I don't think I've slept that well in several years. With my beautiful Bella in my arms, I felt at peace - at first anyway. I had made a decision the previous night - a decision that could never be undone. I had chosen to engage in a sexual act with my daughter. I hadn't planned it, but when the time came, I ultimately helped it happen - and I made no attempt to stop it.
What kind of a man would do such a thing? She was only a few days away from 19. Am I a monster? Am I going to hell now? What's going through Bella's head right now? Have I destroyed my relationship with her?
These thoughts swam around my head - but they weren't alone.
I love Bella. She loves me. Last night was truly beautiful. I've never felt so happy before in my entire life. Will it happen again? Can we go further?
As I wrestled with both sides of my brain, I had one single crystal thought. No matter what, I must not cause Bella any unhappiness. My love for Bella was unending, and I would never, ever want to hurt her - even if I have to endure that hurt to spare her.
I continued to hold her, and just enjoyed the feeling of this beloved goddess in my arms. Finally, I noticed she started to stir.
"Morning angel," I said, quietly.
"Morning Daddy! I slept so well last night!" She said, rolling over to face me.
"Me too angel. It felt so lovely holding you all night," I said, running my hand along her back.
"I really liked that Daddy, I felt so safe, and so loved. That was so nice."
I immediately felt at ease. Bella shuffled over and lay her head on my chest.
I took a deep breath before saying, "Bella, I think we should talk about last night."
"Yeah - I wasn't really expecting that - that was kind of crazy wasn't it? But it was also kind of amazing," she said, with a beaming smile.
"It was indeed. I haven't felt that good in so long. I just feel so... conflicted. I'm your father, we can't be doing stuff like that... can we?", I said reluctantly.
The instant I said the words I wanted to take them back. I didn't want to stop what we had started.
"I know, it's not... natural - but it was special wasn't it? I've never felt anything like that before." She said, running her fingers over my chest.
"Me either. I've always known just how beautiful you are - it was an unbelievable joy to actually be that intimate with you."
"Maybe we should give it some time you know? I don't wanna make any rash decisions," she said.
There's my girl. Always smart and rational - well - almost always.
We went to breakfast and continued our discussion.
"You came so much last night!" she said, in a hushed tone. We'd chosen a secluded booth - but still.
"Honestly, I can't remember feeling anything that good. Your body is literally sensational." I said, my eyes scanning her beautiful form.
"You're too kind! It felt so good for me. I loved rubbing my thigh against your cock. I could tell that you really liked it."
Eventually, we moved onto the harder questions.
"So, what does this mean for us?" she asked.
"I still don't know angel - but let me tell you what I do know. I know that I love you. Wholly, and completely. I know that no matter what, I will always be your father, and I will always do everything I can to keep you happy. I would never do anything to hurt you. I also know, that last night, my beautiful, wonderful daughter and I engaged in a sexual act - and that's something that society has deemed wrong, and irredeemable. And lastly - I know that I loved every single minute of it."
She hesitated a moment, before speaking.
"Ok - my turn. I know that I love you. Completely, and wholly. I know, that no matter what, I will always be your little girl, and I will do everything I can to keep you happy. I would never do anything to hurt you. I also know, that last night, my strong, amazing father and I engaged in a sexual act - and that's something that society has deemed wrong and irredeemable. And lastly - I loved every single minute of it."
If I smiled any wider I'd have sprained my cheeks.
"Daddy - you make me so happy. Why don't we just take it easy, and see where this goes?" she said, reaching across the table to hold my hand.
"Do you mean, keep doing what we did last night?" I said, hopefully.
"Well yeah, for a start," she said, with a playful smile.
"No-one here knows who we are. It's just you, and me out here. Why don't we just do whatever we want to do out here, and then when we get back home - we'll talk? Let's just really enjoy ourselves."
"I am 100% on board with that idea." I said, eager to explore our new relationship paradigm.
We finished our breakfast, and went for a walk on the beach hand in hand. We decided that since no-one knew who we were, we could just be open about our new relationship. If anyone asked, I was just a guy with a young girlfriend. They could think whatever they want. I was in paradise - and not just because we were in the Caribbean.
After our walk, we went back to the loungers. Once again Bella donned an amazing bikini. This time it was a matching red set with a zip up top. She looked so good I could have cried.
"Good god Bella, you look unbelievable!" I said, loving the fact that I could compliment her so openly.
"Thanks honey!" she said, giving me a twirl.
"Honey?" I said, slightly bemused.
"Well, I can't call you Daddy out here can I?" She said, leaning in close.
"But when it's just you and me, I'm gonna keep you calling you Daddy."
"I wouldn't have it any other way," I said.
"Hey, put some sun screen on me would ya?" Bella asked.
"Don't have to ask me twice." I said, eagerly.
I put some sun screen on my hands and gently started rubbing it into her back. She leaned into me as I did so.
"That feels so nice, I want your hands all over me."
"Oh darling, your body is fucking fantastic, I want to touch you all over."