A few days had passed since I slept with my sister. It still felt surreal - like I was just going to wake up any moment and it would just be some crazy dream I had. We hadn't actually done anything since, partly because I had no idea how to approach the situation and partly because there was still an air of awkwardness between us. When we were doing it, it was a heat of the moment thing, and I don't think either of us were thinking about what came afterwards. In fact, it actually felt like we'd drifted further apart since then. We definitely weren't as chatty with each other, and she actively seemed to be avoiding me. Laying down on my bed, I let out a sigh of frustration.
'What do I do?'
I must have asked myself that question hundreds of times within the last few days.
'Do I tell her that I want it to continue? Do I tell her we can't do it again?'
Deep down in my heart, I was sure that I wanted our relationship to continue, but my head told me otherwise. It told me I was messed up for wanting it, but I loved her. It wasn't like I could just stop, especially after what we did. I even came inside her... that was a risk I'm not willing to take again. I still felt pangs of guilt for what happened. Sighing, I got up and headed downstairs for a drink. I needed something to take my mind off it, to clear my head. On the way down, however, I saw her standing there at the foot of the staircase.
'Mel...'
That was the only word I could muster before I darted back to my room, shutting the door behind me, just wishing my problems would all magically go away. A few seconds later, I heard a knock on my door.
'Look, we need to talk, okay?'
Hearing those words felt like my heart turned to iron. That was never a good sign to start a conversation with. After she entered my room uninvited, she perched herself on my bed. We didn't even say anything for a few minutes. We didn't know what to say. After a while, though, Melanie finally said something.
'Look, about what we did the other day... I... I really don't think this should continue,' she told me. I had already expected as much, but even so, hearing those words still destroyed me inside. On one hand, I was happy that she'd broken off our sexual relationship. On the other, it crushed me. I loved her and I know it's what I wanted. It wasn't fair. Why did we have to be born as siblings? Why couldn't we be neighbours, or classmates, hell, even workmates would have been fine with me. Just why... why did we have to be related? I blanked out the rest of what she said. Cursing my fate, I just shut everything out, trying to cope with it, and after a few minutes Melanie got the message and left me to myself. Reeling from the sadness, I couldn't help but cry. I must have cried for hours. That night was one of the worst nights of my life. I could barely sleep, I was depressed, and the downpour through the night didn't help any. I found myself listening to music, or watching a video, or even just restlessly wandering around the house. I just wanted something to distract myself from it all.
The next morning, I grabbed my coat and headed out early. The last thing I wanted was another awkward encounter with my sister. I grabbed my wallet and decided to go look around the town for a while. There was a game that I'd been searching for, so maybe I'd go see if I could pick that up somewhere. The morning was bitterly cold; a rarity considering it was the middle of July. My eyes followed the glistening pavement as I walked for what seemed like forever, before I finally reached the town centre. It was surprisingly busy considering the weather and the fact that it was still only around 11am at best. I decided to grab a bite to eat, so I dropped into one of my favourite cafes and got a burger to go before heading back out. When I looked up, however, I almost dropped my food from shock. She was the last person I expected to see here, and most certainly the last person I wanted to see.
'Tia...?'
'Hi, Blake.'
That cold tone of voice told me she was just as happy as I was to see her.
'Didn't expect to see you here,' I continued, trying to get out of the conversation as quickly as I could.
'I miss you.'
Hearing her say those words made my blood boil.
'You miss me? You miss me? Well, I missed you too. I missed you so much in fact, that I've been dying to tell you something and I just couldn't wait. Go. Fuck. Yourself.'
'That's not fair, Blake.'
'Not fair? I'll give you not fair. How's cheating on me with two teachers and getting them thrown in prison for statutory tape of a minor? How's that for not fucking fair?'