"John, is there a reason you're not going out more? It's something you shouldn't miss out on. You choose to live here instead of on campus but hardly leave the house. " My Mom sat in the extra chair next to my computer desk. She reached out and put a hand on my arm as I sat, looking at the screensaver on one of my three monitors.
"I'd rather not talk about it, Mom. It's embarrassing. I'm just not into it, that's all."
"You'll have to learn to talk about these things, especially if you want to find and keep a good woman. I know you watch too much porn when you're in your room." Mom looked directly at me when she spoke.
I know my face turned red. "I know I shouldn't watch porn. But it makes it so much better."
Mom laughed. "I know. I like certain kinds, too. But sex is meant to be experienced with other people."
I was silent for several seconds, imagining her enjoying porn. The idea of her lying spread-eagled on the bed, her fingers working on herself and cumming made me a little dizzy. Her fingers lightly touching my arm didn't help. My dick hardened between my legs. While I didn't look down, I did shift my weight in the chair. The movement inadvertently caused it to pop up higher above the right side of my leg. I saw Mom's eyes glance toward my lap as I shifted my weight.
My Mom was a cool mom, one other friends found to be fun and attractive. Unlike most of the other moms, she was funny. It didn't hurt that she was about 5'5", dark-haired, and had a body as if she were fifteen years younger than her forty-six years indicated she should be. She usually wore a series of brightly-colored glasses, even though she didn't need them. I overheard her telling her sister she wore them because certain men found them bookish, as a sexy librarian might wear. I don't need to explain the kind of guilty thoughts that information gave me.
"Oh! I see that you're turned on right now. That's okay. It's normal for a man. It gets confusing. As long as you understand that fantasy and life aren't the same thing? That taboo and the forbidden are great firestarters." Mom smiled again.
Although I was embarrassed, I nodded. "Yeah. You've got a great body. I can't help myself sometimes. I hope you forgive me."
"You're almost twenty-two. You're an adult. It is a bit weird to think that you're looking at me and wanting to fuck me. Especially in the pool. I've noticed." Mom kept her hand on my arm as she talked. Her two silver bracelets clanked as she reached for me. We teased her sometimes about never removing them.
I looked toward the floor, ashamed of how she reminded me.
Mom squeezed my arm hard. "No, I didn't mean it quite that way. It is weird, for sure. But I have fantasies about you sometimes. We're not supposed to acknowledge these things. And we can certainly never act on it. Most people never admit they are attracted to people they shouldn't be."
My eyes went to Mom's face as she told me she'd fantasized about fucking me. Even though she'd just told me that we could never act on taboo impulses, watching her full lips open briefly caused me to imagine slipping the head of my dick in her mouth. Mom was energetic, and I knew she was all-in on everything she did.
"Oh! There's no reason you shouldn't be comfortable. I'm a sexual person, too." Mom smiled at me. While she did so to reassure me, it made me feel more awkward. Her clingy red blouse wasn't helping matters. It was impossible to be around her without taking a second look.
At least once a day, I looked and almost forgot she was my Mom. It had caused a near miss more than once. Last summer, I had to stay in the pool after staring at her as she floated face-up. Her breasts were mostly exposed. The water made her nipples hard and poked ridiculously through the fabric of her bikini. I knew my Mom had to notice my erection when I started to get out of the pool. She didn't ask why I changed my mind at the last second. My hard-on wouldn't subside. When Mom floated in the other direction, she moved her legs to each side of the small pool raft. I had a direct view between her legs, up her stomach, and her breasts. Her eyes were closed, so I knew she had no idea what view she was presenting. I couldn't help myself. I pulled my swim shorts down underwater and pumped myself. It took less than thirty seconds for me to cum. Ropes of cum floated to the top of the pool.
I closed my eyes briefly. When I opened them, Mom looked at me from ten feet away. There was no way she could have known I'd cum. "It's nice to be in the pool, right?" I nodded and splashed the water. Secretly, I wondered what she would think to know that I just jacked off in front of her without her knowing.
Mom mentioning the pool made me realize she knew what I was doing. Since she didn't interrupt me, she must have liked knowing I was admiring her body while jerking off. And spreading her legs and presenting her body on purpose so that I could enjoy it more. That also explained the countless times I'd catch her "accidentally" darting across the hallway half-dressed, not to mention the number of times she'd ask my opinion on something new she'd bought.
"I'll send Rick to talk to you if you'd like. Yes, that might be best." Mom stood up.
I protested. "I don't want to talk to him about it. I know how it works. It's just that I've never done it. With someone else, I mean."
"And there's no one to jump your bones. You're a good-looking young man, John. Once you find a woman, you'll discover why it's a million times better than watching others do it on video. Trust me."
I looked away as Mom continued to smile at me.
"That settles it. I'm sending Rick up to talk to you when he returns." Mom turned to walk out of my bedroom. I couldn't help it. My eyes followed her and her legs as she left the room. I felt guilty admiring her from behind. Feeling sexually attracted to someone you're not supposed to be is common, but the level of fantasy life associated with her was probably unhealthy. Her admission of fantasizing about me turned me on despite her saying we could never act on it. Just hearing her talk about fucking was a game-changer.
I sat at my computer, trying to study but mostly thinking about some of the girls at school for a few seconds. Each time, my mind drifted back to Mom. When I got up a few minutes later to get a snack, I peeked out of the bedroom cautiously first. Seeing no one, I went to the kitchen and back upstairs before running into someone I might have to talk to.
By eight o'clock, I decided that no one would be intruding to talk to me. An hour later, I heard a knock on the door and shouted, "Open."
My stepdad stepped inside. Rick was five years younger than my Mom. Like Mom, he was in great shape. He was why she'd come out of her shell again after four years of divorce.
"Hey John, I'm not here to make you uncomfortable. Let's pretend we're not talking about sex, okay? Your Mom doesn't need to know." John smiled and patted me on the shoulder. Unlike most other friends with stepparents, I liked Rick.
I laughed. "Good. It was awkward enough having a conversation with her."
"She told me she had to talk a little too personally to you about it. It would help if you got out more. Go find a young woman."
I nodded. I hoped my Mom hadn't shared everything we'd discussed with Rick. "I had terrible luck in high school. I almost had no luck in my three years at the university. I'm kind of into older women."
"What if I told you I could fix your problem?" Rick smiled.
"Fix my problem?" I looked at Rick like he'd grown a horn from his forehead.