My First (time) Taboo

Wow I can't believe this is my 12th chapter. Crazy! Thanks again for everyone who wrote to me. It means a lot just to know there are people out there who understand what I am going through.

Ok, it's funny, but I found out why Nikki got a hold of me. It was about sex, but not at all what I thought it would be. She has a boyfriend and she wanted to know if I wanted to do a three-some with them. I told her I wasn't interested at all. Sorry fellas if I'm killing anyone's fantasies here, but I do not go both ways. So that was interesting. I jokingly told her if she ever wanted to experiment with just the two of us that I might be up for it, but she said she was only doing it for her boyfriend. I'm still not sure that is true, but don't really care either.

So I completely changed my mind about showing this to Denise. I had forgotten some of the things I had written, and plus after writing that I wasn't sure I loved her, I figured that could be a serious relationship killer, and I'm still not completely convinced I want to end this relationship so anyway, I changed my mind about her.

I saw Anna later in the week as she came over to collect some things. She seemed very cold to me and wasn't exactly talkative to my mom either and my mom seemed really sad when Anna left. I wondered if she regretted what she had done, but she doesn't talk about it much. My mom and I have changed too. More than ever it's like we are girlfriends, lovers more than we are family. That is sort of freaking me out and my mom is talking on the phone with Denise sometimes at night. Not sure I pictured that happening either. So this weekend Denise said she couldn't come and see me because her mom thinks she's spending too much time with me and not enough with her other friends. So I asked if I could come over there again. Her mom said next weekend so I guess I'll just have to wait.

On Thursday at work Jessica's brother was in to get his back worked on. I talked to him for a while afterwards. He wondered why I had stopped coming around. He seemed more concerned that he wasn't able to see me than he was asking for Jessica. I told him I was just busy, and he told me that Jessica still talked about me and that I bet she'd like it if I called her to do something. I thought that was so weird and then I wondered, does he just want me to come over cause he likes me. So I asked him if he wanted to have a bunch of us over and have a get together at his house. He thought it sounded great and he said he'd call me.

I felt a little bad about tricking him, just so I could see Jessica, but then again it would be fun and maybe she wouldn't even be there. Though obviously I really hoped I'd see her. He ended up calling me later that night and said he was having a bunch of friends over on Saturday. I asked if I could bring some friends over too and he said sure, the more the merrier. I called up some of my girlfriends, and told them about it and most of them said they could go. Some others had dates and said they might stop by, but I knew they wouldn't.

After the phone call I was excited and I went to tell my mom. We talked for the longest time and next thing I knew she was caressing me and we started kissing. I told her I wanted her to take me to her bed and she led me there and we kissed the whole way. I was so horny and my mom was just all hands. She ended up eating me out as I sat on her face and rubbed her breasts and occasionally I'd bend down and eat her pussy too, but after I climaxed she wanted to fuck me with the strap-on. She was very rough with me and I guess I kind of like it that way. It's like the harder she gives it to me the more I beg for more. I asked her to squeeze my breasts and she did holding them in her hands with each thrust. I started licking the tops of them and she helped a nipple into my mouth. I love to suck my own nipples. It feels so good.

She fucked me until I didn't think I could stand anymore and I lay down on the bed and she just kept pounding me from behind. After a while she pulled out and lay down next to me. At first I just sucked her breasts and kissed her, but then I got on the dildo and just bounced up and down on it for the longest time. My mom's hands were on my breasts and she was twisting my nipples and occasionally I'd bring them to her mouth and she'd suck them. Then I started grinding my clit against her as the dildo was still up inside me. Our faces were just inches apart and I just stared into her eyes until I climaxed again. When I did she stuck her finger up my ass. It was weird and good at the same time, and she kissed me so passionately for so long and then just started fingering my ass really hard.

I don't know why my mom is into asses so much, but I let her do it and she seemed to enjoy it more than I did. Though I have to admit it was sexy as hell, just really different. We showered afterwards and I licked her ass as usual and later in bed I fucked her ass with a strap-on. She had me start with her pussy, but then she wanted it up her ass so I did it. She kept talking about how she wanted to do Denise and I at the same time like she's seen in a porno. I was actually confused what she meant at first, but basically Denise and I would have double dildos up our pussies and she'd take it up both holes at the same time and fuck us both. Hell I was game, but that would be at least two weeks away at best.

The next day my mom and I went shopping together. She bought bras and I bought this cute sun dress and flip flops and a new bikini. When I was trying on the bikini my mom went into the changing room with me and we goofed around in the changing room together. It was one of those rooms that had a full door and a big mirror inside and we locked the door and she started nibbling on my nipples when I undressed. I ended up leaning against the mirror and she licked my pussy from behind. It was weird looking at my self as she licked me, but I liked watching myself touch my own breasts and I could see her knelt down between my legs and just licking me like crazy. Even so I ended up sitting on the bench and she put her head between my legs and finished me off.

