Chapter one
The time since her funeral had been long and torturous. My wife had died suddenly, in a car accident, and I hadn't even been able to talk to her that day. Then she was gone, leaving a huge empty and dark hole in my life.
We had been married for twenty-four years, getting married right out of high school. It had been the most wonderful and loving years of my life. Our friends and parents tried to talk us out of getting married so young, but we wouldn't listen and got married in spite of them.
Our love for each other grew and grew for all of our years together. We had a beautiful daughter in our second year of marriage that made our love even more special. I had never strayed, nor had my wife.
Sexually, we had tried all things and found that sex was a great and beautiful act to share with each other. We had done it all, trying to find out our limits, and discovered that between the two of us, there were no limits.
We had never had 'others' in our relationship, both being very happy with what we had together. Madeline, my wife, had loved sex in all of its forms and styles. She loved to suck me and have me suck her, so oral was always in our sex. We would have anal sex quite often, since we both enjoyed it.
We had mutual masturbation and fucked everywhere we felt like. (Even in public a few times, almost got caught several times too.) We had literally tried each thing we had heard or read about and found that there was not much we wouldn't do.
After her death, I was lost. I lived each day like a zombie. About a year after her funeral, my daughter, in college now, insisted that I get out and have a date. She set me up with several ladies. In every case the date went pretty well. When it finally led to sex, (sometimes after many dates) well, that is when things would fall apart. Quickly.
On one 'date' the lady I was with freaked out in a real big way when I attempted to go down on her. She had just let me cum in her mouth. It had been a great blowjob and I wanted to reciprocate my enjoyment to her.
I started down on her and about the time she realized that my tongue was just a few inches from my intended target she tried to stop me. I pressed on thinking that she would love it once I got started, that is when she freaked.
"DON"T. That is disgusting and filthy. You can't possibly expect me to let you do that to me. Quit that right now."
"It's all right, I think you will love it once you let me start. I really want to give you the pleasure that you just gave me. It will be wonderful."
"NO. I don't want you to do that to me. I have to go."
With that, in my total confusion, she jumped up got dressed and left. She refused to date me after that and I heard through the grapevine that she thought I was a very sick man.
Imagine that, she sucks me to completion, letting me cum in her mouth and she won't let me return the favor, thinking that I am a very sick man. Takes all kinds I guess. I really was surprised by her views. Glad it never went farther than it did though.
Another lady was very hot in bed but didn't like anything around her cute little asshole. She didn't freak out, she got mad. I stopped right away when she said to, but then she dwelled on it for days afterwards. I finally stopped asking her out.
My dates were progressively getting worse so I finally quit asking women out all together. My daughter, Sue, became worried about me, and even though she was very busy with her schooling, she started to drop by the house on weekends and stay with me.
On one such stay I had been out with the boys for a fun night at a local tavern. I came home and didn't know that Sue was home. I went in to my bedroom and got undressed, a bit tipsy, and then went into the bathroom to relieve myself of some of the beer that I had drank.
On my way back to my bed I walked by her room and saw her lying on top of her sheets. She looked so much like her mother. I don't know when or why, but I found myself on top of her, kissing her face and neck.
She woke up and didn't make a sound, just lying there as I kissed her and started to feel her body. My hands were in her nightgown on her breasts before I realized that this was wrong, this was my daughter.
I was shocked, drunk as I was, and very ashamed of myself. I ran out of the room, apologizing as I left. I lay in my bed for the rest of the night, afraid that I had now chased my daughter away from my life.
In the morning I made up a breakfast for us and had just finished it when she came out, still in her nightgown. Usually she would have been dressed. I could see her hair was wet, signifying that she had taken a shower.
"Daddy, why did you stop last night?"
"Oh God Sue, I shouldn't have ever done what I did last night, I am so sorry. It's no excuse, but I was very drunk. Please forgive me?"
"You don't have anything to forgive daddy. You have missed mom so much, and you haven't had a date in quite a while. I was willing last night you know. You could have had me if you had wanted to. I understand how hard it must be for you."
"Sue, that can't happen. I am your father you are my daughter. We can't ever have sex, it is wrong. Your mother would've killed me if she thought that I was...that we were...WE JUST CAN'T. THAT'S ALL."
I was upset and mortified that my daughter would offer herself to me like she just had. Not only was it the wrong thing to do, deep down I just couldn't see my daughter as a sexual being, not for me anyway.
Sue left and got dressed. She was quiet for the rest of the day and I stayed away from her. I felt so uncomfortable with her now. I had been drunk but that was no excuse for what I had started.
That night as I lay in bed trying to get to sleep I heard her come into my room. Standing at the foot of my bed, I saw her drop her robe and then start to crawl into bed with me. I turned on the lamp next to the bed and saw Sue, my daughter, naked. She looked into my eyes and then sat up showing me her whole body.
I was speechless. I didn't know what to say and my mind had shut down as far as my running out of the room. She looked so much like Madeline that my heart just melted at the sight of her nakedness.
I finally found my tongue and jumped up off the bed.
"SUE. You can't do this. It is wrong; I thought that we had that understanding this morning. You need to go to your room, NOW."
"Daddy, I love you and you need me now. It will be all right. I am pretty good in bed and it isn't like I am a virgin or anything. I have been sexually active for quite some time now. I just want to make you happy again dad. That's all."