Take a journey with me...
So I took a break from this story series for a couple of reasons.
The first reason also has a couple of reasons behind it. So does that make it 4 reasons? Or are the 2 parts of the first reason simply expansions on the first? Maybe together they represent a completely separate reason? Does that make it 3, then?
I told you I'm not good at math or percentages or as one reader suggested, fractions.
My Sister and I recently had the opportunity to sit down and discuss some of things I have written. As I said I had a couple of reasons for bringing it up to her. The first was to gauge her reaction so far to what I wrote. She's not a big fan on how far I drifted away from the truth, preferring the first 2 stories over my third, as those are much closer to what actually transpired, outside of the sister/sister sex that is. She did admit that they turned her on quite a bit though and that she masturbated while reading them...so I guess I must have done something right.
My girlfriend, did suggest that the reason she liked the first one the best was not only because it was much more true, thus more easily relatable to Sarah (true stories are hot!), but because she still harbored sexual feelings for me!
Well duh!
Of course you don't need to be Sigmund Freud to guess that. We admitted a long time ago that we both harbor sexual feelings for each other. That's the whole point of this! As Sigmund Freud once said:
Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways.
So come forth demon emotions and let us do battle!
I also thought I might try to write one from her point of view. So I asked her to write down some of her thoughts. You can guess how that went. Her first response was to tell me she wasn't a writer. The second one was that it was kind of embarrassing.
Apparently it was ok for me to air our dirty laundry but when I asked her to do it, (even as a proxy) she clammed up. But I eventually got a super long, rambling email that I will use to help write this story from her point of view. As way of explanation the parts of the story told from her point of view are generally true.
The second reason is that I needed time. As Sarah has already said she's not a writer. So it took her a bit. Then of course I had to compile it and then transfer it into my own prose. Try as I might it still comes across as sounding like me.
I also wanted to include the wedding into it and once again wanted to make sure Sarah was ok with me telling it, as well as get her input. The wedding story is true but I had a hard time blending the fact with the fiction into the existing storyline. I struggled a bit here wanting to tell the (true) story from her point of view, while still keeping it fresh and interesting while not repeating myself too much. So in the end I ended up splitting the story in two. 4A told from Sarah's point of view is true. While 4B is told by the fantastical ramblings of a sexual deviant. Yours truly!
A few months ago my girlfriend asked me a pretty relevant question, one to which I didn't really answer at the time.
Knowing full well the attraction that exists between my Sister and I, she will often indulge my fantasy by pretending to be my sister (I have a hot story about it, that I may try and develop a story about). After a particularly satisfying bout of sex one night, she asked if I thought if Sarah and I actually did screw our brains out, would it be a one time thing? Do it once and get it out of my system? Or something I felt I would want more than once.
It was an important question. One that I felt deserved an honest answer. Not only to my Girlfriend but to myself.
Honestly...? I don't know. I really don't think that is the correct question to be asking anyway.
My reasoning is that the attraction has been there for a long time. Maybe even longer than either one of us realize. It reminds me about a story I once heard about a Lion trainer. He raised a Lion from a cub into adult hood. Everyday he fed the Lion by hand. One day after feeding the Lion, he decided to show off the trust that the Lion and he shared, so he stuck his hand in the Lion's jaws. The Lion of course promptly bit his hand off.
The reasoning here is very simple, a Lion doesn't stop being a Lion just because you feed it.
Only by overcoming our baser instincts, wants and desires...are we truly human. What separates us from the beasts, is the ability to deny ourselves that which will bring instant gratification. Thus I'm certain it would be something I wanted more than once...but the real question is rather- Am I a big bad Human or a little pussy cat Lion?
Well I can tell you what this pussy wants...but so far I have been able to deny myself that gratification.
If your reading this, try and understand that, its not only the account from my memories but my sisters' as well...which differed from mine in surprising ways. Oh not as to what happened but things that were said or the sequence of events. Know that I am also looking back at this from the experience of now and trying to capture our mood, state of mind and reservations that we had then. Things are different now. You see its no longer a question on IF she and I will ever sleep together, but simply a matter of when.
XOXO Tiff