Author's Note: this is the final chapter of Learning Through Porn. My thanks to everyone who has read, commented, and voted on this story. Your input has been very much appreciated. I hope I have learned from the mistakes I have made. Any successes are purely the result of my sadly twisted imagination. My apologies to anyone whose wishes for the storyline were not fulfilled.
Kitty sat in her bed, studying her toes. She felt numb. She didn't want to think about anything, about any of the stuff that had happened today. But her mind kept betraying her, bringing her back again and again to that moment...
That moment, when she had found herself with her mouth crammed full of her father's immense cock, throbbing, hot, insistent.
She shook her head involuntarily. She had been drunk. They had all been drunk. That was it. There was no need for self-recrimination.
But, really, hadn't she wanted this to happen? Hadn't that lurid scene been the inevitable outcome of all of her manipulations over the weekend? How different was it, in truth, from the way she had been sitting on her Dad's erection in his bed, both of them achieving orgasm by rubbing off on each other?
Was it the sex, or was it the fact that she hadn't been in control?
Or was that what had made it so exciting?
*****
"Oh, shit. Oh, shit, shit, shit." Mark Clifton sat in his home office, his head cradled in his hands. The moment he had embraced his daughter, her full breasts smashed on his chest, his wilting cock wet and still half-hard against her stomach; that moment had spelled the end of any possible relationship with Kitty. He had no idea how he could ever face her again.
The tears scalded his face. He had been unaware of them. He was unaware of too many things. Oh, God. The guilt. What kind of father was he?
In fact, how could he have allowed this situation to become this absurd? He had been led by his lust, betrayed by the mere animal that housed his sexuality. He had prided himself for so many years on his ability to maintain the upper hand on that part of himself. But it had gotten out of his control.
Still. He was the father. He would do whatever it took to make things right. He stood up, irresolute. Looking at the door, he felt his courage quail. How could he ever face her again?
*****
Kitty waited all evening for her father to come find her. When he didn't, not even a little knock on the door, a quiet 'good night,' she forced herself to face up to her actions. She had started this, in reality. She had been the prime mover. And it was clear that her father was not going to be the one to step up.
She looked at herself in the mirror. It wouldn't do. Not at all. For the purposed of this conversation, a little preparation was in order.
Thirty minutes later, she stood outside of his bedroom door. She took a deep breath. It was up to her, now, to repair things. To make things work in her family again. It took courage, but she had plenty of that. She thought back to the last time she had done this. That had taken more guts. That had set the groundwork. Was that really only this morning? It seemed like such a long time ago.
She knocked gently on the door, and, not waiting for an answer, turned the door knob.
Mark heard the knock, and ignored it. He couldn't face her. He lacked the wherewithal. In fact, he was sure his life was completely ruined. But then he heard the door open, the soft fall of her feet on the carpeted floor. The sound of her breathing.
He was too still to be asleep. Anger welled up inside of her. How dare he? After all that had happened, how could he dare to pretend like she wasn't even there?
"Daddy," she whispered. He stayed in the same position. She considered him. What did he think she was going to do, simply walk away?
"You coward," she hissed. "Look at me."
"I can't." His voice sounded miserable. "I'm sorry, sweetie. IβI don't know if I can go on like this."
"Like what? Daddy, what are you talking about?"
He stared blindly at the wall ahead of him. Why couldn't she just understand? Why did he have to spell it out?
"You and me, Kitty. What we've been doing. Oh, Christ," he sobbed. "And I don't think we can just pretend that nothing happened."
Kitty rolled her eyes, and heaved a deep sigh. God, men were such idiots.
"I seem to remember that we made a pact this morning. Do you remember?"
"Huh?"
"Guess not. Geez, what a dope." He blinked. Did she just call him a dope? He turned halfway over. Her heart skipped a beat. She was getting through to him.
"Do you remember me coming in here this morning, at least?"
"Uh, yeah," he admitted, his mind slowly coming to grips with what she was driving at.
"And at that time, we agreed that, as long as we played by the rules, and everybody stayed strong, we could keep on doing what we were doing before. Right?"
He looked up at her. God, she was beautiful. Her hair was loose around her face, the long shining tresses cascading over her shoulders. Her eyes were so deep, intense, and blue. Blue like the sky. Blue he could soar inside of forever. Thankfully, she was wearing a normal bathrobe, long enough to cover her whole body down to below the knees.