It was Friday afternoon – the beginning of my first official college break – and Daddy was late picking me up as usual. Back when I was in high school – hell, even in elementary school – I could count on my mom being 10 minutes early and Daddy being 10 minutes or more late. Not that I could complain about it. I take after him completely. We share the same deep brown eyes, dimpled chin, aristocratic nose with a slight upturn at the end, pale skin and freckled shoulders. He got lucky and got the black, curly hair that I always envied. I ended up with golden brown, straight hair, cut now to the chin. I lucked out, too, and inherited the large, round breasts and full hips from his side of the family, too. My mom was tall and thin, with no breasts and no hips. If I were taller, my tits would look average-size, but 36Cs on a 5-foot frame draw the attention. At least, it has so far on campus.
I was lost in a daydream when Dad zoomed up to the front of the dorm in his BMW. He'd been living the life of a playboy ever since Mom and the baby left him (and me) a couple of years ago. She said she was jealous of our relationship, and if he wanted me so bad, then he could just take care of me by himself. That suited Dad and me just fine. But now I was jealous, even though I didn't know why. Just the thought of Dad and other women made me upset.
He popped out of the car and grinned from ear to adorable ear when he saw me. He pulled off his sunglasses and yelled, "There's my girl."
Just like when I was a kid.
I jumped up and ran to him, smothering him with hugs and kisses.
"Hi, Daddy! I've missed you!" And I did, too.
"Miss you, too, pumpkin," he said, holding me tight.
I'd been to enough dances to know when a guy has a boner, and Dad definitely had a boner. Maybe it was my outfit: button-down white blouse, undone at the top, plaid red, white and green schoolgirl skirt, knee high socks and Mary Janes. It was part of a bet between my girlfriends and me. My friend Jama said that she had worn a similar outfit the first time she went home and her dad couldn't even look at her. She caught him masturbating in the bathroom later. I said there was no way my dad would do that. I was wrong.
"What's with the outfit?" he asked me as we broke our embrace.
"Oh, it's for drama class," I said. "We're practicing a play that requires this ridiculous outfit."
"Don't you think the skirt's kinda short?" His eyebrow shot up as he gazed at my thighs.
"Well, maybe a little," I said, grinning.
Just then, a group of guys who lived in my dorm walked behind me and threw out cat calls.
"Nice ass, Beth. Why don't you show it to me after break?" one of the guys yelled.
Dad's face reddened.
"That's my little girl you're talking to, asshole," he said. "Watch yourself."
Then he turned to me, "Get in the car while I get your stuff."
I climbed in the car while Dad collected my bags from the front step. Mike, the guy who said something to me outside, walked up to my dad and started talking to him.
I couldn't hear anything they were saying, but Dad turned to look at me a few times, his expression somewhere between confusion and disapproval. He shook Mike's hand and waved good-bye to him, then gathered my things.
He got in the car without saying a word, and turned on the ignition. I tried talking to him, about classes, about my friends, about work, but he didn't respond to anything I said. Finally, about a half-hour into the trip, he said, "Mike said you were quite the cocktease."
"What?" I couldn't believe it. "What do you mean?"
"This little outfit you're wearing, for instance. Your friends and you wear stuff like that to parties, don't you?"
I sighed. "Yeah."
"And you flirt with guys. A lot."
"Yeah."
He sat quietly, his eyes on the road, his knuckles gone white gripping the wheel.
"I didn't send you up here to get knocked up, Elizabeth."
"But, Daddy, I've never … I mean, I'm not …" How could I explain that I hadn't had sex yet. That I couldn't have sex with anyone because I always saw his face after a guy kissed me for the first time?
"You're not what?"
"I don't have sex, Daddy. I can't," I said, finally.
"What do you mean, you can't?" he asked.
"I know you'd be mad at me if I did," I said. That was as close as I could come to describing what held me back.
"But dressing like that … it could get you in trouble. Guys see a beautiful girl like you, and they want to …"
He took a deep breath. "They want to fuck you. Not make love to you, not have sex with you, but fuck you."
We'd pulled up to a stoplight by this point, so he was able to take off his sunglasses and look at me with those dark brown eyes of his. "Do you understand what I mean by that?"
I really didn't and the way he was looking at me made me cry.
"… Nnnnooo …" I was really scared now.