Hannah lay in the bed in her old room, unable to sleep. It was weird, she'd missed this place so much when she left for college but now it just felt strange and foreign. Her gaze travelled around the dimly lit room, taking in all the familiar things that once had so much meaning to her: the pictures of her old friends plastered over the mirror of her vanity; the frayed teddy bear that sat in a small, wooden rocking chair; the Madonna poster tacked to the wall; the frilly lace curtains and valances over the window. Of course mom kept things the way she left them, but after almost a year of college everything they represented seemed so far away.
Hannah lay her head back on her pillow, her long, curly blonde hair framing her heart-shaped face. She glanced down at the anatomy book in her hands, their pages reflected in the glasses she wore that did little to obscure her large, blue eyes. She didn't feel like studying. After all, she did have two weeks before Christmas break was over. Hannah couldn't wait to get back. She loved college. She loved the freedom, the challenges, her new friends, and of course her boyfriend, Ben. "Ugh," she muttered with frustration and set the book aside. She shouldn't have started thinking about Ben. He was a good boyfriend but a better fuck and now she was getting horny thinking about him. It had already been one week and she had two more before she was going to feel him inside her again. Well, there was no way she was going to get to sleep without masturbating first.
She reached over and grabbed her Walkman off the nightstand and placed her glasses there. She put the headphones over her ears and pressed the play button and turned off the lamp. The sounds of INXS filled her ears as one dainty hand crept down her flat stomach and cupped her pubic mound, her index finger stretching to rub her clit through her panties which was the only garment she wore besides and over-sized tee shirt, one of Ben's. It was probably her imagination, but she thought she could still smell his scent on the shirt and she imagined him laying on top of her, kissing her, squeezing her breasts and pushing his hardness against her. Hannah raised up the shirt with her free hand and felt the hard nipple of her left tit, small but perky. A feeling like an electric shock ran down the nugget of erect flesh, down her body and into her toes and back. She imagined Ben sucking on it as she pulled and rolled the nipple between her delicate fingers. Hannah slipped a finger of the other hand into her panties and marveled at how wet she was. She thought about Ben's thick cock entering her as she...what was that?
Pulling off the headphones, the sound of the tinny music echoed in the quiet room. She thought she heard something. There it was again, a light knock at her bedroom door. "What the hell?" she muttered as she pulled her shirt down and sat up. Was it mom, coming to say goodnight and how much she missed her for the hundredth time? She stopped the tape player and stood up, keenly aware of the wetness at the crotch of her panties. God, she hoped her mother wouldn't be able to smell her. That would be so embarrassing!
She turned on the lamp and went to the door, opening it but a fraction. "Ronny?" Hannah asked in a hush tone. The hallway behind her brother was dark and she could hear their father snoring. "What is it?"
"Hey, sis. Were you asleep?" Ronny's grey eyes were cast downward, toward his feet.
Hannah blinked, hoping she wasn't making noises she wasn't aware of as she touched herself. She tended to get loud sometimes. "No...no I wasn't asleep yet. What's up?"
Ronny leaned in toward the door. "Can I talk to you for a sec?"
"Uhh...okay." Hannah opened the door and let him in, closing the door softly behind him. "What's going on?" Ronny stood in the middle of the room, looking around absently. He, too, was in his pajamas. Some flannel bottoms and a faded Metallica shirt. His long hair was unkempt. He was tall and lanky. Easily over a foot taller than her five feet height. Even though he was eighteen he was still the awkward, shy nerd she knew and loved. Ronny was one of the few things she did miss from home. They had always been close. He kept his gaze down and Hannah could tell there something serious he wanted to talk about. She looked down at herself, ensuring that the length of the tee she wore covered her upper thighs. Again, she worried about any scent she may be giving off and sniffed surreptitiously.
"Well, it's kind of...personal." He finally looked up at and she saw his eyes flit up and down. Hannah reached down and quickly tugged at the bottom of her shirt. Oh god, were her nipples still hard?
"Okay," Hannah said slowly as she walked over to the bed and sat. She grabbed her pillow and hugged it, hoping it would hide her body without looking like she was trying to hide her body. "Have a seat and tell me." Ronny shuffled over and sat on the edge of the bed then stared down at the floor through hanging strands of his brown hair. "Is it mom and dad? They giving you a hard time?"
"No," Ronny blurted. "Well, yeah, but that's not it."
Hannah could tell there was something serious on his mind and put her hand on his shoulder. "You know you can tell me anything, right?"
"Yeah." Ronny huffed and visibly steeled himself. "Okay, so I was kind of making out with Bethany Newsome and...she told me I have a weird dick."
Hannah stared at Ronny for a few seconds then started chuckling. "What?"
"Forget it." Ronny got up and Hannah reached out and grabbed his hand.
"No, don't. I'm sorry...it's just that...I wasn't expecting that." Hannah laughed gently. Ronny continued to stand and crossed his arms. Hannah tried to compose herself. It was obvious Ronny wasn't joking and it was genuinely bothering him. "Okay...so weird how?" She felt her cheeks getting hot. She did not expect to be having a conversation with her brother about his penis tonight. She hoped she wasn't blushing too bad.
Ronny remained standing but resumed talking. "She said it didn't look normal and didn't want to do anything with it."
"Not normal how?" Hannah felt apprehensive but now legitimately curious. What was normal for a dick, anyway, she thought to herself.
"Well," Ronny stammered. "It's got a curve to it. I guess it freaked her out. She said they weren't supposed to look like that and something was wrong with me."
"Oh, Ronny, I'm sure there's nothing wrong with you." Hannah was mad at herself for laughing at him. He was really going through something. "Lots of...penises...look different."
Ronny looked up down at his sister and she could see his eyes tearing up. "She was the first one to ever see it. I know it's different looking. I didn't know it was that bad. Is there something wrong with me? You're studying to be a nurse, right?"
Hannah wasn't sure what to say. "Yeah, I am but...I don't know a lot about that kind of thing. Why not go to a doctor if you're worried?"
Ronny shook his head. "No way, I'm not talking to mom and dad about this! I don't have money for a doctor...I don't...can't you just look it up or something?"
Hannah bit her lip. She couldn't blame Ronny for not wanting to talk to their parents about it or for being scared of going to a clinic or something. But was she the best person to talk to about this? He did come to her for help, though. "Okay...sit down," she said gently. "And tell me what it looks like."
He slowly sat back down and after stalling for a few seconds he said, "Well it's really curvy, you know?" Hannah wanted to say she didn't but Ronny wasn't in the mood for jokes.
"No, not really." Hannah smiled reassuringly. "Look. Just show me, okay."
"Huh?" He stared blankly.
"It'll be easier if you just show me. I have some books here that might help...but I don't know what you're talking about so just show me."
"Seriously?" Ronny put his hands nervously on his legs. "Isn't that weird?"
Hannah was getting exasperated but didn't want to show it. "No, like you said, I'm studying to be a nurse. I can be detached and clinical about this. It's not a big deal." Ronny continued to hesitate, and Hannah said, "It's either this or go to a doctor. I'll take you if you want."