amazing. You being naked gave me a funny feeling in my stomach.'
'I'm sorry you were watching, but I'm sure those feelings were natural. It's ok, Chris.'
'But, the thing is, you didn't put them away after the midwife left and I couldn't stop gazing at them. They were beautiful and ... they still are.'
You chuckle. 'I would hope so, it wasn't that long ago. Look son, I think I understand. Obviously, boys have urges and are curious about women. As you get older you'll find out more I'm sure.'
'Mom, you're right, but the point is now I understand. I have ... I have sexual feelings for you. Can't stop fantasising about being in your bed and playing with your boobs.'
You blush and clearly you're shaken by what I've told you, so probably don't notice I've moved so our bodies are touching.
'You musn't fantasise about me ... really, you shouldn't ... it may be natural but ...'
I'm tight up against you on the sofa with your right arm trapped between our bodies. I put my arm around your shoulders. 'Can I kiss you, Mom?'
'No! Oh son ... oh, oh' I suspect, to take your mind of what's happening, you absent mindedly pick up the remote from your lap and shut off the TV. 'No, Chris ... this has gone far enough ... sorry, but ...'
I grab your free hand and transfer it to my hand, the one around your shoulders. You're helpless, but my right hand is free to roam. 'Just one kiss ... please'
'Chris, what are doing? Don't hold me so tight. ... oh ... ok, just one kiss, if you promise to behave.'
Our mouths meet and my tongue pushes against your lower lip. I groan with pleasure. You return the kiss, but won't part your lips to allow my tongue to play in your mouth and, almost immediately, you break away. My fingers grip your chin and I kiss you again. This time with short, tender kisses. After each kiss, I pull back an inch or two, then my lips are back on yours. Nothing demanding and no tongues, just gentle brushes of my lips against your lower lip and then, your top lip. Time stops and the only noise is our heavy breathing and the occasional sigh.
When you pull back, your eyes are closed and your face has a soft glow. You open your eyes and almost smile at me. 'Son, I don't feel right about this intimacy, but the way you kiss me excites me and maybe, maybe, because it's so undeniably wrong, it's even more thrilling.'
This time, you kiss me. Our kisses are firm, our mouths pressed hard together, less tender, replaced with passion, such passion you don't notice my errant fingers undoing the middle buttons of your blouse. You don't notice what I'm doing until my hand slides inside and captures your left breast.
You pull your lips from mine and look down at my hand's invasion. 'Oh son ... ohhhh .... No, ohhhhh.'
'Darling Mum, I've never been so excited. How I've longed for this.' I pull down the lace cup and groan at the feel of your bare flesh.
'Ohhhhh .... Oh son ... oh, shit ... don't ... ohhh.'
I pull on the nipple and roll it around. 'Mom, is this what I should do to your nipple? Do you like it?'
'Stop, you must stop ... this instant.'
It's clear you aren't going to make it easy for me. I need to go to the next stage. I retrieve the handcuffs from the pocket of my dressing gown and snap one cuff on the wrist I'm holding.