Could we make up for all the years we had lost?
A very special thank you to rufriter for graciously taking the time to edit this story for me. I am indebted to you, sir.
Note 1:
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Note 2:
This story is dedicated to, Lin, a very special online friend.
It was early in January. I was in the military stationed in the Middle East. Having been in the military for almost twenty years, I was seriously considering retirement. I was tired of military life. I wanted to buy a small place somewhere and retire peacefully. The only family I had left was my younger sister, Lin, whom I had not seen or even talked with for many, many years. I wanted to see her and see if we could somehow make up for all those missing years. If I could find Lin and she was receptive to it perhaps I could arrange to take my annual leave and visit and maybe spend Valentines Day with her. I could not think of a better time to surprise her.
I wondered how she looked today. I always thought she would grow into a beautiful young woman. From the time I reached puberty, I was attracted to her. Lin started to develop at a rather early age. I would often try to find a way to see her without clothes. On very few occasions, I was successful in my attempts. Because she was my sister, I could never let her know how much I lusted for her but, of course, I knew nothing could ever develop between us. All I could do was fantasize about her.
Our parents had divorced just before I graduated from high school and left for college. It was a very awkward time for all of us. Dad moved out of state and Mom went into a deep depression. In the beginning, Lin and I were very close but as time went on we drifted further and further apart. After college, I joined the military and due to numerous deployments, I had rarely come home. Lin got married and moved away so we basically lost track of each other.
I had a few relationships over the years but I always seemed to try to make every girl fit the mental mold of my sister. I knew it was crazy but I could not get over my desire for her. The sad thing was I didn't understand why I felt the way I did. The thought nagged me for years until it reached the point at which I knew I must do something to resolve it. I had to find a way to let her know how I felt and finally get her out of my mind. Deep inside my tangled mind, I hoped somehow her feelings for me were similar. I had accumulated quite a lot of leave time so I decided to track Lin down and, if nothing else, we could become reacquainted. We were not estranged, we had simply lost contact with each other.
Lin had no reason to hide from anyone, least of all from me, so finding her was not a difficult matter. However, finding a way to get her to forgive me for not having been in her life for so many years could prove to be somewhat challenging. She may feel I had abandoned her.
In my search to find her, I was able to get her last known address. Of course, getting her telephone number might prove to be far more difficult since there is no huge directory of cell phone listings and I could not locate a telephone number for the address I had. Lin, like so many people in recent years, had probably chosen to have only a cell phone. However, a few phone calls to some longtime friends in military intelligence who had civilian connections proved fruitful and I was able to obtain her phone number.
It took me three days to finally make myself dial her number. Fortunately, she answered when I called. It took a few minutes for her to process that it was actually me who was calling and this was not a prank call. She wanted to know how I had managed to get her cell phone number and I told her I had a few friends who track down such things for me.
We managed to get through the first few tearful and awkward moments of not having been in contact for such a long time. It had been almost twenty years since we had last seen each other, almost as many since we had last talked by phone. It was so good for me to hear her voice and to know she was OK.
I explained to Lin that I had some accumulated leave time available and I would like to come and visit with her for a few days. She became extremely excited and told me I could stay for as long as I liked. She said she had been divorced for about two years and had recently become involved with someone new but they were not yet serious enough to live together. I breathed a sigh of relief thinking I might actually tell her of my long-suppressed feelings for her. I knew that by doing so I would run the risk of her thinking of me as a sick pervert and alienate me from her forever. I would make that decision after we had spent some time together. Being with her might, in itself, be enough to eradicate my feelings.
I explained to her that I was in the Middle East and it would be about a month before I could come visit her. If she was alright with it I could probably make it to her in time for Valentine's Day. She told me she would love for me to do that. I promised I would call her as often as I could which would give us some opportunity to catch up on our lives. She was insistent that I try to call her every day and she also wanted us to have a few video calls if possible. I told her I would do the best I could.
I arranged for us to have a video call a few days later and I was stunned when I saw her. She was even more beautiful than I had imagined she would be. I wasn't sure she was actually my little sister. She looked more like she should have been Salma Hayek's sister. My heart felt as if it had stopped and I knew my long hidden incestuous thoughts would never be realized. Lin was far beyond my reach.
I continued to call her as often as I could and we had video calls every few days. I couldn't quite figure out what was going on but the nature of our calls became less and less like of that of siblings and more like we were becoming lovers. I shook off that thought as just being due to my rapidly growing attraction to such an exotically beautiful woman who was showing me a tremendous amount of attention.
At the end of our last video call, Lin whispered huskily, "Hurry home, big brother, I'm getting very anxious for you to be here."
"I will do the best I can, Lin, but right now I have to file a situation report. I'll call you tomorrow." I said hurriedly before disconnecting the call. The tone of her voice began to haunt me almost instantly. I had been without a woman for far too long and my rational thoughts were almost out of control. Lin was my sister. How could I think such things?
Still, I could not shake the incestuous thoughts I was having of my beautiful little sister. I knew had to find a way to either make these thoughts go away or to turn them into a reality. I only wished she was someone other than my own younger sister.
I got a complete physical, including blood tests to make certain I had no difficulties in my travel plans. Finally, I was on my way to visit my beautiful sister, Lin. My thoughts made me feel as if I was caught in a sirocco. During my several connecting flights I tried to sleep but I could not. I had arranged to make a brief stop at SHAEF Headquarters in Casteau, Belgium. I had been stationed there briefly and I knew Belgian chocolates were among the finest in the world. Since I would be seeing Lin on Valentine's Day, it seemed quite natural to bring her chocolate from Belgium.
