My son Andy had just turned 18 and was about to leave for London for his higher studies. He had packed all his stuff. Me and my husband Greg, were with him at the airport to see him off. I was almost in tears when I kissed him goodbye. After all, he was to be away from us for 4years.
The day after he had left, I was cleaning his room when I came across a diary, hidden deep in the cupboard. It was in Andy's handwriting.
What he had noted down with great detail took me by complete surprise. This is what the diary contained.
May 16
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For the first time in my life, I looked at my mom not as my mom but as an attractive woman. I just couldn't take my eyes off here cleavage. Oh God! What's happening to me!
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May 18
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Oh God, I saw mom in a bikini in the swimming pool. I tried hard to look the other way but could not. I could feel a strange sensation in my shorts. I am wondering if this is normal. I felt like touching my cock and playing with it. The urge to do so was getting irresistible. I am wondering if I'll be able to control myself for long.
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May 19
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Last night as I could not sleep as I moved from side to side. The image of my mom in bikini kept disturbing me. I could feel an unusual hardness in my cock. My cock was so hard; it was really getting sticky. Oh God, how can images of my own mom do this to me. Somehow I was able to sleep. An hour later, I saw mom in my dreams wearing the same bikini. A couple of minutes later, I felt my cock burst. I had never felt my penis explode like the way it did. My underwear was all wet and dirty.
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I was enjoying what I was reading. It was no great literature. It was written in such simple style. But I was stuck by the truthful account of his dilemma.
I said, "How stupid and innocent? Oh Andy, you should have relieved yourself by masturbating, the way most teenaged boys do. There is no need to be guilty dear.....yes honey.....you can masturbate to momma.....you'd love masturbating to momma." If only I could've told him that.
May 20
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I was so embarrassed all day. My mind was filled with guilt because of my beautiful mom.
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May 21
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Mom wore a sexy sleeveless top showing a lot of cleavage and her armpits. I was erect in no time. I went jogging. The running caused my erection to subside.