The Christmas Party:
Attending my third office Christmas party, the second since officially starting work at my father's company though still too young to drink and not feeling much like watching the foolishness I found a table off in the corner and outside the main conference room.
Lisa is walking towards me, she's obviously drunk from her walk to her facial expression, her eyes are focused on me though and she looks determined. My crush of the office is making me more nervous as she gets closer. It started with taking quick peeks at her whenever she was busy, studying the way she moved or her dark hair as it fell across her eye as she would brush it away. Flicking quick glances at her and having her either catch me or maybe watch me when I looked so both getting caught.
Staring at her ample tits and long legs in a new outfit, she looks damn good no matter her condition.
"James, way over here staring from afar again." Lisa giggles and sits down.
"Well, I've already eaten, not allowed to drink, and was about to call it a night." Though this changes things, and I might just stay to see where this goes. I chat with her almost every day as we sit in the same area, but due to her circumstances, she was off-limits.
"Don't leave me here." Lisa looks around and then back at me.
"Why are you looking around?" Scanning the room, nobody is outwardly watching us.
Lisa lays her hand on my upper thigh and whispers. "Are you as big as your father?"
Snapping my head back from looking around to looking down at her hand while at the same time absorbing her comment.
"What?" I understood the comment, but the implications were just too bizarre.
"Come on James, I see you staring at me constantly, half the clothes I wear to the office are just for you, yet you never do what I want you; to do." Lisa squeezes my thigh causing me to push the chair back and stand up.
"I'm going to have to leave you be, for now, I have a few things I need to figure out." I turn and head for the exit, ignoring everything except getting to the elevator and getting the hell out of there. Rushing to the parking garage under the building I'm now thinking about Mom. Does she know? Should I tell her? Should I confront Dad? Is Lisa going to tell Dad how I reacted? Is she going to remember? What the hell am I going to do!
My hands are shaking in anger as I sit in the dark garage, rethinking the past few years and realizing every answer to my questions seem to make for worse scenarios and even worse questions. Everything I ignored in the office seems so obvious now.
How many times has Dad told me to go home while he finishes up with Allison in his office or the intern Rachel and business trips that could have been handled with a simple call?
My phone buzzes and Lisa is apparently freaking out now also: "Can we talk? Please don't tell anyone I said anything. Please!"
I type and retype so many different questions but keep deleting them all. "Come down to the Parking Garage C3."
As the elevator opens, I get out of the car and waive Lisa over to the passenger side. She gets in and we sit quietly for a few seconds before she turns to me.
"Please James, I fucked up, anything you want; this is so fucked." Lisa is begging. "I can't believe that was the first thing I said, you make me so nervous; shit."
I try to remain calm, at least on the outside. "How long have you, and you know."
"Not that long and it was not something I actually wanted but once it happens there's no way out." Lisa starts crying.
"I sigh, "let's try this again, you tell me everything about you and Allison and Rachel and whoever else." I turn to look her in the eyes. "If you lie to me, this is only going to get worse."
Lisa looks up at me, "Rachel? I didn't know about her. But I started about a year ago, several months ago it slowed down and then stopped as he moved on and that whore Allison is now smirking in my face when she walks past my desk into his office like it's an actual victory. I've been so pissed for months now and the way you look at me, but you're always so nice and charming and, shit, and the alcohol; I took a chance I wouldn't normally take though my God, it just came out."
We sit in silence again while I work through all of this.
"James; I'm sorry, please; if this gets out, I'm not just fired, I'm going to have to move and no references means all my experience means nothing." Lisa is holding my arm with both hands.
"Screw him," I say flatly to the steering wheel. All I can think of is Mom at home waiting for the both of us in her own little world surrounded by lies.
Calming down a bit, and I do like Lisa and did catch on to a few things said. "If you help me, I'll leave you out of it and pin this on Allison since she's the current."
"What?" she may be shocked back into sanity, but Lisa is still drunk and slow to react. "Uhh, okay? What do you mean pin it on Allison, what are you going to do?"
"I'm dropping you at your house as you can't go back upstairs like this." I start the car up and pull up to the card reader exit. "Where to?"
"OH Uhm, left, 2
nd
light take a right." Lisa gives me directions until we pull into an apartment complex, and she points to a parking spot.
I put my hand on her leg, though all the up by her knee. She jerks but doesn't say anything. "I'm going to walk you to your door." I can't think of what to do tonight so I'll buy some time.
"Ohh, uhh, okay." Lisa's voice drops as she looks out her window. I realize how it sounded to her and decide to push through this as I have no intention of being like him.
"We are going to have to take care of each other for the next couple of weeks, stay put for a second." I squeeze her knee and get out of the car. Walk around the car and open her door.
Lisa takes my hand without looking at me, "Thanks."
I pull Lisa out of the car, "I'm going to figure out where you live so I can pick you up in the morning to get your car back." I put my elbow out for her to take. "Someone I've been crushing on for a while admitted that when she gets drunk, she drops her defenses and tells the truth about what she wants."
"What?" I'm sorry about tonight, James." She takes the arm offered and steers me to her apartment.
"My family is obviously a mess that I need to think about, and you are going to help me. I haven't been interested in a relationship of any kind. I saw your eyes and the outfits and of course, I looked because I'm not dead. You were the only one I thought about trying again with, but being Jack's secretary, I figured you were off-limits. He knows better than to do what he did and why."
Lisa just holds my arm. "I am so sorry about all of this."
"I know, I'll be back around 10 am to get you," I reply and Lisa turns towards the door.
"Forgetting something?" I ask Lisa and she turns around to see me with my head turned and pointing at my cheek. I get a partial smile and a kiss on the cheek.
"I understand what happened now, more than you might think; I'm not blaming you, everything will work out, see you tomorrow."
"Night James, thank you."
Walking back to the car, I get a text from Dad "Where are you?"
I text back "Taking Lisa to her apartment."