Zak's voice strengthened, "Mum, do you have any milk for Rico, not just cow's milk?"
His question would sound innocent enough except Chance knew better. She moved over to the fridge. "The only alternative is coconut milk, Rico. Here you are. Try that." She placed the milk next to Rico and ruffled his hair. "Would you like anything else?" She kept her facial expression neutral but wondered why she'd got closer to him than normal. Her hand in his hair was there longer than it need be and she reckoned Rico would be able to smell her perfume. "Anything else?" she repeated.
His eyes looked up at her. Eyes that became larger, more round, darker. "Thank you, Auntie."
Chance returned to the sink and quietly blew out the breath she'd been holding back. For a moment she debated with the voices in her head - 'you're mad to carry on this game, you must withdraw, block out what you saw in the cellar, any involvement with Rico would be mad.' And yet, there was another voice - 'Rico is family and trusts you to give advice, help him understand himself, look after him.'
The boys chatted, back and forth, in lower tones as they finished breakfast. They cleared away and brought their dishes to the sink. Zak put his arm around her waist from behind her and squeezed. "Love you, Mum." He paused. "Rico wants a hug."
"No I don't," said Rico, his voice sounded embarrassed.
By instinct, Chance turned to face Rico. "Yes you do," she said playfully. "Come here." She extended her arms up towards his shoulders. Rico put his arms around her waist. Their bodies faced each other, her head pushed back to look up into his eyes which inadvertently pushed her groin into his. Rico responded with a firm hold. She felt his body relax. Her words came out without thinking, "Was your dream last night about your mother feeding you milk when you were a baby?" She couldn't believe she'd just blurted out that question.
Rico looked surprised and bit his lower lip. His lips seemed to swell a little. "Oh ... eh, I don't know how to answer that."
"Lots of kids have dreams like this or wonder what breast milk would taste like." Chance realised that she must stop this conversation but she wanted more. "And you don't have to be thinking about your mum's milk ... it could be breast milk from anybody. Nothing you say, Rico, is going to shock me." She let her fingers touch the baseline of hair at the back of his head and scraped her nails lightly over his neck. The voice inside Chance said, 'You stupid woman.'
"I'm sure I would shock you, Auntie."
"I'm over twice your age, my little boy. Try me." She paused but as she wondered at her inappropriate boldness, she felt his cock stir. "Try me," she said again. In the silence, they kept their eyes on each other. It seemed they were in a bubble of their own and she had no idea where Zak was.
"Well ... I sometimes wonder what your milk would taste like. I know that's not possible ... it's just a thought on what you WOULD have tasted like ... if that makes sense."
Chance could tell his cock was stiff and pointed down his leg. She thought it might be a strain for him but Chance delighted in this outward sign that she was still desirable. It occurred to her that maybe this was the reason why she was talking like this - to test her desirability from an 18-year-old. "Those thoughts," she said, "are lovely. My milk would taste sweet." The voice in her head shouted 'stop' but she didn't listen. She knew more about the boy in her arms than he realised, his bi-side and his fantasy.
"I wish I was your baby."
Her body gave a little shift across Rico's groin. "You can be. I can tell you things about how a mother feels when she's milking and the way my nipples would respond."
Zak's hands came from behind, on her shoulders, warm and he kissed her neck and murmured into her ear. "You're the best Mum. We love you. And I know Rico would love to feel your boobs just this once."
Her nipples hurt against the fabric of her bra. She willed herself to release her hold, to step out of the centre of these two boys but Chance liked the feeling of being trapped. She whispered, "An aunt and a mum shouldn't be talking like this." Her voice sounded weak. Her heart beat faster. Zak appeared not to hear as his hands held her arms stretched-up around Rico, caressed her armpits and touched the top button of her shirt. She tried again, "This has to stop. We can talk later. To go any further would be taboo and not right."
Zak spoke seductively into her neck as he kissed her there. "Rico needs to feel you, that's all. Explain to him how your breasts react to feeding a baby."
