I had to position her just right.
"I just can't find someone like that, and I'm not going to suck off some random guy."
And here it came, my golden opportunity was masterminded to perfection, "And I don't expect you too." I said in a fatherly tone of voice.
"Well, Daddy, what are we going to do then? I need to make at least five grand. Six would be better."
"Well there's no way you're going to make five without a couple point of view shots in the mix." I was using what's called a take away. I was making her feel like she was going to loose that five grand, that it was beyond her grasp. I'd learned that trick in some hypnosis seminar. The power of suggestion could get someone to do anything you wanted.
"Jesus Dad, then we just wasted our time for nothing. What's the point? I'm never going to make that money am I?" She was completely hopeless now. She used the optimal word, never. Once you think you're shit out of luck, that's when the light shines at the end of the tunnel.
I took a deep breath and sighed, "I don't know baby." I waited a second, and delivered the punch. "There is one guy I know who would do it."
"Really? Do I know him?" She looked at me with those longing puppy dog eyes.
But I ignored her question, "he's safe, he's been tested, he's available and you can trust him."
"Who is it?" She bit her bottom lip.
"I don't know if I should tell you this, it may ruin your relationship with him."
"Tell me. I don't care, I need that money." It was only moments away now.
"Are you sure you want to do this? I don't want to see my baby girl, regret her decision later on down the road. I mean the Internet is world wide."
"It's not like I'm going to be famous our anything. It's no big deal. I'll do it. I can't stay here another year, or two. I've got to get out on my own."
"I want to support you cause you're my baby girl. I want to see you happy. No one's telling you what to do here, you don't have to rush into college. You're may angel baby, and this is hard for me too."
"I know Daddy, I love you."
"I love you too baby girl."
"Now, tell me how big is his cock?" she asked.
"You tell me. You're sitting on it." I looked her in the eye and didn't blink.
The shock of recognition passed across her face. Then slowly it dawned on her that I was totally and completely serious.
"If I'm the camera man, it makes sense that It should be me."
"Daddy?"
"Yes, baby?"
"You'd do that for me?"
"I'd do anything for. You're my angel."
"You don't think it's weird? I mean that's incest."
"I know baby. It's for your college, and I don't see any other options. Do you?
"No."
"Okay, well, if you want to think about it. Take your time. I'll do it for you if you really want me to. Of all the times to not have a boyfriend, you picked a bad one."
"Yeah, that's too bad. I'm going..." her voice trailed off.
Katelyn got off my lap and walked to your door.
"I love you Daddy." She said, and went into her room.
Over the next hour, I watched the clock. It was like the never-ending hour. Whenever I looked up, it seemed the second hand hadn't moved. I was on fire. I wanted my daughter so desperately, but I could have just ruined our relationship. I could have caused my daughter to feel such alienation, that she'd never want to talk with me again.
My wife, Jann came home. I'd already cleaned up since I expected her and kept myself busy making dinner. Jann and Katelyn came down to eat.
Katelyn, "How come there's only two plates on the table, Dad?" Her voice seemed hurt.
"Oh, I ate already, and I have some work I need to get done on the computer." I new that if I went upstairs before my wife, she'd stay downstairs. I wanted her to talk to our daughter. I wanted her to come clean and tell Mom everything, about the car, the modeling and my outrageous proposition. Then I could get a divorce from Jan, move out and start a new life. But somewhere deep in my mind, I hoped that Kate would try to convince her mother to fall in love with me all over again. Because I needed love desperately. I was drowning in a pool of self-pity and sorrow.