Hey everyone. I got plenty of requests for a continuation of this story, so here's chapter two. Any thoughts and comments are appreciated.
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"You thought I was coming with you?"
Yes. Yes, I did.
"But you know Mark has a big game tomorrow. I made that very clear."
His voice is cold. Just like ice that hasn't fully formed yet, but already makes you slip. His eyes are like starless night skies. I look forward, facing the long tall mirror next to my dark oak nightstand, and cold sweat runs down my back as I understand the fool I've made out of myself.
"And you think I'd let you go dressed like that?"
One after another, his remarks hit the spot. In a moment of determination, I've taken out a dress that goes back some years, black, that now is a bit tighter. But if felt right. My legs are still my best feature, long and smooth, perfect for black nylons and those four-inch spiked heels I was flirting with for a month.
"Dressed like a slut?"
Maybe it's the red lipstick that triggers him.
"Stop it. There's no need. I thought you would..." but I go silent, not having the energy of yet another fight. The door is open ajar, and I see his eyes shining brightly. Dark. Unlike mine or Steve's.
"No need? Is that what you told Antonio? It was all clear to me last week, Theresa. How could I have been this blind?"
Antonio. His name brings sin with it.
"What are you talking about?"
He doesn't turn his back to me, instead faces the wardrobe he just opened.
"When I had the injury. The moment my career was over, so did you find another one. Must have been, or else how do you justify Mark being a carbon copy of myself and that thing is a completely different breed?"
My chest hurts as he utters these senseless words. I look back at the door, but those sweet, fiery eyes are no longer there. Hopefully, he didn't hear a word.
"Don't you dare, Steve. Gilbert is your blood and bone. Same as Mark."
"But those brown eyes don't fool anyone, do they?"
He could have said that the thick member dangling between Gilbert's legs doesn't fool anyone either paternity-wise.
"You don't get it, do you? It was my dream, and the moment it was cut short, you cheat on me? Do you wanna tell me Gilbert is my blood?"
And, with the most truthful of the tears falling down my face, I tell him he is.
"For sure this didn't start last week, you must be thinking about that for god knows how long. The way you treat him so differently!"
"Mark is my reason to live! Not the other one. Gloomy, stinky, hairy! He should be out of this house already, making his own survival."
He closes the wardrobe, a string of spit falling from his lip. How did we get into this? Why do we hate ourselves so much? We were so happy, and then, that bloody accident, changed the world for us.
And Antonio changed the world for me.
"So you're not coming?" I ask again. "You said you would, you said you wanted to give us another chance."
And the sneer on his lips. Eyes of a moonless night. "You knew Mark has this game. You knew that. Are you sabotaging your own son? You know he needs me, Theresa."
I fight the tears back. For one week I've been dreaming of freedom, but all my attempts at flying were cut short. Gilbert looked different. The moment we got home, he changed. I tried to enter his bedroom but he told me that it wasn't fair on dad. Guilt. I've felt it too, I'm not made of stone.
To be fucked like a whore by your own son? But I'd trade my soul if needed just to be in his arms again. It was like he was avoiding me even, and that was the only reason I reached out to Steve.
"I'm not sabotaging anyone. What happened to us, Steve?"
"You know damn well. I never believed in all the whispers around uni, but maybe I should have."
And it is like having a wall of ice between us. The promise he made of coming to a dinner with my old friends, vanishes. It's like he's doing this on purpose again, another knife in the back, peeling layers of scars that should have been left alone. Antonio's name returns to his lips, and I just want to disappear.
Just like I did nineteen years ago.
It was three months after Steve's injury. Three long months of caring for him. I asked my mom to take Mark, and Steve was reluctant but he said I could go. Have fun, he said. Fuck me if I did.
Maybe that was the reason for me drinking a little too much. A few glasses of champagne, but the music was liberating. It was someone's birthday, and all my girlfriends were there, and we went out dancing. Antonio was there, we recognize each other from uni. He was always off limits, a friend of Steve. Until the moment he grabbed my hand, as we danced a slow song. I was tipsy, silly, and horny. No sex since Steve's accident, just anger, fury, and guilt. And with Antonio, there was nothing of that. Only his strong arms and chest, and a cock hard against my leg, and then the back of his car, with him deeper than anyone else in me.
"Take that lipstick off. If you dress like a slut, you're no better than them."
And before he leaves, holding the door in his hand, he still has something else to say, yet another knife to flesh my heart out. "Because I swear to you, Theresa, you leave this house tonight, that son of yours will be sleeping in the streets, like the dog he is."
His absence warms up the room, and I hide my face between my hands. The mirrored image is of someone who's been defeated.
"He's right, isn't he?" I say to myself, my breasts are suddenly not sexy anymore, they are just two big bags hanging lower, only supported by my bra and dress. The lingerie I bought specifically for this occasion now doesn't feel right in my body, it itches, and I just want to rip it all off. The sheer black nylon stockings with the garter belt just hurt my skin now. "Well done, Steve," I keep talking to myself, all alone in that sexless bedroom, "you managed to drain every single drop of lust from me."