I'm sorry this took so long but I need a break. As this has been hard to continue considering.
I received a great deal of critical comments on chapter 16. I just wish to remind people reading this. It is a true story I cannot help how it twists that is how it went. I found my cousin has a dark side and very kinky at that. Still it never made me stop loving her. We still talk quite often but live 4 states apart so we almost never get together. When we do it's around family and difficult to converse in private. Not that we have not connected a few time since this story. So I am sorry if it turns some readers away. Believe me it has been very difficult putting this summer to paper so to speak. So if you decide it's not worth reading that's up to you. I'm just telling it as it really was.
Jo has requested a 2 or 3 some with guys. It nearly ripped my heart out to hear her ask for it. Dealing with it nearly drove me crazy.
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My cousin Jo and I, Part 17
I decide I have to do this as it is only fair. Arriving at Calvin's he out side cleaning his car.
"That's not going to help this piece of shit." I tell him.
"Well fuck you too. How you doing today?"
"Better just tough shit for a bit. Man I know you wouldn't do anything to ruin our friendship. At the same time I know your hot for Jo. Hell I'd be stupid if I thought any guy would not be. This is real hard but to say so bear with me..."
"Take your time bud. I understand somewhat. I get jealous when Jane dates even and she is my sister. So I understand where you are coming from."
"OK here goes. Jo wants to have a threesome."
"What did you just say??"
"You heard me she wants a threesome. She had one with another girl an I. Now she wants one with another guy and I. Actually said something about a foursome."
"Holy shit your kidding me."
"NO I'm not kidding you! Why would I even say something like this in jest. Man you're a bigger dumbass then me sometimes."
"Fuck me dude. That's fucking crazy shit. I see why you took off the other day."
"That's the fucked up part. I learned this after that happened."
"Wow that's really messed up then."
"Yea that's putting it mildly."
"So what you gonna do?"
"That's why I'm here. I think she was hoping the other day she would have ended up with both of us on her. Maybe even including Jane somehow. Tough as it is I want to try doing this. If your willing to go along."
Calvin is standing there a bit stunned I think. Then tells me.
"I will do what ever you want. Do you want me to talk to Jane or is she part of the deal?"
I had to think about that one for a little while. "No don't say anything right now. I need to talk to Jo first about you and I being the two guys right now."
Calvin just shook his head yes he uderstood. My stomach is tied in knots right now. I need time to settle down to talk to Jo.
"I'm going to go for now I'll get back to you when I know more. I need to go for now though."
"Call me when you know or need someone to talk to."
"I will."
I head back home to talk to Jo. My mind is in turmoil so badly. It's giving me a headache. I really don't want to talk to her at all about it. Maybe I'd be better off just letting her pick two guys and stay out of it. I don't know what to do. It takes me an hour to walk the normal fifteen minute walk home. Entering the house my gut is on fire. My head is killing me. I look for Jo, she is out back talking to mom. They see me both asking where I have been. I tell them Calvin's as I needed to talk to him. Mom is asking if everything is OK. I tell her yes that he and I are good. She is glad to hear it, Jo says she is sorry she caused any problem between him and me. I tell her it's really not her fault. I sit on the back porch a few more minutes then go inside. I get a pop and go to my room to think.
I'm sitting on my bed trying to work it out what I'm going to say to Jo. Not really paying attention caught up in thought.
"You all right?" It's Jo.
Catching me off guard I almost jump off the bed. It scares me so bad. She just starts laughing.
'"Gee didn't know I was that scary."
"Dam Jo don't sneak up on me like that."
"Sorry I really wasn't trying to sneak up on you. What's up? You still worked up over my deal?"
"Yea you could say that. I talked to Calvin about it. He said that he is leaving it up to you an I."
"If it bothers you that much we can forget it."
"Jo, Hell yes it bothers me. I had no idea what I was doing with Christy and Susie. I never thought about how you felt at all. Another reason I'm such a dumbass."
"How could you know, I never said a word even told you it was ok to see Christy. But I also know I will leave one day. You'll need a girl like Christy after I'm gone. She cares about you. You know that don't you? I don't know if she loves you. I know that am sure she cares a lot about you. That was even before she had sex with you. Remember what Susie said about how Christy said she liked you? I can live without making you feel so bad about this. If you want we can give it sometime to settle. Or I can call home and have Mom come get me."
"What! Come get you? Jo there is no way I will let you go back to having to live with that shit at home. We can work this out. I can learn to deal with it. It just will take me sometime to adjust is all."
In my head I'm thinking. I cannot send her home to the molestation she has dealt with from her dad and brother. Yet I am torn apart by the thought of her with someone else. I know I need to learn to deal with it as she will be with someone else eventually.
"Maybe we should just forget it. I really don't have to have it. You know it's just kind of a, I don't know wish for thing."
"I understand wishes. I have had plenty of those before you come to stay. Since you have been here all my wishes have come true. Hell some I never even wished for or thought of. But I always wished you would love me. That has been a dream of mine since we were kids. I never ever thought it would come true. That is why I guess your wish is so hard for me."
"Dick forget I even said anything at all about it. I don't want to ruin what we have that is for sure."
"It will be tough to forget. It will always be in the back of my mind that you want this. So it will be hard to forget. That and knowing I didn't let it happen will play on me too."
She looks at me comes over leans down looking into my eyes. She is so beautiful to me. I'm lost in her eyes. She kisses me. Then tells me.
"Everything will be alright. We will get through this. You mean more to me than any wish I have." Then smiles and kisses me again. "Come on lets do something."
My load is lifted from my soul hearing her say this. Life is almost livable again. Even though I will never be able to forget her wish. She takes my hand. We head down stairs. It is noon so we eat and talk about what to do.
Mom asks, "What do you want for your birthday next week?"
"That's right it is your birthday next Tuesday isn't it." Jo says.
I turn a little red saying. "Nothing really. I can think of."
"How about we go get your drivers license for it." Says mom.
"Really! If we do can I drive one of the cars? Better yet can I buy my own?"
"Whoa slow down. I need to talk to your dad first about it."
That let the air out of my balloon real fast. Dad will shoot down my driving or a car as fast as a speeding bullet.
"Well crap."
"Easy mister just settle down and let me work on this."
I'm all worked up again. What good is a license with out a car of some kind.
"OK mom. I'd like to get my license. When can we do this?"