tomorrow, 1:29 am
The fumbling of keys and stupid laughter woke him this time. There was a lot of shushing and snorting and banging into things until the door finally opened. He shut his eyes and feigned sleep. He wanted nothing to do with either of them.
“Quiet!” he heard his mother say. “Don’t wake ‘im.”
Jesus, they’re both drunk,
he thought.
“But mom,” his sister said, “We gotta... we gotta give ‘im th’cream!”
“Ohhh,” his mother exclaimed. “The cream.”
“Twice a day,” Selena nodded. “Doct’r’s orders.”
“Oh, but let’s not wake ‘im up,” Holly pleaded. “He’s had such a rough time.”
“Fine,” Selena agreed. “Let’s roll ‘im over.”
Benjamin was unsure of what to do: should he tell them both to go to hell or continue to fake it? Either way, they would make him do what they wanted. Better to pretend he had no autonomy than to admit it was true.
He felt the blanket removed from his legs. Two hands from two separate people yanked him over, rolling him off his stomach and onto his back. He kept his eyes shut.
“Where the hell is that cream?” his mother said out loud. Through his eyelids, he could sense the bright light of a cell phone passing over him. Without warning, he felt his shorts being lowered, pulled down, and then pulled off of his legs. He tried to regulate his breathing.
“Aw, he looks so adorable,” he heard Selena say.
“You,” his mom chimed in, “have a
very
attractive brother.”
Selena sighed. “I know, it’s intolerable.”
What was happening?
He thought.
Why are they talking about me like this?
“It’s kinda weird that he can’t get laid.”
“Selena!” his mother scolded while laughing. “No pictures!”
“Oh, just one,” she laughed. Ben gritted his teeth.
“Be serious,” his mom reprimanded. “Hold the light still... oh, it looks even redder than before!”
“Maybe he was beating it off,” Selena suggested. Ben clenched tighter.
“Well, I hope not,” Holly added. “The doctor was very clear about not making it worse.”
Ben reflexively inhaled as his mother’s warm fingers took hold of his penis and rubbed the cold cream into his skin. He practiced breaths he learned in gym class to keep his heart rate down, concealing them as light snores. He would wait for it all to end. Strangely, it kept going – longer strokes and deeper massages. Her hands went everywhere.
He heard his mother sigh. “Really is a great cock,” she said. “Perfect size... and it’s, like, not hard but not soft, y’know? Feels fucking fantastic.”
His ears started burning.
“Just wish we’d circumcised ‘im... his father wouldn’t allow it.”
“Lemme take it for a spin,” Selena slurred. Ben’s stomach turned.
“No way,” his mom jeered. “My perk.”
“Let me do it at least once,” Selena pouted.
“Maybe another time... enough fun for now,” They both giggled.
“G’night, mom,” Selena yawned.
“Night, sweetie!”
Benjamin was frozen stiff. He couldn’t believe the freakish nature of their drunken conversation. There was no way he would get back to sleep tonight, especially considering how close they all slept. His mom lay on the big couch only three feet away, and his sister – his half-sister, truth be told – now climbed into the mattress next to him, covering them both beneath thin bedsheets, her bare legs brushing against his as she shifted restively.
His mind raced for what felt like forever.
Is that why Selena was so cruel to him? Because she desired him? Why his mother tolerated her cruelty?
Why, in fact, she never respected his boundaries, why she constantly barged in on him in the bathroom, why she stayed in the room with him during physicals? Was something innately... wrong with her? Does that explain why she was friends with trash like Mary Beth Haglin, cruising the town together for barely legal pieces of ass?
It was only when he heard his mother’s snores that his thoughts were diverted – not by the snores themselves, but by the hand gripping at his cock.
Selena.
She had waited until their mother was asleep, now fully stroking it with her right hand. With her left hand, she took hold of his left wrist. He continued to play dead, even as she placed his limp hand on top of her crotch. She had on no pants or underwear. With her fingers, she moved him like a puppetmaster – into her slit and around her clitoris. It was getting wetter and wetter.
His cock once again swelled. He cursed his youth and sexual prowess. She was tugging at it deliciously, while the sticky mess of her pussy aroused him like nothing else. Abruptly she stopped and rolled away from him. Suddenly she took his right wrist and pulled him onto her; he could feel the softness of her ass pushing up against him; her fingers reaching through her thighs to take hold of his cock again, thrusting him into her till he could feel the warm bath of her insides.
He remained motionless. She did not – gyrating in tiny circles, cute little grunts each time he touched the back of her. He allowed himself to open his eyes, looking down on Selena’s perfect ass in the glow of the night lights. With her hand she pressed down on their genitals, tightening the space, rubbing herself as well. Her motions hastened; her grunts got deeper. She made sounds as if before a sneeze – and then
whammo
. He heard her moaning as quietly as possible, with hiccup noises breaking them up, and then hard panting.
Gently she removed him from herself and rolled him off of her. Before he fell asleep, he detected the low sniffing of a silent cry.
He, on the other hand, was smiling. He hadn’t come.
***
next week, 8:15 am
“Knock, knock!”
Benjamin turned toward the bathroom door, where his mother had entered, letting the warm water wash over the front of his body, and waved. “Morning, mom!”