Part 1. Him.
The Image.
He stood before the bathroom mirror drawing the razor across his chin. As he looked at his reflected image, he remembered when he had started shaving about four years ago. The whiskers had been fluff then, soft and downy, now the hair had grown stiff and thick. As he recalled this, he also remembered that it was about the time of his first shave that he noticed hair growing in his groin and that his sexual organ seemed to be getting bigger. At night, his dreams centred more and more round girls - naked girls with firm breasts and willing bodies. He started to wake with a sticky mess in his bed.
Soon after, he had listened to other boys in at high school talking of their penile adventures and he learned the release of masturbation. After this, there had been the odd awkward fumbling of girls and attempts to get into their cunts, but so far, he had not scored.
Now, as he looked at himself, he tried to assess his appearance. Five feet ten and still growing. Not a bad looking body, and still more to come, he hoped. His sexual organ was well grown by now. Not the fantastic size some of the guys at university boasted about but never showed, or the enormous cocks the Internet pornography displayed, but quite a nice size for his age.
As he thought of his cock, a vision of "her" came into his mind. He began to get an erection. He didn't want this. He didn't want the agony of his need for her, his desperate longing for her body. The pain of frustration was too much. Every day since he was first conscious of himself, he had wanted her in one way or another, but only recently had this need taken the clear shape of sexual desire.
He tried to ignore his now pulsating penis, but he knew from experience that it was a losing battle. His excitement grew and raged inside him. Visions of her naked and open to him rose up in his head. He prayed, "Please, dear God, don't let me feel like this. Don't let me want her. Make her dirty and ugly& anything&but don't let me have the pain of wanting her so badly." God did not answer.
His erection raged and the first little droplets oozed from his penis. Now the inevitable, he masturbated. As he tugged at himself visions of her, naked and throbbing under him burned through his brain. He was whispering, "I want you, I want you," and suddenly he came, shooting his sperm into the washbasin. His storm of sexual desire began to subside, but her image did not go away.
The Kitchen Table.
He carefully washed the mess from the basin, and then cleaned his penis. Walking into the kitchen he found her sitting at the table drinking coffee and reading the newspaper, still in her nightdress, a flimsy affair with shoulder straps about as thick as a piece of string, the top cut low to reveal a large area of breast. "Oh God," he thought, "why does she have such beautiful breasts?" He knew that the hem of the nightdress barely reach mid thigh, but her legs were beneath the table just now. He longed to see them and not see them, filled with lust yet wanting not to have the ache of that lust.
She looked up as he came in. "Please God, don't let her smile that lovely smile at me?" She smiled. He sat and ate his breakfast and about halfway through one of her shoulder straps slipped down, revealing one nipple before she casually drew the strap up again.
He finished and went for his university bag, trying to get out of the house without a goodbye from her, but too late, she stood waiting for him by the door. He offered his cheek to her, but she turned his head and kissed him softly on the lips. He fled, his already half erect penis now surging up to full size. He fled to masturbate in the Language Department toilets.
Home Again.
It was a warm day, so he knew what he would find when he got home. She would be in her bikini the one with little more than a thread passing under her crotch revealing her shaven groin, and the bikini top serving little more purpose than under lift, and so revealing her breasts almost to her nipples. He would be able to see the slight swelling mound above her slit, and when she sat on the couch with her legs up, the cloth would sink in to reveal the shape of her opening.
He dragged out the journey home, fearing the torment that would lash him in her near naked presence. "Why does she torture me like this?" he thought, "Doesn't she know what she does to me? How much I want her?" He longed and dreaded to see her body, alive as she was with female sensuality. He knew he would have to masturbate again to attain some temporary relief from his desperate desires. "O God," he prayed, "why is she so near, and yet so far from me?"
On his arrival, the house was quiet. "Gone out somewhere!" he muttered, and went to the kitchen to get a drink. The kitchen window looked onto the patio, and glancing out, he saw her. She lay on the sun lounger, apparently asleep, with her bikini top off. He saw the full swelling of her breasts, surmounted by firm pink nipples with light brown aureoles. He had never seen her breasts completely exposed before, and they were lovelier than even his fantasies had imagined.
His mind reeled and he almost said out loud, "No, please, don't let me see, don't let me see, I want her so badly, don't let me see." He had a hot raging erection, and there, in the kitchen, he had barely touched his penis before it erupted. His sperm covered the floor at his feet, and fearful she might wake, come in, and see, he quickly mopped it up,
Again he had that short respite from his passionate desires, but he knew it would be only temporary. In the evening she would shower early and put on her seductive nightdress, and would expect him to sit with her on the couch to watch television. She would sit close, and he would smell the perfume of her soap mingled with what he thought of as "Her woman smell." He would have to try to hide his erection from her, fighting the urge to reach out and touch her breasts and put his hand, and even his tongue, into her womanhood. Every such evening added to his anguish.
Through the window, he saw her rise and put her top on. She came into the kitchen, smiled and kissed him on the lips. Still bikini clad she began to prepare the evening meal. He fled to his room and tried to study.
The Evening's Entertainment.
After the meal he took a shower and completed an essay. He hung around in his room for some time, dreading the evening of sexual arousal that he knew would follow his arrival in the lounge. When eventually he did leave his room and enter the lounge, he saw that he had been wrong about the sexy nightgown. She was lying back in the corner of the couch clad only in panties and bra, and these of the very skimpiest and see through.