From Love to Lust
I've had a strange upbringing to say the least. My mother left dad and me when I was very young. Dad got remarried to Betty and she already had a baby daughter, Jenny. She was born out of wedlock, the father had done a disappearing act when he'd learned Betty was pregnant. So there I was with a new mother and a new baby sister. I loved them both from the beginning and we grew very close, especially Jenny and me. Everything was fine for years, then dad upped and left to live with a younger woman. But to all intents and purposes, Betty was mum and Jenny was my sister so it was natural that I stayed.
This put me in the precarious position though, of being the 'man' of the house. Jenny had only ever known dad as her father and she was devastated when he left. I suppose because I was the only male left it tightened the bond between us even more and. touchingly, she told me after he'd gone, that I was now her daddy. Naturally she didn't call me that but she did change from calling me James to Jamie so that she had her own special name for me. But when we were alone cuddled up, watching TV or reading, she'd often call me daddy-Jamie and being some three years my junior, she always came to me for fatherly advice.
Mum was often away on weekends visiting her boyfriend leaving Jenny and me together and it was one of those times when the unimaginable started between us.
It was a Saturday evening and Jenny and I were at home together, I was reading a book and Jenny was flipping through magazines on the floor.
"Jamie" she called out to me, "can I ask you a very leading question?"
"Well it sounds like you're going to anyway, so get on with it, I want to read this book." I told her. But I wasn't prepared for what was coming.
She got up from the floor and came over to sit beside me. Fixing me with her big round, brown eyes she said.
"Do you think it's wrong for a boy put his 'willie' in a girl's mouth?"
"Bloody hell Jen," I shot back in surprise, "you shouldn't be asking me things like that."
"Why not?" She retorted indignantly and without any sign of embarrassment.
"You're my big brother and besides, I've got no one else to ask."
Even though she'd just turned 18 Jenny had the appearance of a 15 year old. Her college pals could easily pass for 20 or 21 but it was always Jenny that didn't have a chance of getting in to a pub. When she was out with a girl friend anyone would have thought she was with her older sister.
Jenny went on. "Mandy at college reckons she does it with her boyfriend all the time. She says she wants to stay a virgin for a while yet and also, having sex like that there's no chance of getting pregnant. She say's she likes it and gets a big kick when she makes him shoot his stuff in her mouth."
Stunned at the way this was going I asked. "Is that what you want to do, is that why you want my opinion?"
"Not really" she replied. "I haven't got anyone to do it with anyway. I just wanted to talk to you about it."
The subject was getting me hot under the collar so I did a quick side step. I told her we couldn't just isolate oral sex we'd have to talk about a lot of things. I promised we'd discuss it at length the following morning. I needed time to gather my thoughts and to decide just what we would talk about. Jenny seemed a little disgruntled but accepted that's how it was.
That evening was murder. The summer heat gave way to lightning and thunder storms so Jenny stayed cuddled up to me the whole time. I couldn't get the thought of Mandy sucking her boyfriend out of my mind and, even though a lot of girls of her age had lost their virginity, I was shocked that Jenny was so sexually aware. Before Jenny had brought the subject up I'd only ever thought of her as my little sister but now I knew what she and her friends talked about, I started to see her in a different light.
Suddenly I was conscious of her small breasts against my chest and I caught myself peeking for glimpse of her knickers when she shifted and her skirt rode up. Several times as she cuddled up, she put her hand on my thigh and I had to struggle against nature not to get an erection. It was hell and I was relieved when it was time for bed. I told Jenny I was going up and that she should too. Smiling, she kissed me on the cheek, said good night and went upstairs to her room.
I got into bed confused. I hated it but I had to confess, I'd been turned on by my little step sister. A ship in the night I thought, a one off, a human quirk which would soon correct itself. The morning, I told myself, would bring back sanity. But that morning didn't have a chance.
In bed I decided to read for a while longer to change the channel in my head. But about a half hour later the door opened and in walked Jenny. She came straight over and sat on the side of the bed. Once again she fixed me with her child like eyes and said. "The weather is horrible outside, I need a cuddle"
"Look," I scolded "you're too old for this and mum wouldn't like it if I let you into my bed."
"So what? She won't know and anyway she's off enjoying herself, she's no comfort and in any case, I'd rather have you." With that she lifted the duvet, slipped in and nestled her back in to my tummy.
Jenny was only wearing a vest and pants and I was naked. As she pushed back to curl against me, my cock started to harden. When I moved away trying to conceal my erection, she just wriggled back to regain her position.
I couldn't risk Jenny discovering my sexual excitement accidentally and frightening or even disgusting her so I just had to say something.
"Jenny," I spoke softly, "please don't be afraid but you're a young woman now and you being this close to me in my bed, arouses me. I think it's better if you go back to your own room and I'll explain everything when we have our chat in the morning."
Jenny swiftly turned around to face me, her lips almost touching mine. She put her small arms around my neck and said. "Don't be silly, I felt your 'thing' sticking in my back. You're my lovely big brother, you can feel anyway you want about me and do anything you want but please don't send me away."