The distraction to explain how it feels to feed seemed to help as she allowed Zak to undo one button after the other in a slow methodical way before he pulled up the shirt from under her skirt to undo the last button. She concentrated on her slow words, "It's so beautiful to feed even though my breasts would be full and would sometimes ache."
Rico asked, "And your nipples. How do they feel?"
She withdrew her arms around his neck to allow Zak to remove her shirt off her shoulders. "My nipples would feel extended, pushed out, tender, a deep red and swollen." Chance heard her voice waiver as Zak unclasped her bra. She kept her eyes on Rico, moisture had appeared at the corner of his eyelids. Rico moved his hands from the back of her waist up and under the loosened bra before they traversed under her armpits to her front. She jolted from his light touch, a touch which encircled her nipples without touching her buds. Her heart hammered in her chest. She can't do this, she thought.
Zak eased off her bra straps, one arm at a time and she let the bra fall between Rico's groin and hers. Her arms hung down and Rico's eyes moved to look at her breasts. "They're beautiful," he murmured. His thumbs continually circled her nipples. "They have this shape, not too full, still pert and your tits stick out."
No words came out of her mouth. Her demand that the boys must let go, let her free, was fading. Her eyes closed and willed Rico to caress her aching nipples. His thumbs were close. But then Zak kissed her neck again and said, "Let me gently put your shirt over you, to let us look after you, Mum. Trust me." As he said this, Chance accepted the blindfold, her screwed-up shirt, which was wrapped around her eyes and ears and tied at the back. She trusted her son.
At last, Rico took her nipples in his hands and caressed them. She felt faint but held on to the belief that he could do this, caress her and then halt and go no further. Still with her eyes closed behind the blindfold, Chance basked in the feelings shooting around her body, the ache in her nipples, the stiff wood in Rico's shorts. Standing, sandwiched between her boys, her body limp, her arms loose felt like heaven. The darkness from the blindfold seemed to increase her senses.
With a superhuman effort she managed to say, "Ok, Rico, you've done enough. And Zak, you can help put my bra back on." Her voice sounded hollow because her shirt also covered her ears.
She felt Zak use his hands to massage her neck and his soothing reply, "We'll go in the sitting room and talk. Hold my hand, Mum."
Chance was guided from the kitchen with each boy holding one of her hands. Her body yearned for the contact of Rico again. As she walked she realised that her knickers were damp. She hoped Rico wouldn't mention this to his parents - the exposure of the facts would be so embarrassing.
They stopped walking and stood in the sitting room, Rico spoke, "Will you hold me, Auntie? I need you badly, a hug even."
Despite the shirt wrapped around her ears, it sounded to Chance as if his voice was in anguish. His body faced her, his face close enough for their cheeks to touch. By instinct, she kissed his jaw. "Of course, you're my little boy." Her hands held Rico's waist. His hug was strong.
He said into her neck, "I've always wanted to know what it was like to ... to feed. Sorry, Auntie. I don't know what I'm saying."
Chance already knew about Rico's fantasy from seeing the boys in the cellar. Her mothering nurturing desire came out when she replied, "I don't have milk now, Rico darling."
"Can we pretend? It would help me so much."
"Just this and no further. Where's the sofa?" Rico moved her and she touched the armrest, "Sit on the cushion, on the edge," she said. "Let me hold your head." It enabled Chance to stand in front of Rico who sat but had his head in line with her breasts. With one hand behind Rico, she directed his mouth to her nipple. Spasms shot from her boobs to her groin as Rico sucked her engorged bud into his mouth. "Suck now, my darling baby. That's it. Don't bite it."
In her enclosed world of no sight and restricted hearing, Chance let herself relax. To allow Rico to suckle was, in a weird way, an incredible experience. It felt like she was helping Rico to understand his fantasy. At the same time, her pussy was wet. The gusset of her panties was stuck to her pussy lips. These feelings were the reason Chance couldn't pull herself away as someone's hands caressed her thighs. It might have been Rico or Zak - she couldn't tell - but she said to Rico, "We can't do this much longer. Another minute and then we stop ... and by separating ourselves we'll feel better for not crossing a taboo line, where it's not right to express ourselves in this way."