I had a revealing dream that I've come to realize would be my ideal life. It was so vivid, I woke up confused, but so happy and fulfilled. Sometimes the subconscious just knows what you want before you do, I guess.
In my dream I was as I am now. I'm 20 years old, a 5'5" brunette, perfectly average build. I was so nervous, because it was my wedding day. I paced back and forth thinking. Wasn't I young to be getting married? What did my parents REALLY think of the marriage? It was fairly sudden, after all. My mom entered the room, my spitting image. She grabbed both my hands, holding them tight, and gave me a small smile. I could tell she wasn't thrilled, but she had accepted my choices. She led me in my fluffy white dress to a set of large wooden doors, and I heard the music drifting through. The doors opened and I took a deep breath and looked to the alter at my future husband.
He was 22, 6'0", with red hair and light stubble. Strong, muscular, and beautiful. He's my brother. In the moment our eyes met across the aisle I saw the same swirl of emotions that I felt in him. Fear at the huge commitment we were about to make. Guilt at the taboo nature of it. But most importantly, love and excitement. As I met him at the alter he flashed me his gorgeous crooked grin, the one I've watched girls fall for my whole life, and my stomach flipped. That smile was mine now, for the rest of my life!
The ceremony was quick, the vows were said. I grinned against his lips as with a kiss my married life began. I felt so much love and excitement in that moment, I was overcome with it. We were no longer just Family, we were Husband and Wife! We had committed our lives to each other, we belonged to each other now.
The reception was lovely, and I was finally able to kiss the man I loved whenever I wanted. However, I was far too impatient for the night to end. Finally it was time to go and we bid everyone goodnight. We entered the elevator and an awkward nervousness was tangible in the air. I looked up at my brother, no, husband, and as we looked at each other we burst into giggles. We were so overwhelmed but god we were so content.