The cold rush of panic partially sublimated still lingered in her limbs, tickling under her entire surface, though it was subsiding. Whew, that was a little too close...she could still feel the adrenaline working it's way through the muscles in her limbs. Pesky, she thought, how it stuck around like that when it wasn't needed.
"Hey Mom"
"He-..." Her voice cracked. She hadn't spoken outloud in awhile, she realized, and her throat had become dry. She cleared her throat. "Hm - hey hun."
Justin did the usual - went straight to his room. She'd invaded his privacy enough times to be fairly certain she'd covered her tracks, but there was always the chance of that one thing that might have escaped her attention and been left out of place. Justin's bedroom door opened, there was a pause. Had he noticed? Had he seen that one thing that was surely askew, that was always there, despite her best efforts? His door shut again. Phew, no, she was safe...and as expected, his door didn't open again for the rest of the evening.
On her back in bed that night, after they'd both retired to sleep, she saw his drawing when she closed her eyes. She wondered if he was still up, maybe working on it at that very moment. She visualized him drawing, imagined him staring at the paper in front of him, imagining her naked body and bringing it into reality to pleasure himself with her image. She was starting to get wet. She put her hand between her legs and traced her wet crease with the tip of her finger. As she gently massaged herself, Justin's head appeared and rose between his legs. She leaned her head back, staring at the ceiling in anticipation. He softly, gently licked her slit up and down, more like simply tasting her at first. He quickly, impatiently shiftied his focus to her clit, engulfing it in his mouth, sucking on it, gently licking her, making love to her womanhood with his mouth, then pushing his mouth against her crotch harder, as if wanting her to cum all over his lovely -- AHHHHHHHH -- face ---- OHHHH - she grabbed his head on both sides, pulling his face into her harder, pressing herself into his mouth with her hips, as the most intense part of her orgasm came and went. AHHHH, she lay on her back, slightly spent, the last of her warm orgasm edging off into the distance. The excitment the drawing made her feel had been replaced with uneasiness. Maybe it wasn't what she had hoped and she read too much into it. Perhaps he was just playing around, experimenting as an artist with his boundaries. Afterall, there was no genetalia - what did that mean? There was enough gray area and doubt that she couldn't confront him about it although she wanted to. To do so would be to invite him to deny it, dismiss it as folly, even if there were some truth to it. She couldn't risk it. Couldn't risk giving him a reason to retreat into his shell. She'd give anything, she thought, just to be inside his head for a moment and know for sure...what he wanted, even if it was nothing. Not knowing, wondering, as she had for so long, seemed worse...there was no end to it.
He might be leaving for the weekend to go up to Canada, she remembered. She didn't really want him to go, but it had been a long time it seemed since she had the house to herself. She'd break out that old bag of weed that was going dry and stale, she thought, and go shopping for cucumbers. Maybe in the opposite order...she didn't like being in public stoned. She'd make a grand weekend out of it, she thought. She'd smoke until she found herself in that cartoon-like world, and everything looked like the drawings on Justin's wall. By then she'd be horny as a goat and she'd fuck herself stupid with generously-sized produce in her son's bed. Maybe she'd discreetly smear his pillow with her cum so that when he layed down to go to sleep he'd smell her womanly essence and become subconsciously aroused. Perhaps then, responding on sexual instinct, drawn to her instinctually by her phermones like a honey bee, he'd make his way to her room, rip the covers off her in the dead of night and fuck the holy hell out of her, sheathing and unsheathing her on his cock like a limp ragdoll, mercilessly, while she came 10,000 times and howled like a rabid, red-eyed wolf at the full blue moon. Oh, if that happened she'd howl until she was hoarse. Mom had some tricks of seduction up her sleeve, she thought, - she'd seen that one on the Discovery Channel. Something to that effect anyway...marking one's territory.
And oh, Jolene took her time at the grocery store alright. She took her sweet time indeed...in the produce section. She had all weekend and it would go to complete waste if the selection was not done properly because it was rushed. Her eyes searched over the jumbled mass of freshly misted cucumbers for sale - it's on, she thought - it's GAME TIME.
"Where's momma's perfect little pickle? Where are you, you little prick, I know you're in here...somewhere." This was all so exciting. Jolene had looked forward to this all week. If you'd asked Jolene at that particular moment, she'd have told you that weekends "Fucking Rocked!!" as far as she was concerned.
