Longtime lurker, first-time submission.
This is a work of literary erotica, not a 'Double-D Cheerleader' story. It's driven by relationship, scenario & dialogue. So please don't down-vote out of malice. I like to explore interesting couplings in a realistic way. Put two people in a room, lock the door, see what happens.
All characters are 18 or older.
Touch yourself. It's better that way.
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The first time I saw my mother naked was about three or four months ago. It was winter at any rate, but quite sunny out and the house was warm. I'd gone into her bedroom one afternoon to look for something and found her napping in the nude, covers thrown off to one side.
I remember being embarrassed, and for a while looking away and continuing to pretend, only to myself, to look for...I dunno, whatever it is I'd gone in there looking for, I can't remember now. All I knew was this urging desire to look at her again, exposed to me as she was like that, unaware I was there. I mean my mom is a pretty woman, without doubt, and definitely in great shape for her age, but - well, she was my Mom. I'd never had any thoughts about her in any way that involved seeing her undressed. Yet in that moment, especially if I didn't look directly at her face, just her body...there was a living, warmly alive, nude
woman
before me. That sounds stupid, but you get what I mean. In the soft light that streamed in around the blinds, she wasn't my mother. She was a moment of female eroticism frozen in time.
As I said, at first I tried to not stare, to invade her private moment like some gawking kid. I mean I was technically already an adult. Yet still a virgin. I'd never seen a woman naked, not really, actually. Plus if anything, I figured, she'd probably take no offense about it if she knew. She was always trying to get me to open-up about myself, talk about my feelings toward girls, warning me about the need to use condoms, how she'd get some for me anytime and not to be embarrassed to ask. It frustrated me to no end, and I usually withdrew, both emotionally and physically, from any of these discussions.
In fact a short time before my eighteenth birthday mom had made a half-joke about hiring a stripper for me. Just the mention of it caused me to seize-up inside. But then she pressed on with the idea, talked about how she worked with this woman who did exotic dancing on occasion.
'I mean we probably couldn't actually have her perform at your party,'
mom continued.
'That would just be...a terrible idea, obviously. But Bobbi's really outgoing, and honey she's really gorgeous.'
This last was aimed at me, which made me squirm so that I couldn't look at her.
'And I already said I was going to make myself scarce all night for your party. So maybe I should just see if she'd be willing to swing by after it ends, to check in on stuff...whatever'.
I'd shut down completely at this, not answering in any way I recall coherently. I'd regret that a thousand times, especially that quiet night of the party after my friends had gone home. But what was I supposed to say, to do? Was she honestly trying to get me laid? Pimp out some friend of hers? This was my mom, not one of my buddies. Yet this was how it was, sometimes, with her. She worried about me. Probably some kind of single-mom guilt or some shit. She tried to
meddle
in my...you know, my guy stuff. A lot.
Oh so here's another great example. One time in ninth-grade I find this non-descript box in my room, and when I opened it there was a hodge-podge of used camping supplies. But as I dug them out I found a small stack of old Playboy magazines in the bottom. When I asked her furtively about the box, she'd replied a little too-offhandedly that it was just something she'd found in the garage, probably my dad's, so she hadn't even looked in it and wanted me to sort it out and see if there was anything worth keeping. The thing was I'd already noticed a small strip of Amazon.com packing tape that hadn't been completely torn off, so I knew that box wasn't old. And I hadn't even started thinking about girls in that way, back then. Well, maybe a little.... So I hid the magazines away, more out of embarrassment about admitting anything openly. But soon enough they would call to me, in the way they were meant to. I mean the women were beautiful, and there was something secretly naughty about having them.
Shit, though. Now as I write this, I finally get what my mother was doing.
Because naturally I'd soon discover that there were a bajillion-million sex videos on the internet of every insane horny-making thing anyone could ever imagine. So why was it she wanted me to get my first few peeks at a female body out some old Playboys? Maybe to distract me from all that for just a little longer, to soften the hormonal blow about sexuality the internet would eventually deliver. And I did look at the magazines, from time to time. I still have them tucked in a corner of my closet right now.
So now, on this day, as I began to sneak embarrassed glances at my mother's
au naturel