We often think back to how it all started for us. It truly started one fateful summer day. We remember every detail quite well...
I was lying on my back. Mike was pressed so close against my side and his closeness had made it hard for me to breathe. I found myself even holding my breath as he kissed me on my neck and nuzzled on my earlobe. I reminded myself to expel my held breath just as he placed his hand on my flat stomach. It was on top of my shirt, but I could feel the heat of it right through the cotton. His breathing was heavy. I could feel it on my neck as he continued to kiss me there. It felt incredible. He rubbed his hand back and forth over the fabric of my shirt, all the while bringing his hand lower and lower toward the bottom of the top. I knew he was going to push his hand up under my top. I felt nervous, scared and somewhat conflicted. My head felt foggy, and I knew what we were doing was wrong but it just felt so right.
A small cry escaped my lips as he quickly slipped his hand under my top to caress my butterfly-filled stomach. I wanted him to push his hand further up my top, but I was too shy to suggest it. I wasn't even sure either of us was ready for the next step. I was not wearing a bra and I could see that Mike realized and appreciated that fact.
My breathing grew heavy and ragged as he shifted his body partly over me so he could place his lips to mine for a deep kiss. I willingly parted my lips for him, and he gladly pushed his tongue into my mouth. I tasted him and he was so familiar and so divine. I couldn't get enough, but I was still unsure about my kissing prowess. Nervously my tongue had flitted about between our mouths. I was an innocent in so many ways. He knew this, and therefore had told me that everything we did had to be my choice. I could feel his raging hard cock, concealed only by his jeans, pressed firmly against my thigh. I knew he had silently prayed that he wouldn't find himself back in his room masturbating alone again.
"Do you know when they will be home?" I whispered so softly.
"They said they would be home late. He had a business meeting and she had a 'Weight Watchers' meeting and then she was going to run some errands." He answered distractedly while still caressing my stomach and raining small kisses along my jaw.
"I'm just so nervous."
"Meg, you know I would never push you. Well you should know that by now anyway. I would never hurt you or do anything to you that you were not ready for."
I nodded in response. Slowly he removed his hand from under my top. I could think a little easier with it removed, but I missed the warmth of it against my belly. I knew what he said was very true. At times, I had almost wished he would force me or push me to go further. Then maybe I could have gone through with it sooner.
We were born the same day in the same hospital. He was older by two and a half minutes. He was taller, heavier, and stronger. And yet, when I looked into his blue eyes, that were so much like mine, I saw so many similarities. One having been, that we both wanted to cross the taboo line from being just twins to being lovers. I had wanted him. I knew he wanted me.
Inhale. Exhale.
I had had such deep needs, but I was so frightened of being caught by Aunt Lyn and Uncle Doug. Losing my virginity to my own brother had also been a valid fear. The day we turned eighteen together had been the day this had all begun, it had been that very night that we had had our first real kiss with open mouths and eager tongues. Mike had not been a virgin, but I had somehow held onto my virginity. I wanted to make love to him so badly that I was almost wild with my need. I knew the feeling was mutual. It was clear to me that it was not my virginity that drew Mike to want me. I am sure that had been alluring, but we were also very much in love. For that simple reason he had always afforded me the safety net of moving snail slow when it came to intimacy. He never wanted to force me into anything, so when I did allow him to make love to me he could be sure I wanted it as much as he did.
"Do you know about oral sex, Megan?" He asked quietly with his lips near my ear.
"I am a virgin, not an idiot!" I answered sharply.
"I want to do that to you, right now." He smiled ruefully, and I am sure my eyes had widened with my alarm.
"That is sick Mike!" I looked him in the eyes. I was dead serious. "Do YOU know what oral sex is?"
"Yes."
"So you are honestly saying you want to lick me...down there?" My jaw hung open. I had never considered the things he would want to do with me.
"Yes." He adjusted himself through his pants. "Can I?"
"I don't know if you can." I said acting technical and snotty.
"May I Meggie?"
"I just don't know." I froze then, listening to something distant. "Did you hear that?"
"Nope, now back to my question..."
"No seriously Mike! I heard something. I think someone is home! You had better get out of here." I said with panic evident in my voice.