Mom & Son Discuss Masturbation, Ch. 04
Part 10: "Do you masturbate?"
He looked in his mother's green eyes. They were pretty. Like two glistening emeralds staring back at him, he's always been mesmerized by his mother's jewel like eyes. Most people have brown, blue, or hazel eyes, but she had green eyes. He supposed they were hazel but they always looked greener, especially if she was wearing something green.
Born with the genetic mutation, Distichiasis, that gave her a double set of long eyelashes, they say that Elizabeth Taylor had deep blue eyes that appeared violet. His mother was born with Distichiasis too, a condition that caused men to stare at her beautiful eyes. With some women her age already giving up on their looks and sexuality, letting themselves go and even packing on the pounds, even without her hair done and without her wearing makeup, she was still a very pretty and sexy woman.
An old movie buff in the heyday of Elizabeth Taylor, Katherine Hepburn, and Lauren Bacall, in the way she carried herself and articulated her words, she sometimes reminded him of Dina Merrill, from the original Mission Impossible TV series of old. Only, according to his father, being that she was much bustier than Dina Merrill, she looked more like Lee Remick with blonde hair from the old Paul Newman, James Stewart, and Glen Ford movies that he always watched. Yet, his favorite actress, the one with the best body, his father was fixated on Angie Dickinson when watching her old reruns, especially when she played Sgt. Pepper Anderson in Police Woman. He'd proclaim to anyone who'd listen, especially when he had been drinking, that his wife looked just like her. Admittedly, his mother did look a little like Angie Dickinson, especially when she dressed up as a police woman one Halloween.
Influenced by his father, Jason is a movie buff too. Because of how beautiful his father thought his mother was, when Jason lived at home ten years ago, he'd masturbate himself while imagining he was having sex with Dina Merrill, Lee Remick, and Angie Dickinson instead of having sex with his mother. Easier to imagine having sex with his mother when pretending she was a movie star, he couldn't imagine having sex with his mother then as he's willing to imagine having sex with her now. He wondered if Dina Merrill, Lee Remick, and Angie Dickinson had sons, and if they did have sons, if they were as sexually aroused by their mothers as he was by their mothers and is by his own mother.
Only, this morning, barely 6am, she was wearing makeup and her blonde hair was fixed too. Moreover, she was wearing perfume. Funny how he didn't notice any of that before. Too busy staring at the tops of her meaty breasts, instead of her hair, he didn't notice that her hair was already coiffed. Too busy staring at her long line of cleavage, he didn't notice she had already made up her eyes. Too busy staring at the big impressions her hard nipples made in her nightgown, he didn't notice her lips were painted red. Too busy ogling his mother's nearly naked body when the refrigerator's open door light illuminated her, he just perceived her as he has always done, as his sexy MILF of a mother.
Then, he wondered, duh, why was she wearing makeup and perfume, and why was her hair already fixed? She never does her hair and makeup at this hour of the morning. It was then that he remembered hearing her shower running in his sleep. She took her shower while he was still sleeping. That's odd. Content to lounge in bed while watching TV, until she gets up to make coffee, she never showers that early. Now here she is showered, with her hair fixed, and wearing makeup, something he could get used to seeing, he wished she looked like this every morning.
It was so early, too early for even him to be up, he's not usually up at this hour of the morning, especially on a Saturday morning when he doesn't have to report for work. Only, after all that happened last night with his mother catching him masturbating, he woke up horny. He couldn't sleep. Wanting to masturbate, after hearing his mother walking around in the kitchen, he decided to come downstairs.
He wondered, is she going out? Does she have an early morning doctor's appointment? Or maybe, he'd like to think, that she fixed her hair and was wearing makeup and perfume just for him. A sexual fantasy that took hold of him as if this was his reality, he liked to think that his mother was looking especially pretty this morning just for him. Instead of thinking of her as his mother, he preferred thinking of her as Dina Merrill, Lee Remick, or Angie Dickinson. Instead of thinking of having sex with his mother, even though they're old and/or dead now in the case of Lee Remick, he'd rather think of her as his very own personal movie star. Instead of thinking of her as his mother, he preferred thinking of her as being his older, cougar of a sexy girlfriend.
Only, a long stretch, other than her catching him masturbating and her flashing him her tits at the kitchen table and flashing him her panties whenever they played Scrabble, other than a bit of exhibitionism and voyeurism, nothing sexual has ever happened between them. Other than him always masturbating with the thoughts of imagining his mother naked while having sex with her, this is the first time that they've had a conversation about masturbation and/or about sex. With her big breasts demanding his focused attention, this is the first time she sat at the kitchen table without having the modesty of wearing a bathrobe. This was the first time that he's seeing so very much of her beautiful breasts.
Now with her opening the door with this discussion about masturbation and with her telling him not to be embarrassed because he masturbates, he needed to ask her outright if she masturbates too. Somehow not thinking her human and perceiving her above base sexual feelings such as the self-abuse of masturbation, he couldn't imagine his mother masturbating. While she pulled, turned, twisted, and fingered her nipples, he couldn't imagine her with her nightgown up to her waist, her knees spread, and her fingers inside of her while she wiggled all over her bed. He couldn't imagine her using a vibrator, a dildo, or looking at pictures of naked men.
Unable to go there and unable to hear her, he couldn't imagine his mother moaning while having an orgasm. Putting how saintly he felt about his mother aside, he needed to ask her his question. He needed to know her answer. For him to take the next step across the line of incest and for him to think of her as a woman instead of as his mother, he needed to know if she masturbates too.
This was it. It was now or never. He may never have the opportunity again of asking her sexual questions that he has now with this open and honest conversation about masturbation. This may be the start of something very beautiful or this could be the beginning of something very bad.
Afraid of poisoning the well and ruining their close mother and son relationship by going too far with his probing, sexual question, he had a difficult time treating her as a potential sexual partner which is what he was really hoping to do. Making sense to him, he figured, unless she had an early morning doctor's appointment, if she wasn't interested in having sex with him, she wouldn't have dolled herself up at this early hour of the morning. Right? He figured that if she wasn't as sexually interested in him as he was sexually interested in her, she wouldn't be sitting across from him with her breasts spilling out of her nightgown. Right? Taking a sip of his coffee as if he was taking a sip of scotch for courage, while staring at her long line of cleavage that seemingly continued forever in a valley of sexual delight, he braced himself before asking her his question.
"Do you masturbate?"