Some were more "challenging" than others, this was true, but she wasn't in the mood for a challenge. She wanted the *almost* perfect fit. Slightly hidden underneath, in the corner of the pile, she saw him, her Champion. Glistening with mist in all his rubust splendor. A quiet confidence convayed in its immediately respectable eight inches - and possessing a girth that made her wonder, made her slightly call into question her ability to accomodate. He was just right. The fresh, ripe color or dark, rich green. He was the cucumber equilvalent of an 18-year old, varsity quarterback, in his absolute prime and yet too young and arrogant to realize it.
"You're a very bad boy aren't you. I know what you want. You're comin' home with momma, you bad little boy." She placed it in the child's seat of the shopping cart where she could keep a good eye on it, occasionally glancing down at him and feeling the warm, satisfied sensation of good fortune that a better-than-expected purchase brings. Had the planet's aligned? Was it her year in the Chinese Zodiac? No, she was an expert in these matters - it was all her, she later decided.
Plus, she'd learned from experience - humbling, embarrassing experience - that, in this town, it isn't wise to simply walk up to a cashier with a cucumber and a bottle of lube and expect them to keep a straight face. People aren't stupid and cashiers typically aren't paid well enough to be discreet. She'd wrongly assumed that once when she'd gone to the store to "stock up" after having too much to drink. She remembered thinking "Ahhhh, they're not paying attention and even if they are - BAHHH - they don't care". However, they always are, and they always do, for reasons she accepted long ago she would never understand in the slightest. That's just people - one must fully expect that they will never pass up an opportunity to disappoint. She had to be realistic with these things now. She probably could have gotten away with it had she lived in Arizona perhaps, but not in this pin-sphinctered, flog-thy-neighbor, Puritan orgy of wholesomeness. If their collective self-righteousness was a cock, then the townspeople's favorite recreation was butt-raping whomever amongst themselves they could find an excuse to butt-rape, as fully justified and warranted in the town statutes, of course. It was, as you'd expect with these types, perfectly legal, even encouraged, a form of entertainment, in a stasi-flavored, civic duty kind of way. The kind that garners pats on the back and praise as unspoken assurance, points earned among his fellows, that should the whistle-blower ever slip up in the future, his past "good deeds" would be remembered, and he would not be similarly humiliated. This of course was a lie, a deception, worthy of Judas, the jew. For no one was ever exempt, no amount of previous compliance was ever valued at a later date. A merciless, systematic sieve of punishment, the unblinking public eye ever watchful at the apex of the current moment for the next offence.
She certainly didn't want to relive:
"Price check on aisle three. Need a price check on cucumbers, vaseline, latex gloves, Hustler magazine, aisle three...for the lady in the green dress. Yeah, the horny looking one, that's her, the pervert...that drives the blue pickup and lives in the two story brick house on Haversham Lane, works at the library, in the A.V. section...hello?...anyone?..."
Typically masked in an everyday, civil exchange, the public lashing continued: "Ma'am, all of our associates seem to be on break...do you mind waiting another fifteen, twenty minutes? We've got a long line forming behind you. I'll just put your things to the side here for a moment, next to the register in plain sight. Woah, looks like half the town's here tonight (!) - this NEVER happens at 3 a.m, how odd! I can help the next customer please! You there, step up, don't forget to gawk at the pervert's purchases before you leave. Wait a moment - don't go anywhere ma'am. Stay right here so the other customers can memorize your face, I mean, so you don't loose you place in line."
At home, Jolene got Bob Marleyed rather quickly. She found herself remembering how much she LOVED Led Zepplin and then noticed she hadn't even taken off her clothes yet! Oh well, she thought, she had plenty of weed to keep it going. Zep was SOOOO good, genius really - how could she have forgotten? She lay there for what seemed like a long time listening to the melodic intricasies that always went unnoticed while sober. A few hits later and she was where she wanted to be - in slow-motion cartoon world, her heartbeat thumping in her ears, her throat starting to get dry. Damn, her nipples were starting to get hard - fuckin' *hell* yes. It was time - she went around the house, closing all the drapes and dropping all the blinds. If those Puritan fucks across the street only knew what she would be doing shortly.Good thing she set the video camera up in advance in Justin's room, she thought - she was pretty toasty - all she had to do now was turn it on - she could manage that.