Mom's a Cheat... Now This
It was nearly a week since I hid in my parents' closet and watched my mom and her lover fucking. In the cold light of day, a million different scenarios ran through my head. It was unlikely that I was just going to confront Mom about her infidelity and admit that I was hiding in the closet. I didn't see any benefit to telling Dad what I saw and ruining their relationship. I could try to track Jeremy down but then what? Make threats that would get back to Mom anyway? I couldn't get the visions of my mom sucking and fucking out of my head. I wanted her even more than ever. The passive object of my fantasies had shown me exactly how sexual she was, even if she had no idea about it. I couldn't just be satisfied with masturbating to what I saw. Neither did the risk/reward seem favorable for trying to catch her in the act again. I needed to be proactive. I needed to take control of the situation. I needed to stop asking questions and start acting. I needed Mom. I needed a plan.
"Please, please, please!" That was part of one of the early scenarios that ran through my head about simply begging Mom to sleep with me for my silence. This was the real world, though. Not a porn movie. Blackmail was hardly the long-term answer. No, in this case, I was pleading for her laptop password to be unchanged. My prayers were answered. I was logged in to Mom's accounts again. Mom was at the gym so I was confident that she wouldn't be online for the next hour or so at least. I moved to her Messenger and saw that her last interaction with Jeremy was two days earlier. I clicked on the message and scrolled back through. My heart skipped a beat when I saw a mention of my name. Mom said that I had been acting a little weird the last few days. She was worried that I knew something was going on. Jeremy told her not to worry, they had been very careful. No phone calls, no texts, only secret rendezvous (except for last weekend). Mom wasn't convinced. Jeremy started to get irritated. I continued reading with my heart beating faster. Mom suggested that they cool things off a little. Jeremy did not like that idea. The next message was a couple of hours later. Jeremy apologized and suggested that Mom spend time with her family this weekend, reasoning that maybe I was feeling left out with how much "overtime" she had been doing. The final message was from Mom saying, "Good idea, Overtime!" with a wink emoji. That one made me a little queasy. RIP Chandler Bing. Your spirit lives on.
Mom arrived home from the gym a couple of hours later. She was wearing her workout clothes. She was sweaty and flushed and all I could think of was how she looked when she was making love in her marital bed last week.
"So, what do you think?" She asked.
"Huh?" I replied.
"Are you OK, honey? You've been really zoned out lately..."
"I'm...fine. What was the question?"
I needed to regain my composure. Telling myself to act naturally wasn't a great idea. It's never that easy, is it?
"I don't have overtime this weekend, I was thinking that we could catch a movie or something tomorrow," Mom suggested.
My hopes were raised. Alone time with Mom was exactly what I needed, though I still didn't have a good plan about what to do at that time.
"Sure, sounds great!" I replied like a nerd.
"Awesome. I hope your dad is free. He should be landing around now. It will just be like old times," she smiled.
My mood deflated a little. I felt guilty. Dad hadn't done anything wrong, apart from not satisfying Mom well enough. I should have been happy to spend quality time with my family. I grabbed a soda and went to watch TV.
"You're kidding!" It was about an hour later, nearly 9 PM when I heard Mom shout. I turned the volume on the TV down, but her voice was quieter now. She had a somber tone. I couldn't make out any of the words. I heard her say her goodbyes followed by a rather stilted "Love you, too." Mom came to the living room and sat next to me on the sofa.
"Guess what?" she asked.
"What?"
"Your father didn't land an hour ago because he didn't take a flight. He needs to work again tomorrow to meet some 'important clients'".
I could tell from her intonation that Mom wasn't buying it. "He says he can't be home until Saturday. There goes our family movie night."
"There goes HIS family movie night," I shot back.
"What do you mean? Mom asked.
"We don't have to waste our Friday night just because Dad won't be here" I argued.
I was starting to see why Mom found somebody else. This wasn't unusual. Either Dad loved playing golf much more than he loved being with Mom, or there was something else he loved more than being with Mom. I guess golf, important clients, and overtime are all the same. Now that there was a chance of being alone with Mom, I was determined that she would commit to the idea. I didn't want her to make alternative arrangements, especially of the overtime variety.
"Are you sure, honey?" Mom asked with a little pout. "I'm sure you could find better ways to spend your Friday night..."
"Nope. A plan's a plan. We're going to the movies. I'll even take you for dinner first if you like," I smiled.
"Wow! Dinner and a movie. Lucky me!" Mom laughed. "It's been a long time since I had a real date like that!"
"Then it's settled!" I replied, ignoring the obvious lie.
"OK! I'm going to grab a shower and get an early night," Mom answered.
She had a pep in her step as she walked up the stairs. I imagined sneaking into her room again and watching her as she emerged from the shower and got ready for bed. Would she be lonely in that big bed? Would she find comfort in one of the toys I knew she kept in her underwear drawer? Would she think about Jeremy? Would she think about me? There I go with the questions again. I went to my room, replayed last weekend's scenes in my head, and decided that I was going to try to make fantasy a reality the following night.