When am I ever going to learn? Maybe I should stop drinking, though actually I don't drink very much. Or maybe I should just give-up sex, but I really love that sparkling feeling. Even though up until now, I have been mostly pleasuring myself, viewing porn on the computer and fingering my insatiable clitoris. Maybe it was my religious training that started me down this perverted path. I guess if I could do it all over, I might have gone on more dates, tried a few more things, loosened-up a bit and had a few more experiences. Instead, I've become a repressed, submissive, middle-aged woman slowly slipping into a taboo pattern of debauchery and incest. And against everything I was raised to believe-in, my inner-most fantasies are revealed in my lustful enthusiasm for being a sexual slave to my son.
I was married as a teenager to a selfish SOB that I met at a religious meeting. He was much older than me and knew all the "right" things to seduce and manipulate me. After less than two years, he claimed I was a frigid bitch and left me with a baby and some deep emotional scars. It took years to put my life in order and be able to raise a nice young man. My son Jeff is now twenty-three, he was a collegiate wrestler and now works as a free-lance artist, illustrating a line of graphic comics.
My life has been fairly ordinary. Friends say I'm pretty and I try to keep in shape. I'm 5'5", slim and small-waisted. My hair is a muddy-blonde shade, I have long toned legs and a firm pert chest. I jog regularly and play tennis twice a week with some of the neighborhood ladies, and though they have attempted to "fix me up" on dates, I still prefer to be a stay-at-home mom, and lead a fairly sheltered life, until recently.
The first nutty incident happened about five years ago. It seemed at the time a silly, harmless, little taboo slip-up that could be easily excused as a family joke that went a bit too far. It was New Year's Eve and Jeff, acting as a dutiful son, stayed home with his lonely mom to help welcome-in the year. We watched the ball drop on television, exchanged a chaste kiss and opened a bottle of cheap champagne. At about twelve-thirty, things got a little dull.
Being an athlete and under twenty-one, Jeff wasn't used to drinking. My name is Jaime, and as I've said, I don't drink much either. But since it was a holiday; he opened a second bottle while I slipped into my pajamas, he changed into sweatpants and we lounged on the sofa, giggling. He was doing his best to raise my spirits and I was remarking that he was a wonderful son for giving-up a night of revelry with his friends to keep his mother company. A mother always thinks her son is wonderful. On this night I was playfully squeezing his thick biceps and running my fingers over his muscular thighs as I boozily dribbled champagne over the both of us. He would laughingly tug at my long, blonde locks, and tickle my ribs as "punishment" for spilling my drinks.
Somehow, at a certain point, we started a silly game of "Truth or Dare." I asked him crazy questions like: How does such a handsome blue-eyed kid like wrestling on a gym mat with sweaty guys, then showering together in a roomful of hot, naked men? I mentioned that with all that body contact and nudity in close quarters, he must have seen or experienced a few hard cocks.
On his turns, he asked if I wasn't really asking for myself, and my deep wish to be taken sexually. Then he asked if my nipples always get hard when I talk about sex, and at the same moment, we both looked at the obvious protrusions poking through my flimsy top. More nervous laughter and long, silent stretches followed.
It was an alcohol-fueled game and I hoped he was nearly as embarrassed as I felt. And though I recognized that it was becoming a touch inappropriate, I enjoyed the bonding experience, and besides it was just harmless banter between mother and son. After one or two more rounds, my slightly inebriated son asked "a big one." Mom, since I can practically see your boobs already, will you take your shirt off?" This was a big "dare." I gulped my wine and hesitated a moment. He had that big grin on his chiseled, sexy face. I was just about to refuse when he said, "I knew you couldn't do it." He just laughed bawdily and took another sip.
Blame it on the champagne, I said, "I can't take it off, but I'll show you." Now, I wasn't wearing a bra and I don't have big tits, (I'm a 34B) but they're firm, they're cute and they're mine. And the nipples were getting pointy and tender from rubbing on the thin material. I curled both hands under the hem of my pajama top and quickly lifted and lowered my shirt. It felt so weird and strangely salacious to "flash" my son. I have seen pictures of women at Mardi Gras doing it for beads, and it always seemed playful and a cheap thrill. A little feeling of independence.
But there was something else; an odd, submissive twinge of wanting to obey sexual orders that left me feeling naughty. It was wanting to do what I was told, by a young, strong man...and a kinky thought that it was my son. Jeff's eyes popped out of his head- I think more because I did it, than actually glimpsing my breasts. "Hey wait," he protested, "I never even saw them. You have to do it again, slower." The taboo tremor I got from exposing myself to my son, excited me in an erotic, sensual way. And for a second I wondered if he had been correct about my sexual submissiveness. And then I instantly noticed the enormous bulge swelling in his uncomfortably tight trousers. I think any woman likes to be the object of sexual desire, and there was definitely a wicked sensation about flirting with my grown son. So I decided to give him another small show, but with a little teasing twist. I began to fiddle with the buttons on my shirt, and slowly reveal my cleavage and firm belly to his hungry eyes, I kept my small, pink, nipples tantalizingly hidden in the folds of my top. With each step of the process, my body felt warmer and a sweaty glow formed on my torso and face. I was flush with excitement and pent-up passion when my trembling fingers finally loosened the final button. I don't know which of us was hotter when the cotton material finally slid down my arms and my perky breasts were fully revealed. I shimmied a little to give my boobs a small shake. And I could not contain my smile.