All characters are purely fictional. All parties in the story are18 years or older.
I would like to greatly thank Todger64 for taking the time to review my story.
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As I watched my wife Sam and son Kevin horsing around in our pool, it made me smile and I couldn't help but reminisce back to a time when I was a younger man.
Unlike the loving relationship I can see Sam and Kevin sharing. Mine was a bit different with my own mother. To try to explain how it came to being that way is kind of hard to do. However, I'll try my best and then maybe you'll understand.
It all started almost before I was to turn 19. I lived with my Father Chris and my Mother Jenny in a small Midwestern town just south of a big metropolis city. My father at the time was in the Arm reserves and had just been deployed overseas. So to make ends meet mom took up an online typing position on a part-time basis while I stayed in high school.
It was my senior year, and I couldn't wait to finally get the hell out of there. You see I was a little shy back then and really didn't have any friends to speak off. I never even had the courage to ask a girl out on a date because of my shyness. And let's not forget how totally clueless I was as to what to even do with a girl on a date. Yeah I was that pathetic.
Nevertheless, this year there was an exception to all that. There was a girl in my English class that I truly fancied. Even though I was fully aware of my backwardness when it came to girls, I found myself wanting to risk it and take a chance.
So on this particular day, that I'll never forget, I built up enough courage to approach her. Steadfast in my resolve I marched towards her seat and when I was just about there... (I don't know what you call it. All I can say is it all sounds good in your head until your feet begin to move.) I chickened out at the last second and made a total fool of myself when nothing, but gibberish fell out of my mouth. Thank god the bell had rung, and I didn't have to listen to my fellow classmates laugh for too long.
Depressed, ashamed, and angry at myself I went home and decided that I wasn't going to ever let that happen again. The next time I would be more prepared. But how? Shit if I knew. Which only got me more depressed. My mind was so far out of it that when I walked through the house, I didn't even hear my mom call my name as I walked passed her heading towards my bedroom.
"Jarid!" She yelled causing me to jump.
"Oh sorry mom. What's up?"
"I asked you how was your day?"
Wow she would ask me that. So I lied and just said, "Fine."
Her look told me she wasn't buying it. However, I really wasn't in any mood to explain so quietly I just shuffled past her and closed my door.
I must have sat on my bed for hours and thought over my predicament. The sun was setting fast when I finally got up and ventured out of my place of solitude.
Walking into the living room, I noticed Mom was at her... Well the only computer, working as usual and this time I actually heard her speak. Very sternly I might add, "So, are you going to tell me what's eating you?"
I remember sighing loudly when I said, "It's something I have to figure out for myself."
Mom stopped typing and turned around in her chair and with a puzzled, look started drilling me for an answer; doing her best to draw out my problem.
"Mom please. I don't want to talk about this with you."
Finally, she dropped it and replied stoutly, "Fine... Your dinner is in the oven. I kept it warm for you."
Wow I felt like a heel. Here is my mom still thinking of me, and I'm acting like a shit head. But I was so ashamed of myself, I just couldn't tell her and just said, "Thanks mom."
Mom went back to work on the PC as I sat quietly watching her while eating my steak and mashed potatoes she had fixed. It was then that it struck me. I could use the computer to find answers to some of the troubling questions that boggled my brain. Mind you back then you just couldn't google it. You actually had to use Netscape or WebCrawler to search over multiple websites and hopefully come across something that might be close to what you were looking for. However, at least now, I had somewhat of a plan.
So later that night as my mother slept, I fired up the PC and started off my trolling of the Internet with "How do you ask a girl out on a date?"
Not much info there and what information I did find sounded so corny I was sure I would get a slap on the face instead of a date.
Not giving up, I next tried. "What to do on a date?"
At least, this got some better results, and I actually jotted down some of the suggestions.
Lastly, I did a search on. "How to have sex?"
Holy crap! The number of websites and information blew my mind. So many websites showing explicit graphical instructions my tiny brain couldn't comprehend it all.
All this was new to me and in my search for sexual knowledge and dealing with a massive boner; which I had no clue as to what to do with mind you. Didn't realize it was almost dawn. Thank god mom was a noisy riser who at least bought me some time to quickly turn off the PC and skedaddle back into my room. Let me tell you between being tired and extremely horny I sure had trouble getting dressed and acting like I had a good night sleep when I sat and had breakfast. Not to mention trying to hide my stiff pecker that stayed with me the entire day. That is until I came home.
Really exhausted now all I wanted to do was crash and get some sleep. However, that wasn't going to be the case. Because when I opened the door mom was on the phone with my dad and was in the middle of a very heated conversation. I had no clue at the time what it was about but mom quickly called me over and had me speak with him.
Excited to hear his voice since it had been months since we last spoke, I happily said, "Hi dad."
"Hi son. How's things?"
"There okay. You coming home soon?"
"No. It looks like I'll be over here for a bit longer. Listen your mom tells me you've been acting reclusive. You sure your fine?"
I looked at mom kind of angrily and replied, "Yeah everything is fine."
"Okay but if you need to talk to someone your mom is always there."
"I know dad."
"Well listen, I have to go so put your mom back on so I can say good bye."
"Okay. Love you and I hope you get back soon."
"Bye son." I heard him say as I handed mom back the phone.
I fast paced to my room as mom finished talking to dad and didn't pay attention to her last words. All I wanted to do was sleep.
I was just about out when I heard a light rap on my door and mom walked right in saying, "We need to talk young man!"
Groggy I sat up mumbling, "Huh??? What??? What wrong?"
"You doing drugs?"
"Huh? No!" I fired back rubbing my eyes.
"Then why are you already in bed? Never mind, I'll get back to that. I found the websites you visited on the computer today when I was working."
OH FUCK!
I thought feeling my face blush as I scrambled to think of some excuse, except nothing jumped into my head.
"Well what do you have to say Mr.?"
No words came out. I didn't know how to handle this very uncomfortable conversation. So I just looked down at the floor and listened as mom ran off the names of some of the sites. I finally yelled, "Sorry!" When she paused for a breath of air.