I couldn't sleep. I was lying in bed tossing and turning. The nightcap I had before bed, which usually knock me out every night, was not working tonight. Not only could I not sleep, I just couldn't get my mind off my father. We had such a lovely evening earlier. The candlelight diner. The walk in the park. The dancing in the jazz club. I had the time of my life. It was the perfect build up. But a perfect build up to what? If he was by boyfriend then the logical conclusion would be that we would both end up naked right now rolling around in bed. We would be having all kinds of fun. At least my boyfriend would. I always ensure that he gets off but then all he does is roll off and falls asleep. In fact, that's why he is now my ex-boyfriend.
I wish dad were in here laying beside me. A sudden feeling of guilt overtook me as I realized the sick, forbidden thoughts I was having about my father. I jumped out of bed and went to the kitchen to get a glass of milk and some cookies. I wasn't really hungry but because I couldn't sleep I decided what the hell. As I sipped that glass of milk I couldn't help wondering if dad was having trouble sleeping too. I put down the glass of milk and walked down the hall towards his bedroom. I stood at the door watching his pajama-clad body fast asleep on his back, his legs wide open. The tip of his dick was barely visible through the fly. It was a very inviting sight. Quietly, I walked into the bedroom and kneeled beside the bed.
Leaning in, I examined his flaccid dick a little closer. He was not circumcised and I could resist reaching out to touch it. I wanted to pull back the skin to see if any of that white stuff had gathered around the head like it usually does on my ex-boyfriend. As my hand was about to touch him, dad stirred, causing me to jump back. I stayed on the floor. Convinced he had not awake, I came back up and settled on the edge of the bed. His dick had retreated back inside the pajamas. Carefully, I reached out and fished out his dick. He did not budge. Slowly, I pulled back the skin to see the mushroom shape head come into full view.
There was a little creamy custard around the rim. I leaned forward, stretched out my tongue, and tenderly licked the tip. The musty smell of his cock and balls went straight to my head. The smell was intoxicating. I kissed the head and licked it again. I began licking in earnest now, completely forgetting where I was and who this was. It wasn't long before his hand came to rest on my head. "Oh, Laura, what are you doing?" I decided to go full throttle and took it into my mouth. His hand was pushing me away but I was determined and kept sucking.
"Stop it, Laura. We can't do this," he yelled.
"Why? Doesn't it feel good? Nobody's gonna know. It's just you and me, daddy." Then he took my head firmly into his hand and lifted it from his crotch.
"Don't you like it, daddy?"
"I'm not answering that. Get out of my room," he snapped. I stood there, baffled, staring at him. I guess I was hoping he would like it so much that he would change his mind. "Go on. Now." I wanted to say something but the anger in his voice and eyes prevented me. My head dropped in shame as I walked back to my room. A thick, cloud of depression landed on top of my head. What had I done? What was I thinking? "Laura. Laura."
"Yes, dad," I responded. What was going on? Did he change his mind? Great. I knew he would. I hurried back down the hallway to his bedroom. He was standing by his bedroom window, his back towards me. "Yes, daddy," I said sheepishly. "Have a seat on the bed," he said, then walked over and joined me. "Honey," he said. "What kind of father would I be to allow you to do something like that? I thought you were different but you are crazy just like your mother. I can't allow you to stay in this house after tonight." Like a sharp sword, those words went straight to my heart. The man that I loved had outright rejected me. "Pack your suitcases and leave first thing in the morning." I began to sob. "Don't kick me out, daddy. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me. Please, please, forgive me." He stared me dead in the eyes and shouted, "You are history. You are gone."
Back in my room I was sobbing like a waterfall into my pillow. My whole life had crashed down on me. Where would I live? With no job, what would I do? I had lost by mother because she couldn't control her libido. Now I was losing my dad because I couldn't control mine. How stupid could I have been to think that he would have allowed me to suck him off? That was the last thing I remembered before falling off into a deep sleep.
I must have been the running water from the shower across from my bedroom that woke me. A sharp cramp hit me in my groin area. I needed to pee badly. I jumped up and rushed to the bathroom. My father always had a habit of leaving the bathroom door slightly open when he showered but this time it was shut. I knocked but there was no response.
"Dad, I coming in to pee," I yelled over the running water. "Did you hear me?" Still no answer. I knew he heard. I thought about going outside in the back yard. But why should I when he already kicked me out? I pushed the door open and walked in. The shower curtain is not transparent so we weren't able to see each other. I was sitting on the toilet, my pee streaming out when the shower went off. My heart leapt. He drew back the curtain and stepped out. My eyes automatically glanced at his dick and swinging balls beneath. I caught myself and looked into his eyes as he grabbed his towel and wrapped it around his body. "I'm sorry about last night, dad," I offered. All I got back was a dirty look as he walked out of the bathroom.
After brushing my teeth and washing my face, I was back in my bedroom packing my suitcase. My back to the door, I was bent over stuffing some of my panties into the side of the suitcase when I suddenly felt a presence hovering behind me. I turned around. My father was a couple feet away. The suddenness of his presence and his voice startled me and I instinctively jumped back and fell into the suitcase. "Are you okay?" he asked, extending his hand.
"I'm fine. You just startled me, that's all," I said, giving him my hand. He pulled me to my feet and it dawned on me that he was still in his towel. I couldn't help noticing the tent at his crotch.
"I haven't stopped thinking about what you did last night," he whispered, pulling me closer.
"I...I really hope you forgive me, daddy. Give me another chance, please. It won't ever happen again," I pleaded.
"I just called the office and told them I won't be coming in today," he said. Apparently he was going to take me to the train station so I could go and join mom. I didn't want his help.