I came so hard and then just licked all my cum off her face, kissing her wildly. She started fingering me, but I decided we better stop before some one caught us, though I did lick her hand clean. Later in the back of the store I put my hand down the front of my mom's shorts and fingered her. Then I rubbed her clit for just a bit. It was crazy, cause there was another customer looking at something not ten feet from us, but there were so many things between us she couldn't have seen anything.

Ay lunch we both talked about how exciting it was to do things in public and I told her I wished I could craw under the table and eat her out right there. Of course there was no table cloth so that would have been a little too obvious, but it turned us both on anyway. The whole rest of the day we kept caressing each other when people weren't looking and I even went up her shirt a few times and got a big hand full.

In the parking lot I got her off in the car with my fingers on her clit. The second we got in the door at home she was taking my clothes off, but I told her I had to start getting ready for the Party. She didn't take no for an answer and we ended up making love on the front room couch. This time we just rubbed our pussies together and kissed a lot.

I put on the new dress for the party with my matching flip flops and some sexy panties (I have these white ones with pink trim and a cute, tiny bow on the back. It's real tiny and this heart print right in front of my pussy. They're so cute). My boobs looked huge in this little dress and I knew I'd have people looking at me tonight, but I only wanted one person to notice, would she though.

I drove over there with two of my friends. One was a cheerleader with me and the other I ran track with. They are both smoking hot and were also dressed to kill. Everyone sat around at first talking and catching up. It was mostly remember when stories and I didn't even see Jessica until I had been there for over ten minutes. She came into the room I was in and she saw me right away. She looked really good. She wasn't wearing anything special, just some shorts and a t-shirt, but she is just the prettiest girl. I could just look at her face all night. OMG she is so gorgeous. Her skin was so tan and her hair looked so smooth and shinny, and I just wanted to run over to her right away, but I didn't. In fact other than a smile in her direction I didn't do anything.

She didn't approach me either, and although she hung out in the room for a good while soon she disappeared again. The party was fun and we played games and messed around. I'm lucky I have so many friends that don't have to drink to have a good time.

As the night rolled along, I noticed that Jessica's brother was seriously hitting on me and so did a few other guys, but no one as obvious as him. I tried to give him the friend only vibe and even told him he was such a good friend and stuff, but he just couldn't get a clue. Then out of no where Jessica came to my rescue and pulled me and one of my friends off to look at something. I was thrilled for more reasons than one and it wasn't until my friend went to go get something to eat that Jessica said, "Sorry for my brother, he has always been in love with you." I thanked her for coming to my rescue and we stood their and talked for the longest time. He ended up coming back over to me and I managed to get around enough of my friends that he didn't make a complete ass of himself, but it was close.

Luckily Jessica stayed around and soon I was able to get her talking again. I all but forgot everyone else for a while and we both joked and laughed and it was like nothing had ever happened. I was on cloud nine.

She even asked me if I had ever kissed any of the girls here. I was shocked and of course told her, no, but then laughed and said, "Well, I kissed you." She just rolled her eyes and we laughed again.

The next day, I called her. I was scared to death for some reason even though we had both seemed to be fine the night before. She seemed to want to talk on the phone too and we chatted for a good hour before I asked if she would still want to be friends. She said yes, and then I asked her if she wanted to go shopping with me. She said YES!

We went Tuesday night and it was like our first time we shopped together, except we already knew one another really well, so it was even less awkward. I had so much fun and I made sure to not give her any sign of how I felt about her. I think she was giving me the "I just want to be friends sign." I'm pretty sure I picked up on that which was what her brother was incapable of doing. I thought that was ironic.

When I drove her home we talked in the car for a bit and then she brought up the kiss. I apologized again, and told her that I really enjoyed her as a friend and was glad we could still be friends. She seemed to like that. Then out of no where she asked me who I'm rooming with next year at college. I told her I was going to room with Denise, but I didn't talk about our relationship. She told me she wasn't sure who her roommate would be, but that she asked to stay in my dorm. I was obviously happy, but I tried not to act too happy. Then our conversation stalled so she got out and said goodbye.

I drove straight home and masturbated. In fact I was touching myself in the car on the way home. I am such a loser. My mom wasn't home so I strapped a dildo to my bed post and fucked my self senseless. I slammed my pussy against my bed until I was just too tired and then I just lay on the bed and rubbed my clit until I climaxed. I rubbed my cum over my nipples and then licked them off pretending they were Jessica's. I love touching myself and sucking my breasts. Sometimes my fantasies are so good that being alone is almost as good as being with a girl. Holy shit, I wish I could lick my own pussy. I would so do that all the time.

