I was on edge ever since "the incident" (that's what I'm calling it) the day after Thanksgiving. There were so many lines crossed in the kitchen that morning; so much sin to atone for. It really was a "Black Friday".
What started out as nonchalance about letting my nephew watch me shower had quickly escalated into me making out with him, sucking and fucking my husband for his entertainment, and allowing him to feel me up.
Worse thing about all of it was...I didn't want to stop.
I'm supposed to want to stop. That's what a responsible adult would feel. I'm supposed to recognize how wrong and perverse it is to want to see my nephew's cock, to replay the image of him jerking off to me over and over in my head. I'm certainly NOT supposed to dream about him bending me over in the shower and taking me despite my pleas for him to stop.
I'm sick. I'm a deviant. What the hell is wrong with me?
I have a husband who is everything I could ever dream about in a man. I have a son who is well adjusted and destined to do remarkable things. We have a family life that is the envy of everyone we know. My car is never more than 3 years old. My 5-bedroom house has a luxurious, finished basement. My job is one that I enjoy thoroughly. What more could I want?
And yet, here I was. Lusting after my nephew.
I needed to get Danny alone so we could talk. If we were going to continue playing this "game", we needed to figure some things out. Danny was young, and by the looks of it, inexperienced about women's bodies. The last thing we needed was to detonate our entire lives because he got too eager and pushed the envelope.
The potential fallout due to discovery would be...disastrous.
I wanted to steal a moment with him out of earshot of a certain husband, but that proved more difficult than I'd hoped it would be. I had no one but myself to blame for that, though. My little temper tantrum over Martin having to work on Thanksgiving left him with the impression that he'd been neglecting me. I tried to reassure him that I was just being an unreasonable bitch and that he should pay that little outburst no never mind. But he was insistent. His reasoning was that though I was being extra dramatic, those feelings I had stemmed from somewhere. So, he made it a point to spend all day Saturday with me and catch up on some "quality time".
ALL. DAY.
His plan was to take me shopping earlier in the day, then out for a night on the town. The destination of our evening was a surprise, but he did let me know that he rented a nice hotel room for us to stay the night in.
Was it extremely sweet and romantic? Yes. That's one of the things I love about Martin. As hard and tough as he is, he can turn into a big marshmallow when it comes to me.
However, I couldn't get excited about his plans because I had "other things" on my mind. Any other time, this planned day would be something that would've had my thighs sticky. But now, all I could think about was getting some sort of handle on this thing with Danny.
That morning, when Martin was in the shower, I took full advantage of those 10 minutes. I zipped through my hallway to Danny's room. I was vaguely aware that I still had my night clothes on, which probably wasn't the best idea for the kind of serious discussion that needed to take place. All I had on was a long night shirt that reached mid-thigh. It was obvious that I was braless underneath (my nipples couldn't lie). What was less obvious was the fact that I was also commando.
No, I didn't do this for Danny. I always sleep braless, and mostly sleep panty-less as well. Last night was no different. However, for the intents of this conversation, I should've at least thrown some on when I went to his room.
Hindsight is always clearer than foresight.
I knocked on his door, taking a guilty look over my shoulder like my husband was going to be coming around the corner. Danny must've known it was me because he answered the door smiling. Immediately, his eyes fell to my tits, and that smiled widened considerably.
"Hey Aunt Ronnie. What's up?" he asked my nipples.
I sighed. I needed him to focus. With the crook of my finger, I lifted his chin until he was looking me in my eyes. Then, with a serious face, I said "We have to talk, and we don't have long because Martin's not gonna be in the shower forever."
"Uh...okay."
I brushed past him into the room. By the time he'd closed the door behind us and turned to face me, I was already facing him.
"What's wrong, Aunt Ronnie?" he asked, obviously sensing my urgency.
There was so much that needed to be said in such a short time. I couldn't figure out exactly how I wanted to start this off, or what I wanted to say. My hands were flailing about in front of me and my mouth kept opening and closing, but all the words that needed to come out wouldn't form.
Danny's face fell a bit as he watched me. With sadness in his voice, he said, "I think I know what you wanna say."
"Do you?"
He nodded and sighed. "Yeah. And I get it. I guess you giving me your panties was a mistake. Don't worry. You don't have to worry about me bothering you. You're my aunt, and I'm your nephew."
I should've just gone with this. After all, he handed me the escape with none of the awkward back and forth. I didn't even have to start it. It solved all the potential problems I was fearing.
But the look of despondency on his face crushed my heart. I couldn't do that to him. Our "thing" obviously meant so much to him.
"That's not why I came in here, Danny."
"It's not?" he asked, a bit of hope in his voice.
I shook my head before I closed the space between us. Then, I grabbed him by the cheeks and very softly, very lovingly, placed a kiss on his lips. Not a hot make-out session like before, but it was not a kiss a normal aunt would give to her nephew.
"No. I'm not here to tell you to stop, but we do need to get a few things straight. If I'm going to allow you certain...liberties...there must be some ground rules in place. Understand?"
He nodded so eagerly; like a little boy who'd been told he could have extra dessert if he did his chores. It was so adorable. I gave him a warm smile before saying, "Okay, so rule number one is obvious. No hanky panky if Martin or Chris are in the room. And no watching me shower if they are even in the house."
"Yeah. I kinda figured that."
"It still had to be said." I said with a shrug. He gave a nod of understanding, so I continued, "Rule number two is really just me letting you know that we won't be having sex. I don't really know the limits of what I'm comfortable with right now, but I do know that I don't want to cheat on Martin. So, I need you to know where we stand on that."
He looked a little disappointed at that, but not too much. He must've known that on some level. I must admit, saying that aloud did take a bit of the mystery out of things, which in turn removed some of the fun. Part of the game was seeing where everything would end up.
But still, it had to be said. We both needed to hear that come from my mouth. I needed to remind both of us that I was indeed married and very much in love with my Martin.
When he gave me another nod, I said, "Good. So, I guess the final rule is that we need a code word between us. Besides sex, we have no idea what we can't...you know...do together. There was a time when you rubbing my backside was completely out of the question. But things keep changing, and I'm not sure what I'm uncomfortable with. So, we need to come up with a safe word so when things are going too far, we know to back off."
He thought for a moment before suggesting, "What about