My little cousin Jennifer has always been special to me. Growing up, I was closer to her older brother John given we shared the same interests, drinking in particular. Jenn is 7 years younger than me, which was quite a large age gap when we were younger. Time went by and I was finishing up my final year in college when I began to notice her social media pictures. It turns out my little Jennifer grew up into a selfie loving princess, displaying her cute, facial features with every picture she uploaded. Her long, thick lashes, and her flawless eyebrows made her big brown eyes even more attractive. Before long, I was wanking to almost every new picture she uploaded.
I knew if we were to ever hook up it wouldn't happen for years, so I had to slowly bide my time and put in the work. We're cousins after all, if I wanted her I'd have to be more patient than ever. I'd have to show her that I love and respect her; that despite being related I want to share a sensual experience with her more than anyone else.
Luckily she was a bit of a flirt, and we would occasionally cross the line and go beyond the boundaries that cousins usually share. During the summer before she first attended college, I managed to pry out of her that she thinks giving head is gross and that she would never do it given how disrespectful it is to a woman. I assured her she would when she was older, and to my dismay I ended up being correct. She began dating a guy after only a few months into her first semester in college. I was heartbroken, for years I fantasized about being her first blowjob. I wanted my cock to be the first one she would ever wrap her lips around. But it turns out I waited too long to make my move. I didn't have the courage to take it from flirting to the next stage, and sure enough after she started dating him we stopped keeping in touch.
Fast forward a year later and she is still in a loving relationship with her boyfriend. I saw her last week for the first time in years, and wanted to share how I wish the night really ended.
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I crack open a bottle of rum in the parking lot, having just arrived with my friends at a community fundraiser. A lot of my family was in attendance, so drinking prior to the event was a must so I can loosen myself for what I assumed to be a dull night ahead.
After having a couple cigarettes and knocking back half the bottle amongst my buddies, we walk inside the banquet hall, in attempts to find some girls to talk to. It was trickier for me given most people in attendance were related to me, as I had no intention in hooking up with a family member at that time.
From my peripherals I see someone approach me, when I hear a familiar voice.
"Long time no see bro, how you doing man?"
John, one of my coolest cousins who I haven't seen in years showed up to the fundraiser, and we reminisced for a few minutes as we went to the bar and had some shots. As we walk back to his table my body freezes as I seen Jenn for the first time in years. I always pictured her as a little child, but here she was sitting next to her mom, looking like a grown, beautiful woman. She smiles at me and stares at me with her big brown eyes that I adore ever so much.
"Nice to see you again Brandon, it's been a while" She said.
I've zoned out momentarily, staring at Jenn when I snap out back into reality after a few seconds. "Uhh...yea I know right you too." I think to myself how stupid I must sound as I give you a blank expression not knowing what else to say. I join your family at your table, upping my normal alcohol intake as I feel the need to mask how clearly nervous I am around you. My phone buzzes as my eyes light up when I see it's from you. I give you a quick glance at the table, and my eyes immediately dart back to my phone as I open your text.
"Why are you ignoring me? You haven't looked at me since you sat down."
I bite my lip, knowing I should stop acting like an idiot.
"You're the one ignoring me ever since you got a boyfriend."
I put my phone down on the table, as I pretend to focus on the guy making a speech at the podium, when in reality I'm anxiously waiting to hear my phone vibrate. I suddenly feel a gentle pinch on my arm, as I look up from my seat to see you heading outside towards the bathroom. I look at John, who is distracted by his phone and decide to take that as my queue to get up and follow you. I walk outside, and see you leaning against the exterior of the building.
Jenn stares at me for a minute without saying a word. Then after what seemed like eternity she blurted out:
"Is that what you think, that I've been ignoring you since I started dating him? How could you even think that, you know how much I've missed you, how anxious I was to see you tonight?"
My mind is racing, unable to comprehend everything she said so I take a moment to digest everything.
"Jenn...I...I missed you too, I guess I just felt like you found someone better and didn't need me anymore. I was so depressed when I saw your facebook relationship status change."
I look back at you, as I see a look of confusion staring back at me.
Jenn whispers "We're related...you do know that right?"
Nodding my head as I look back down at my shoes, unable to look you in the eye as I go on.
"I was really jealous of him, I really wanted to be your first..Well you know, the thing I've always wanted from you."
I slowly look up, as you cross your arms in small protest as if to defend yourself from the words I've saying.
"I don't know what to say, you're my cousin...I mean if you weren't then maybe - I mean don't get me wrong I still love my boyfriend but I guess I've always had a thing for you. But that doesn't mean I'm going to...well, give you head."
I let out a gentle moan as I hear you utter that word - head. My little cousin Jennifer, talking to me about giving head. Sure she might have phrased it in a negative way saying she doesn't want to give me head, but hearing her say the word was a turn on nonetheless.
"I suppose I've just really wanted it from you, we were so close back then so I felt it would be really sensual between us. And you really do have the perfect face for it, you really do have the cutest, big brown eyes Jenn"
