All characters are over 18 when this story takes place.
No inappropriate activity happens with anyone under 18.
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When I returned home from my mother's, I found my Thanksgiving guests scattered about my house. Martin, his brothers, his dad, and Chris were watching a football game in the living room. They were cheering loudly as our 70-inch television and Bose surround sound entertained them with testosterone fueled bouts of manliness. The children were zipping through, chasing each other. My mother-in-law was in a food coma upstairs in my bed, and my sisters-in-law were in the kitchen, sitting around the table and talking amongst themselves. Of course, they were helping themselves to my good wine, but whatever.
I didn't see Danny anywhere, so I assumed his natural introversion kicked in and made him escape to the safety of his room.
I had to talk to him. I had to get a handle on this "thing" between us. But I wasn't ready to do it yet. We were still hosting family, the house was a mess, and I had so many things to do.
Okay, okay. Those were excuses. I know. The reality was, I had no idea what I was going to say to him. Or how I felt. I know what I was supposed to feel, but those mature instincts of parental boundaries hadn't quite kicked in.
So, I just went to my go-to coping mechanism. I started cleaning up, even amid all the guests. I fended off my family's good-natured attempts at getting me to "take a load off" or telling me I deserved to relax after preparing such a wonderful meal. They didn't realize that I needed these mindless tasks. Working kept my hands busy, all the while allowing my mind to roam.
As I washed dishes (despite having a dishwasher) I kept replaying the episodes of "Me and Danny". My mind raced, but no matter how fast it went or in what direction, I kept coming up with the same one-word question.
Why?
Why did I unashamedly let him view my naked body? Why did I allow him to grope my ass, or touch me in such intimate ways? Why didn't I stop him? Why didn't it upset me?
Even now, the thought of Danny's hand on my ass didn't feel wrong. It should've. I'm twenty years older than him. He's my nephew. I've watched him grow up. And I'm married to a man that I love dearly.
I felt no shame about what I allowed Danny to do; however, I felt guilt for NOT feeling shame, if that makes any sense. What I didn't feel was any compulsion to stop him from rubbing his hands over my entire body.
If he wanted to grope my tits, I'd probably let him.
If he wanted to continue watching me shower, even going as far as to take a seat on the toilet to get a closer look, I'd probably let him.
If he asked to grope my tits and ass while I was standing naked in front of him, I'd probably let him.
So, the question was, where was my line? What else would I let him do? Kiss me intimately? Play with my pussy? Jerk off in front of me? Have me touch him?
Fuck me?
I shook my head at that. There. That was my line.
Whew! I felt a little relieved knowing that I did have SOME limits.
As if on cue, Danny walked into the kitchen. Normally I felt his eyes on me before I saw him, but today I was too lost in thought. His feet were as silent as cat's paws, and he crept up on me with the stealth of a ninja.
"Do you need help, Aunt Ronnie?" he asked, his voice violently ripping me from my thoughts. I almost jumped out of my skin. My eyes darted towards the table, where a few of my in-laws were drinking and talking. Danny seemed to pick up on my "no hanky-panky" signal with a nod. Still, he rolled up his sleeves and began clearing off the table.
There was such a swelling in my heart watching him. I didn't have to ask for his help, emotionally blackmail him, or use any guilt trips. Unlike my husband or son, Danny wanted to help me.
I didn't realize I was staring at him until he caught my eye. He smiled sweetly at me, communicating in our secret language that was reserved for our little world.
One of my sisters in law, Kathy, broke into our world unknowingly. Now, of all of Martin's sisters, I liked Kathy the least. She had an affinity for...let's just say...marrying for the wrong reasons. She didn't fall in love with men, she fell in love with wallets. Currently going through her third divorce, she was in the midst of a nasty court battle.
There's something about living a life of wealth, even if it's unearned, that makes people overestimate their value. Despite Kathy's contentious lawyer battle, her lonely life, and the fact that her relationship with her daughters was more transactional than loving, she still felt superior to everyone. She was a prissy, pompous, know-it-all busy body.
No matter how well Chris or Danny were doing, her girls were doing better, and she never let a moment slide by that she didn't allude to it in some way. If we mention how great Chris is doing in college, she goes into a story of all the wonderful things her oldest was doing at Yale. I told people about Danny's video game and how he was planning to sell it, she made sure to talk about the internship her youngest just got at Sony. And if she didn't have a story that was able to compete, she'd simply give compliments laced with condescension.
Like now, as she watched Danny help me unprompted, she awwwed, "Oh my goodness, Veronica! Danny is actually helping you clean? And you didn't even have to ask! He may not be doing much with his future like my girls are, but at least you trained him to be such a good boy around the house."
The rest of the women laughed at Danny's expense, but I didn't. Maybe I was too close to the situation, but inferring that Danny was some type of puppy to be trained to do tricks kind of irritated me.
I looked at Danny, who was still silently cleaning despite the laughter around him. He didn't respond to his other aunt. He just suffered in silent embarrassment, unable to defend himself on a fear of being rude to his elders.
I was pissed. How dare this arrogant bitch!
"I never had to
train
Danny." I said, the venom coming out in my voice. "Cynthia, your late sister, taught him well long before he came to stay with us. He's a good man, not a good boy, because of HER. And for your information, Danny IS doing something with his future. Not everyone goes to college. And just because someone is in college, it doesn't mean they have a future. Isn't Caroline (her oldest daughter) failing most of her classes?"
Next to me, I heard Danny stifle a laugh. He had to cover it up with a cough.
All other laughter stopped, though. The women sitting at my table looked at me with a gasped shock. But I didn't care. Don't come for my Danny unless you're prepared for ME!
Me and Kathy were at a stand-off. Each of us were glaring at the other. The mood threatened to become awkward, but Danny broke the tension by jokingly adding, "It didn't hurt that Auntie Ronnie gave me Scooby Snacks every time I did something good."
The ladies at the table laughed at that, all but Kathy. She was sitting there, looking like someone popped a lemon in her mouth to suck. Danny looked at me, and in our secret language, he thanked me for having his back.
The rest of the evening was a blur for me. Danny and I cleaned together about as well as we cooked together. It was so easy to be around him. Our personalities meshed well together.
However, there was an inner turmoil raging inside of me. Even though nothing was physically happening right now between us, I still felt a level of guilt. It was only a matter of time before we found ourselves alone again, or I was taking a shower in front of his watching eyes. What would I say? How could I end this thing and return us to aunt and nephew without hurting his feelings? Did I even want to?
Eventually, the people around me started filing out, each heading towards their own home. They made sure to take a few plates of free food with them.
Naturally, Chris headed out too. He wanted to visit his girlfriend and her family. I was starting to wonder how serious he was about this girl. Were there any grandbabies in my future?
But, as usual, I said nothing. He always got touchy about that. So, my curiosity remained unquenched.
By the time it was just the three of us, the kitchen was back to normal. I could feel Danny's eyes on me, and I knew he was waiting for an opportunity to get his hands on my body. I was still having conflicting feelings about that, so I left him and went out in search of my husband.
I found him in the living room. However, he wasn't sitting on the couch like I expected. He was putting on his coat while on his cell phone, talking to god knows who. Not even pausing his conversation to dress, he had to alternate which ear the phone was on, and which hand was doing the holding as he slipped his arms into each sleeve.