I would never have gotten into the fix in which I found myself if I hadn't gotten into a really big fix. I was raised in a good home by good parents. We are still regular church-goers and my parents are involved in the community, volunteering in various things. I'm not going to get into any details, given the nature of my story.
To put it bluntly, I've been working as a prostitute. I looked it up in the google dictionary:
prosβ’tiβ’tute
ΛprΓ€stΙΛt(y)oΝot/
noun
noun: prostitute; plural noun: prostitutes
1. β¨a person, in particular a woman, who engages in sexual activity for payment.
I was sure as hell raised up to believe that that was an illegal activity and surely immoral, against all of the things I was taught.
I checked it out in the local laws, too:
They prohibit prostitution, soliciting for prostitution, and pimping. When I read the statutes, it felt like I had a lead weight in my stomach, realizing what I'd done. The penalties were not trivial, either:
I'd surely done what the statute said I shouldn't. I'm just glad I wasn't busted and I don't do that any more. It was something I thought I had to do to deal with a major disaster during my freshman year in college. I'd been going to the local college, living with my parents to save money. Of course, I was a pretty dumb girl without the sense the Lord gave a dead goose.
Let me explain. I was drinking at a party with the rest of the girls on our cheer squad. There were some athletes there, lots of loud music, and some of the girls were using ecstasy, cocaine, or marijuana. In other words, a pretty basic college party and rave. I've never been interested in most of the drugs, but you see them around. I just like wine coolers and I'd had about five before I saw it was time to go.
I was driving my old junker car and I thought I was ok to drive home. It was only a mile or so away. Anyway, I backed out of the driveway and it was dark and I just didn't see the other car. It was my fault. No question about it. The thing is, my insurance was the least the law allowed. It only covered injuries. It didn't cover the damage I did to a late-model Toyota. The good thing was the driver was kind to a rather stupid girl who should never have been driving. He agreed to get an estimate for the body damage and I agreed to pay it off. He told me he had to have it fixed and I had to pay for it. If I got it paid off in time, he would not file a report with the police.
Naturally, being totally panicked, I agreed to anything if it didn't lead to my getting a ticket or especially going to jail for DUI. They're really fierce about enforcing DUIs here and I was still underage.
The smart thing would have been to confess my sins to my parents and let them hire me a lawyer and deal with it the right way. I panicked and this is my story.
I told my best friend, Angie, on the cheer squad. She was a pretty wild girl and would do pretty much anything for fun or on a dare. She listened to my story and she looked at me soberly.
"Shit, Heidi, you really put your foot in it this time, didn't you?"
I nodded mournfully. "Yeah, I'm not sure what to do. I don't have the kind of money this is going to take and I don't know where to get it."
We batted ideas around for a while before Angie got a look on her face. I knew that look usually meant trouble, but I finally took the bait. "Okay, what do you think? You got an idea?"
"How far did you get with Steve?"
Steve was my boyfriend that I'd just broken up with. He started dating one of the other girls on the squad. "Third base."
"You weren't doing the dirty deed?"
"Hell, no. I'm saving that for somebody really good. Steve's an asshole."
She laughed. "Was he any good?"
"Shit. He'd give a couple licks with his tongue and then try to stick his cock in me."
"Oh, yeah, that one. Well, did you give him head? Get him off?"
I nodded. "He got some really good head from me. I always got him off."
She laughed. "Not hard, is it? Guys are so easy."
I shook my head again. "Yeah. You give them head and they blow and go."
She shook with laughter. "Well, sometimes that's a good thing."
"It is? How? No satisfaction in it for me."
"What if they paid you to suck them off?"
"Isn't that just a little illegal? Like prostitution or something?"
"Not if all you do is suck on it 'til he shoots. It's not like you let him fuck you or anything."
I looked at her sidelong. "Are you crazy? You can go to jail for that and then no scholarship no nothing. You have to go work doing fast food or something to make my rent cuz my parents would toss my ass out of the house if I did anything like that."
"They don't have to know anything. I've been working at a glory hole for months and I've saved enough for my first year of college. It's easy and you never have to take your pants off."