Two trips up and down the hill and nothing was said between them. Tabitha seemed stronger to Tim. She led the first two trips and sometimes put some distance between them. Tim shrugged off his lack of energy and plowed forward catching up with Tab to fill the buckets a third time after their 'break.'
"Hey Tab..."
"Wait, let me go first. Tabitha interrupted. "I know what you meant, and I like that. I just got down hearing you call what happened a
chore
." I was so up, it felt like Spring was inside of me, like a new life was beginning, it was like being in the clouds. And then you talked and reduced that wonderful moment to a work item on a list. It took me out of my dream and I don't know if it can come back. I've never felt like this before, I've never felt like I did earlier, and now I'm confused and scared I've lost it." Tabitha confessed her feelings she didn't fully grasp with more than one tear making its way down her soft cheek.
Tim knew he had messed up with what he said, but hearing her express her emotions and that he not only took away the awesome feeling from earlier, but that he also made her afraid, his heart sank.
"I'm sorry Tab. I just wanted you to know how much I loved being so close to you and that I want to do that every day. It wasn't just fun, it wasn't a game or a contest, it certainly was not work and I don't know how to describe it, but please understand that I don't think of it as a chore." Tim expressed with his heart exposed. "I have never felt closer to you. It's like I see you differently. I want to be near you even though we have spent our whole lives together, but it's more than that. I want to hold you, I want to kiss you, I want to dance with you. You are beautiful, you're strong and yet soft to touch. I like to touch you, to feel you, hold you and be inside of you. My head spins thinking about it."
Tim had hated the dance lessons Toby made them learn.
Tabitha's glow began coming back. She soaked in his words. They sounded like the fairy tale stories she loved so much, but directed at her. The earlier disappointment washed away as she drank in Tim's confession and compliments. Hearing that he wanted to dance with her made her giggle inside. She knew he hated to dance, so hearing that he wanted to added sparks to the fire coursing inside her chest.
Tabitha walked over to Tim, put her hands on his shoulders and looked into his wet eyes. He stood his ground and stared into her pools of green. Tabitha blinked out another tear and their mouths met.
Their lips touched and softened as they slowly opened their mouths, pressing their bodies together. Tabitha's tongue found its way into Tim's mouth as Tim was trying to figure out what to do with his. Their tongues met and the intensity of their closeness heightened.
Tabitha, feeling a warm wetness between her legs broke away from the kiss. A silky thin string of saliva connected them for a second, glistening in the afternoon sun before vanishing. Tim felt his hardness pushing against his trousers.
"Let's try again tonight." Tabitha whispered into his face. Tim could only nod.
As they carried their buckets up the hill again, Tabitha imagined the evening... 'A fairy tale setting, a castle, a roaring fireplace, big furry bear skins on the giant bed and Tim carrying her into the warm chamber. He removes her flowing gown string by string, kissing her shoulders and chest, then gently lays her naked vulnerable body down on the furs. She watches in anticipation as Tim removes his stately attire revealing a lean powerful body. He crawls toward her from the foot of the bed moving between her legs and as his face reaches her flower mound...'
"Tab! Dump your water." Tim huffed as kindly as a tired boy could, waiting behind her to empty his buckets in the barrel, shattering her daydream.
That was the last trip and it was time to get dinner ready. Tabitha headed to the house and Tim walked over the goat pen and noticed the water trough was empty.
"Tab, the trough is empty!" The goats bayed at him angrily as Tabitha was about to go inside.
"Where's Toby? Tabitha replied over her shoulder.
They certainly would have noticed a small herd of goats coming down to water while they made their trips, and the barrels are as full as they filled them. So did the goats not get attended? That made no sense. It was a standard chore.
Tabitha entered the house to see Toby lying in bed with both feet on the floor, still wearing his boots. This was not normal and worry swept over her. She hurried to the bed.
"Toby? Are you fine?" She inquired in trepidation.
"Oh Tabby, I must have dozed off." Toby wheezed as he tried to sit up.
"What's wrong?" Tabitha politely demanded.
"Nothin' to worry yourself over. Just got tired on the plow. Probably could use some dinner." Toby managed to say with more coherence and less wheezing. He didn't want to frighten them, but he was not fine.
The pain in his chest which he attributed to heart break only seemed to get worse over time. The more chores he did the worse it would feel. Now he had a constant rasp in his breathing, he got tired so easily and couldn't force himself to overcome it. Toby convinced himself to keep going. What else could he do, he thought. Tim and Tabby had so much more to learn and there were so many chores that needed doing, and Spring was here. His thoughts drifted away and he nearly fell asleep sitting up.
"Toby? Toby??"
"I'm here sweet flower." Toby said softly, using the nickname Tilda had given Tabitha.
Tilda loved flowers. Everything was flowers to her. He loved that about her. He missed her so much even after all the time that had passed.
"I'll have dinner ready in a bit. Just rest a little longer." Tabitha said working the kitchen area like an expert while another powerful set of emotions rocked her inside. She had once thought of being alone and it terrified her, so she never imagined it again. Fear gripped her when only a few hours ago she was bursting with passion. She was being tossed in a wild river and had nothing to cling to. She cried as she added wood to the stove.
Tim shouted toward the doorway. "I'm taking the herd to water! I am not going to make any more bucket trips tomorrow, and Terrace One isn't finished! Did you find Toby? He tapered off as he poked his head in the door, seeing him in the background.