What just happened down stairs? Was she serious? I just can't believe she said that, I never imagined she could be this forward or for that matter this bold, and the fact that she is my younger cousin makes it more difficult to assimilate; maybe she is drunk or stoned and probably won't remember the incident in the morning.
Tossing and turning in my bed I can't get her out of mind, it almost five in the morning and my thoughts keep wandering back to her. I keep picturing Lucia's beautiful face and her perfect body laying next to me, wondering how it would feel like to touch her naked skin and to inhale her aroma; to make love to her and let her make love to me the way only experienced lovers do. My dick is so hard by now that it hurts, it hurts with desire, it aches, it aches to be touched, to be touched but not by me but to be touched by Lucia.
Its morning now, I don't know at what time I finally felt asleep. I wonder if everything was just a dream, if it was just my imagination; part of me hopes it was just that, but part of me wishes it were really truth. I realize now that I need to find out, but how can I do that? If I just imagined it and act on it things can get pretty messed up between us. I'll just let it go and never think about it again, yes that is what I will do.
Lucia is been avoiding me all day, then it really happened, I didn't dreamt it or imagined it. But why is she avoiding me? Since the day she arrived, she has spent every possible minute with me. She is much easier to get along with than she was a few years ago, besides she turned into a very hot young woman; maybe having just turned eighteen has something to do with it, hormones or something like that may have her mind a bit confused, besides if she really meant it there is nothing I can do, she is my cousin and it is wrong for us to be with each other that way; isn't it?
I can't think strait, watching her walk around the house wearing only her pajamas in not helping at all. Why am I wishing I could hold her in my arms and kiss her pretty lips? why is it that I hope I can run my hands down her back an gently touch her butt under the pajamas and squeeze it? Damn, my dick is getting hard again and I can't stand up now and go to my room to relieve all this tension, I'll have to wait until it softens again.
Everybody is leaving now including Lucia, they are going to visit some other relatives who live an hour away from us and spend the night there. I feel relieved, with her gone I won't have to deal with the fact that she asked me last night to make love to her, to take her virginity. Also with the fact that she said she has been in love with me for the past few years and that she has been saving herself just for me. That's what she told me last night and I can't fully understand what I did, for her to feel this way towards me; well, at least she is gone for now and I can use this time alone to make sense of out of this puzzle.
There is someone in the house and I can hear him. No one is supposed to be here, I saw all of them leave.
As I walk down the aisle I clearly hear more noises coming from my sister room, I open the door really slow so I can see whom it is. There she is, Lucia who is supposed to be on her way to our uncle's house is sitting on the bed right in front of me. I ask her what she is doing here.
She is trying to explain why she didn't go with the rest of the family. Apparently she pretended to be sick and knowing my mother and my aunt, they fell for it and thought it best if she didn't make the trip and stay home so she wouldn't infect everybody else and ruin the trip; but the truth was that she wanted to stay with me.
I feel flatter but scared at the same time, I know what she wants and I am still not sure if I am the right person for it. Not giving her a chance to do or say anything I leave the room and head strait out of the house, I get into my car and drive away not sure where I am going, but certain that I need to be as far away from her as possible. I drive for hours until I decide to go home and try to explain to her why it can never happen even thou I know I want her and I that I want to be with her in the worst possible way.
Is two o'clock now and the sun is shining in all it's glory, it's a very hot day and all I want to do before I sit Lucia down for a much awaited talk, is to go into the pool and cool off for a while. The first thing I notice is Lucia laying on her back on a lounge chair next to the pool and for the first time I realize what a great body she has. Her white bathing suit barely covers her, the contrast of the white fabric with her raven black hair and tanned body is mesmerizing. Her legs seem longer in that suit than they usually do, and her breast look as if they are going to tear the fabric apart; looking down at her body I realize she must shave her pussy because I can clearly she the outline of her lips pressed into the crotch of her bathing suit. It is now that all my concerns about her being my cousin disappear, she is the most amazing and gorgeous girl I have ever laid my eyes on.
I say hello and she lifts herself up on the chair resting herself on her elbows, her green eyes are staring at me and they feel like two daggers piercing me, she is angry at me and she is letting me know with out uttering a word. I sit on the chair beside hers and grab her hand, gently I kiss it and start to apologize for leaving her earlier; she still doesn't say a word. I go on trying to explain my earlier behavior and my reservations about what she has asked from me to do but still nothing from her, suddenly she has turned into ice.
A few minutes have passed and all my attempts to mend things have failed, finally I give up, let her hand go and stand up to leave. As soon as I take the first step she ask me to stay, I turn to look at her once again and I notice a tear running down her cheek; I slowly bend down and kiss the tear away from her skin, then I begin kissing her face, her eyes, her chin and finally I tenderly kiss her lips. She accepts my kiss by kissing me back, it's the most wonderful kiss I have ever experienced; the kind of kiss you wish never ends.