I was 18 years old when I started increasing getting aware of my sexual needs. I started jerking off whenever I had the opportunity to do so.
My sister would come over for a few weeks during her college summer vacations. Both of us were very close since I can remember. One of our favorite Games was she would lift me up on her knees/legs while lying on her back & swing me up & down with my chest on her knees/legs. She would chat & sing songs while doing that. We really used to have fun while doing that.
But, this time when she came over for the vacations it was not the same as before. I started to view my 22-year old sister in a whole new way. Now I was simply too old for this game. But sometimes she would swing me just for old times sake. I guess she had not realized that I was no longer the small kid brother she knew I was before. I would be embarrassed when she would play this game while wearing a t-shirt & short skirt. But I was also secretly filled with a voyeuristic lust as I had direct view of her breasts when she would swing me. I could sometimes see her wearing no bra. I could see her nipples. She had medium sized breasts. I didn't know much about breast size, numbers like 36c,b or whatever at that time, but I just loved seeing her nipples peeking through her t-shirt. I would lust after those taut breasts of her with a sense of guilt. I would try to deliberately fall on her chest in order to feel her breasts against my chest. Also, I would sometimes touch her legs while she was swinging me.