I pulled up into the driveway of my Motherâs house. I had just had the worse night of my life. My boyfriend of two months had come onto to me again, and again I shut him down. I just wasnât ready yet and he couldnât understand that. I walked to the door and knocked on it. I really hoped that my Mother wasnât entertaining someone. She answered the door and I looked wide-eyed at her. She was wearing nothing but a sheer nightgown.
âSorry, didnât see a car in the drive so I didnât think you had a guest.â
âI donât. He just left. Come on in.â
I walked in and tried hard not to look at my Mother, the nightgown showed me all of her body and her nakedness was making me nervous.
âSo, whatâs up?â
âCould you please put on some clothes?â
âNo. I donât feel like it.â
I took a deep breath and began to tell her about my night.
âChuck and I went out again tonight. Went to dinner and then to the park.â
âHuhâŚand?â
âAnd he tried to get me to have sex with him.â
âWhat did you do? Donât tell me you said no.â
âI did.â
âWhy?â My Mother looked at me like I was some kind of freak.
âI donât know. Iâm just not ready I guess.â
âReady for what? Have you ever fucked?â
âNo. Not really.â
âWhat do you mean not really?â
âIâve given a blowjob and Iâve been fingered but thatâs about as far as Iâve gotten.â
âWhat are you waiting for? Prince Charming? Honey thatâll never happen.â
I didnât answer her. I sat staring at her face, wondering why I even came here in the first place. I knew she wouldnât be any help. Sheâd fuck the first guy that said hi to her. I figured though that she knew a lot about sex and she could tell me why I was so afraid of it. She stared back at me for a minute.
âLook, there isnât anything to be afraid of just do it.â
âBut I canât.â
She looked me up and down and then a wicked smile came to her face.
âI know how to help. Come back tomorrow night.â
âWhat are you going to do?â
âDonât worry about it. Just come back tomorrow. Weâll get it to where you arenât afraid to fuck.â
I looked at her, mistrustingly, but nodded my head.
âOkay fine. What time do you want me here?â
âI donât care just come.â
I nodded again and got up to left. I drove back to my house and tried to lie down and go to sleep but couldnât. The look my mother had given me right before she told me to come back was stuck in my mind. It made me uneasy to think about it, and I couldnât help but wonder exactly what she had in store for me.
My Mother had always been somewhat of a scary person to me. She was highly sexual and never would she hide that from anyone, not even her own daughter. She was very commanding about what she wanted, and how she was to be pleased. There had always been a line of men coming in and out of our house, and Iâd hear her in her bedroom with them scream or commanding them to do something to her. She had always been disappointed in me because I had never shared the same sexual passions she did. I never wanted to grow up like her. I had always planned to get married; she had no idea who my father was. I had always planned to be faithful to one man; she couldnât stand to see the same man two nights in a row. Basically my Mother was a slut who desired nothing but making men make her cum. This is what worried me about going back to her house tomorrow night. I was sure that sheâd have one of her many boyfriends there to show me the ropes, and that is not what I wanted. I wondered if I should even show up at all, but I knew if I didnât sheâd come to me, so there was no getting out of it.
The next day I couldnât concentrate on anything, my thoughts kept going to my Mother, and my worries became more as the day turned to evening and then night. At seven oâclock my phone rang.
âHello?â
âHi Honey, thought you were coming over here tonight.â
âOh yeah, I am. Just heading out the door now.â
âGood. Iâve got many plans to get you right.â
What did she mean by that? I just said okay and hung up. I knew I wasnât getting out of it since she called. She never called unless she wanted something. I grabbed my coat, took a deep breath, and headed to my Motherâs.
When I pulled into the drive the house seemed bigger than it really was. I felt like I was in some type of horror movie and the monster was my Mother waiting behind the door to snatch me up and do awful things to me. My heart beat at an alarming speed, and I sat in my car for a long time trying to calm myself down. I gave myself one good shake and got out. I went to the door and knocked. I about turned around and ran when I saw my Mother.
She wore another sheer nightgown, draped around her shoulders was a robe, but it was see through so I could see everything. I stared at her in amazement, my silence finally broke.
âMom! What are you wearing?â