As the weather began to warm from spring into summer with my High School Graduation approaching, we both began to realize that this may be coming to an end. I had applied to several colleges around the area and out of state. Three had accepted my applications, and I was still considering which one to choose one night while eating dinner alone at the table when mom walked in from work.
She was dressed pretty simply in a nice medium blue pantsuit, white blouse, and her T-strap black heels. God I'm tired she breathed as she pulled her plate out of the microwave. Dropping her blazer onto the back of the chair and sitting down next to me she leaned over and gently kissed me on the lips, asking me how I was doing.
I'm ok, I said, I've got to make a decision where I want to go to college this fall, and right now it's down to three choices. This seemed to perk up her interest as she leaned over and looked more closely at the letters on the table. Once she saw that all three were out of town or out of state, she slowly leaned back, an empty look on her face, just staring at her plate. Reaching out and taking her chin in my hand, I gently pulled her up saying, these are just letters of acceptance for my applications mom, I haven't made any decisions as to where I might go yet.
But they're all so far away she quietly said. I know we've talked about this not lasting forever, and as I said before, I'm not going to leave your father. But I just can't imagine life now without the little spark of excitement we have when we can have our special times together. It was true, in that we didn't have many opportunities to get crazy together, but when we did, it was truly unforgettable. Sitting there we both seemed to have lost our appetites as we considered what might happen next.
Things were pretty quiet between us for the next few days as we went about our daily routines. Then one day at school I got called into the counselor's office. They had compiled my grades and all seemed to be in order except for one. On the science test that I had tried to study for that night in the library several weeks before, I hadn't done so well. In fact, I had failed it pretty bad. This had brought my GPA down far enough to pretty much kill my applications for most of the bigger colleges. So, I had a choice to make here. Either retake the class over the summer and reapply, or take the grade and consider either a city college or something less accredited.
Things seemed to spin themselves out of control for a few hours as my head whirled with the options. I had always wanted to "get out of this town" and live the life of excitement and travel. Now, one test had changed all that suddenly and I found myself simply lost. Thinking back to that night at the library brought my mind back into focus as I remembered the crazy passion of our lovemaking.
I decided to take an early day from school to think things over. While I was driving home I took a detour around the campus of the city college to see what it was like. Most of the campus was in chaos as kids were packing up to leave for the summer with furniture and trash piled up on the curbs all over the place. Pulling over to stop for a minute I couldn't help but overhear the excited voices of everyone around me. They seemed really happy and also really sad about leaving for the summer. As I sat there I began to realize that I felt more comfortable here, right now, than I had in a long time. It felt as if this place was calling to me, begging for me to stay.
Looking into my backpack I pulled out the stack of letters that I had been lugging around for several weeks. As I thumbed through them I found the letter from the city college, and opening it I discovered that I had already been accepted on my current GPA. Its funny how life just seems to work itself out I thought, my heart leaping into my throat as I started my car and headed home.
On the way I saw a sign at an apartment complex that was advertising openings and half priced rent for students over the summer. Once again, I took a detour and pulled into the parking lot.
After talking to the manager, I walked out with not only an apartment, but also a job doing maintenance work for the complex. I would get a free apartment, fully furnished, for my doing thirty hours a week as an assistant maintenance guy. It didn't pay much above minimum wage, but hell, for all the benefits, life couldn't be better. I just kept thinking on how it was so ironic that my affair with my mom had brought this all so easily about.
I felt like the world was at my fingertips as I pulled into the driveway of my parent's farm. Walking into my room I began packing my stuff. While putting boxes and bags in my closet I found the summer dress and white high heeled sandals from that night. I still hadn't had the buttons put back on, and the shoes looked pretty good considering. They still smelled like new leather and still had the same effect of getting me aroused just thinking about my mom wearing them.
My brothers came in after school and grabbed something quick from the fridge before heading out to hang out with their friends for the night. Still packing up I didn't notice the time as I looked up and saw my mom standing in the door of my room just staring at me. What are you doing? She alarmingly asked as she looked at my room. She was wearing a sharp red business dress that hugged her body with a blazer to match. I had never seen her in red before, and with red heels she looked pretty hot.
MOM! I stammered, what are you doing home so early? It's not early hon, it's after nine already she said. Oh mom, I have so much to tell you. Today has been one hell of a day to say the least. Taking her hand in mine I led her over to my desk, setting her down in my chair as I kneeled down in front of her and started to tell her about my day. She just sat there, speechless, as I explained everything.
You mean, you're not going to be leaving town to go to school? She shakily asked me. No mom, I'm not... in fact, I'll be just 20 minutes away in my own place. It's not much, but it's all mine. And I can go to college here in town and still be around if you ever need me or just want to get crazy. Pulling me to her she quietly sobbed as she held me close. I just couldn't bear the thought of not having my special lover around anymore she said.
We have to celebrate she announced as she stood up. Well, considering I have only a few days until graduation, maybe we can set up some time for us like before I suggested. Leave that to me is all she said as she walked out of my room. Her step was springier and her head high as she coyly turned around in the doorway and winked at me. By the way, you didn't say anything about my red heels or my new outfit.
