It was a Saturday night. I was home alone. Eric was over Ben's house with a group boys. He had left early in the morning. They were having a marathon gaming day. The last thing he had told me was not to wait up for him. He might not even be home till tomorrow sometime.
I wished him luck and he was gone. It was about 10 o'clock. I had been sipping wine and had a devilish idea. I knew where Eric kept his stash of pre-rolled joints, so I decided to steal one. He'd never miss it. I figured I needed a distraction, after the last week of dreams and the trauma they had brought me. The images of my son and me, together, needed to be washed away and forgotten.
I had just started an eighties chick flick and was about to reach for my lighter and this perfectly shaped joint when my iPhone buzzed. I picked it up and my heart lifted when I saw it was a Facetime call from Eric. I paused the movie.
He had a big grin on his face and I wondered if he had been smoking too. He asked cheerfully, "Hey mom, what you up too?"
I smiled back, bit my lower lip and said, "Oh nothing, just sipping wine and about to watch a movie."
He glanced away for a second as there was a loud cheer in the room behind him. He looked back at his phone, "Sounds like fun. Hey mom..."
He was interrupted, Ben's voice echoed, he sounded annoyed, "Hey Eric, come on man. I'm getting killed here!"
Eric shook his head and yelled back with a touch of irritation, "Ok man, Jesus, just give me a second."
He again looked at me on his phone, "Hey mom, sleep mom, sleep."
Suddenly I was very tired. I yawned, my eyes closed, the sound of the TV faded.
I heard Eric's voice, "Mom, I want you to keep doing what you're doing, watch your movie, when it's over, go to your bedroom, I want you to take off your blouse and skirt and put on something sexy. Put on makeup like you're going out and on that perfume I like. Then go to my bedroom, get on the bed and start without me. I'll be home in a couple hours. Okay mom?"
I titled my head; my mind went blank for a second. I licked my lips and replied quietly, "Yes honey, I understand. See you soon."
He gave me a mischievous grin, "You won't remember me telling you to do that, you'll think it was your idea. And you won't remember what we do. It'll be like a dream?" He blew me a kiss and said, "See ya, mom," and he was gone.
I looked at my phone, thinking, what did Eric want, say? Oh, he just called to say he'd be home soon and start without him. Start what? I shrugged, picked up the joint, lit it, took a hit. I unpaused the flick, took another drag, felt the grass start to take effect and leaned back on the couch. I love chick flicks; the girl always gets her man.
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The movie ended and, yep, the girl got her man and the man got the girl. Boy, did he get her. I chuckled, the girls are always so wide eyed horny and want to get fucked in those films.
The joint was long gone, so was the glass of wine. I got up, left the glass and lighter on the coffee table, turned off the TV. I walked up to my bedroom, stripped off my blouse, skirt and slippers.
I looked into the mirror. Saw the same old middle-aged lady that was always there. I thought, those girls always get their man, huh. Well, how do they do it? I smiled and said out loud, "By dolling themselves up and looking like they want to get fucked, that's how."
I went over to my dresser. Bottom drawer, that's where they are. Gee, I don't even remember the last time I even opened that drawer.
I pulled out an unopened box of shear high thigh, black silk stockings and a blacked laced bra with matching panties. God, I had bought these years ago. I had planned to go to a New Years eve party, but Eric got sick so I stayed home with him.
I then noticed my old shear black knee length robe. I used to call it, 'I'm horny and want to get fucked robe' when I was married. Maybe if I wore it more often? I brushed the thought out of my mind, realized it probably wouldn't have mattered anyway.
I yanked the robe out of the drawer and flung it towards the bed. I watched it flutter slowly down. I sighed, walked over to my vanity chair, carrying my lingerie. I opened the stockings box, pulled out the pair if stockings. Putting one on the vanity, I started to roll up the other with my fingers, thinking, gently, don't run them. God, has it been that long since I've worn stockings. I barely wear pantyhose now-a-days, and they are made virtually indestructible.
I bent my leg up and pointed my toes at the opening. I slid my foot into the silk. I slowly pulled the stocking over my foot, ankle, my calf, my knee. I noticed my toes still pointing out, half my leg encased in the shear silk. I thought it looked sexy. I smiled and pulled the stocking up half my thigh. It felt so cool up and down the entire length against the skin of my leg. The stretchy four-inch, lacy top band held the stocking in place.
I slipped on the other stocking, thankfully they didn't run. I rubbed my thighs together. The silky smoothness and sexy look it gave my legs made me smile. I was also thankful that I had showered and shaved my legs, pits and trimmed my pubic hair earlier that afternoon. I felt clean, fresh and a little devilish.
I picked up the lacy bra next to me, put it on backwards so I could clasp it shut, turned it around put my arms through the shoulder straps and lifted my tits into each cup, adjusting them so they both fit just right. The bra didn't give them much support, but my heavy tits looked kind of nice encased in the cups black webbing.
I took the flimsy panties off the bed, lifted my foot off the floor, slipped one foot through and then the other. I stood up, pulling the French cut panties that barely cover my pussy and ass.
I stood looking at my body in the full-length mirror. I twisted around looking at my front, sides and back. I groaned. Everything seemed to sag. My tits, my ass, my tummy, my thighs, even my calves.