I fell asleep after that. When I woke up my mom was rubbing my breasts and she was holding the strap-on that I had forgotten to take off the bed. We kissed for a while and then I ended up fucking her. She was on her back and I kissed her most of the time we did it with our breasts pressed together. Then I ate her pussy until she orgasmed. We slept together that night and I didn't even take off the dildo until I woke up again hours later. I was so tired.

Nothing much exciting happened on Wednesday or Thursday, but then on Friday my mom and I made love again. We had some things to do that morning before I drove to Denise's house, and my mom took me out to lunch. Before we left we both went into the bathroom and since it was empty my mom grabbed my breasts from behind as I was looking in the mirror. I turned my head back and she kissed me leaning over my shoulder still rubbing my breasts. It was so hot, but I was also scared that someone might walk in on us so we didn't kiss long. Then in the parking lot, in the car, she took my hand and pulled it to her pussy. I rubbed it over her shorts, but then put my hand down the front of them and rubbed her soaked pussy. I made her cum in the parking lot, and then she drove us home and she returned the favor.

We are so stupid sometimes and I hope we never get caught, but it is very exciting to have sex in public. If she wasn't my mom I think I'd even be more daring. It doesn't scare me to get caught with a women as much as it does that it is my mother.

Denise's house was fun again. Her family is so close. We all sat and talked and then made dinner together. Even her dad helped this time. After dinner we sat around the table talking forever and I loved it. Denise has a great family. Of course she hasn't opened up to them yet and she's afraid to, but who knows how they'd react. Then Denise and Lyndsey showed me a bunch of stuff they had as kids and told all sorts of stories and I could tell that the two of them are very close. Makes me wish I had had a sister.

Later that night Lyndsey told me that she was happy Denise had found me at college because she had seemed sort of sad when she went off to school, and that made Lyndsey feel more confident about going. I told her that she would love it there and she told me she was getting more excited every time the two of us talked about it.

A thought crossed my mind that she should room with Jessica, but then I thought better of it. What if Jessica would some how slip and tell Lyndsey that I tried to kiss her and that I'm a lesbian. Then I just thought about Jessica telling anyone. I was getting freaked out so I put it out of my mind as best as I could, but then later in the night when Denise and I were alone I talked to her about when we should come out down out school.

She wondered why we should. I pointed out that it might be easier and how most kids were pretty cool about it that I've let know. She said she couldn't take the chance of Lyndsey finding out and telling her parents. Then I got frustrated and she noticed, but we didn't argue about it. Then I suggested that maybe she should just tell Lyndsey and get it over with and ask her not to tell her parents. She thought about it, but just said she didn't know and she'd think about it.

Then Denise and I talked about my mom for a long time and what Denise was looking for in that relationship, our three-way relationship. She at first said she wasn't sure, but then later told me she really thought she loved my mom, but wasn't sure she really knew what love was yet. She knew she loved me more, she said, but she felt so happy when she was with my mom. I told her that my mom and I had made love several times the last two weeks, and she seemed to get so turned on by it. She wanted details and she ended up putting her hand down her PJ's and touching herself while I told the stories. I loved watching her face as she climaxed, and we kissed afterwards, but not very long because the door wasn't even locked.

I told her I wished we could go to the woods again and make love and she told me I was crazy, but that she wished we could too. I told her I wished we were married and that everyone knew about us and that we lived together and could make love when ever we wanted, and she just reminded me that we'd be living together next year at school. Then she kissed me and grabbed my boob. I started to put my hand up her shirt and she sat up quick and said, "Better not."

I ended up just going back to my bed (pull-out sofa) and falling asleep. The rest of the weekend sucked because I had Mother Nature come early and so we never had any chance to go to the woods or whatever. Still I had a great time at her house and when I left I told her to think about telling Lyndsey.

Oh almost forgot, I asked her if she had ever done anything with Lyndsey and she told me that she taught Lyndsey how to kiss. When I told her how horny it made me, she said, "Don't get any ideas." She was laughing, but I could tell she was kind of serious too. I saw Lyndsey in a bra and HOLY SHIT. She is bigger than Denise. I would love to play with her breasts and feel her hard nipples against my face. It will never happen, but I love to fantasize about it.

I talked to Jessica on the phone Sunday night. It was fun and I know my mom is going to be gone on Monday so I invited her over to go swimming. She said YES. I'm looking very forward to it.