Scheherazade, the wife of the Sultan Shahriyar, legendary king of Samarkand. From the first night of their marriage onwards, Scheherazade sets out to break the practice of the king, of having his brides executed after the consummation of their marriage. She entertains him with tales each night for 1,001 nights, firing his curiosity by interrupting each tale at a crucial moment in the narrative, and postponing the continuation until the next night.
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To start with it was no different from any other Sunday morning except that I knew what I might have to face.
I lay in bed wondering if I could find some excuse to get out of the house and stay out until it was bedtime again, but hearing mother showering, I felt guilty about deserting the situation.
To delay the moment I lay in bed longer than usual and when I did get up, took my time over showering and shaving.
The previous evening mother had revealed that she has sent her latest lover on his way. She had learned that he was screwing a couple of other women, and mother was always adamant about one man, one woman.
"Not that he was all that good as a lover," she confided in me.
It wasn't the first time we'd gone through this, and I often wondered why she either got rid of them or they left her. I'd also wondered why none of them had asked her to marry them, or if they had why she refused them.
To start with, she is a damned good looking woman, and I'd often thought that if I was her lover I'd do everything I could to make the relationship permanent. But then, I wouldn't have liked it if she had made it permanent with one of those lovers because I didn't fancy any of the men she'd brought home as stepfathers.
Another dread I had was that one day mother would announce that I was to have a little brother or sister. It was only later that I learned she always made her men wear condoms.
Since learning this I've often wondered if that was part of the problem; you see, mother is the sort of woman that rightly or wrongly men see as the ideal woman to impregnate; buxom, with beautifully swelling hips beneath a slender waist, and strong but shapely legs.
Her greatest attraction to my mind was her breasts; they seemed to be designed to drive men out of their mind and suckle babies. I once checked her bra size, 42D. They were firm, and when she wasn't wearing bras and was on the move, they oscillated in that seductive way that makes you look and keep on looking, and you long to see them naked, and caress them and suck their nipples.
I have a theory that some, if not most of the men mother had as lovers, wanted to make her pregnant. I know that's what I would have wanted to do if I had a woman like mother. Perhaps when they refused to wear a condom she sent them on their way, or closed her legs tightly and refused to let them penetrate her, and it was they who departed. Of course, this is only conjecture on my part, and probably a fantasy based on my own feelings for mother.
I've heard it said that most sons consider their mothers to be beautiful. I don't know whether that is true or not, but I certainly thought my mother was beautiful, and in that sense I regretted she was my mother because it meant I'd never be able to enjoy her seductive body.
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To outline the situation; mother is a single parent. She had originally got pregnant to some guy who was already married and wouldn't leave his wife and kids. I never knew who he was, but I gathered he must have been well off because he paid up for his fun quite generously. That, in addition to mother going out to work, meant we lived rather comfortably.
As I grew towards maturity I came to understand mother's dilemma. After her experience with the first guy, my father, she never really trusted men. On the other hand I came to realise that mother needed a man.
To put that another way, she had a strong libido and, apparently, masturbating was not sufficiently satisfying. I could sympathise with her over that because masturbating never seemed really satisfying to me either. Just as she needed a man, I needed a woman.
I suppose that a lot of sons in my position suffer the same pangs of jealousy that I did when they know their mother is copulating with some guy in her bedroom. I believe that this applies even when the man is their natural father and they are married, but I think it somehow seems worse when you're the son of a single mother.
Firstly, you never know if and when the guy is going to become step-daddy, and secondly, there are the times when you can hear what they are doing -- the grunts and groans, the squealing and the sobbing cries, "Harder...deeper...do it to me harder."
I don't know how many times I'd masturbated listening to them. It was rather like a concerto with me as the soloist and them the orchestra, but somehow we never really completed the performance, or at least for me, it always ended unsatisfactorily. Not, you understand, that I was completely deprived.
There was a fifty year old widow who lived a couple of streets from us. One day she was having difficulty starting her car and I happened to be passing her house. Like a lot of young men I knew a bit about cars, and got it going for her. She was grateful -- very grateful -- and one thing led to another.
Even when I played a duet with her, and for all the enthusiasm of her performance, for me it never seemed to end with the grand finale I longed for. However, I must give her due credit; she did teach me a lot about playing on that most delightful of instruments, the female sex organ.
But I wander. Another of mother's lovers had departed the scene, and although this was something of a relief to me, I knew what would follow.
Even when it was mother who finished the affair she always ended up depressed. That depression would continue and deepen until the next lover. It was as if she was carrying around a heavy load, a load that I came to understand was the burden of her sexual needs.
I knew that it would at least in part be my role to help her through her depression, and that help could take some rather strange forms. Often she would say, "Come for a walk with me." More than once we had trudged relentlessly for miles through pouring rain or other unpleasant weather as she tried to walk her frustration off.
She had an exercise bicycle and she would peddle the damned thing for what seemed to me like hours trying to work off her sexual craving, but the only thing she worked off was some weight, and this she didn't need to do.
I once had the idea that instead of using a stationary bicycle we should both get ourselves proper bicycles and go riding together at the times of post-lover depression, but then I realised what that would mean for me peddling all those kilometres, so I cancelled that idea.
During the times of her post-lover blues she wanted -- almost demanded -- my company, even if it was only to be with her as she stared unseeingly at the television screen. I had to sit there watching endless garbage -- garbage that apparently she was not seeing.
Of course I could have refused to spend the time with her, but I had the considerable disadvantage of loving her, and l could not face the idea of leaving her alone in her misery.
In the wedding ceremony they talk of "For better, for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish." That's how I felt about mother, and to that extent it was almost as if I was married to her, and I came to suspect that it would be for "as long as we both shall live." I often wondered if I would ever be able to get married and have a family I felt so responsible for mother.
And so here we were again; another lover gone, mother no doubt depressed, and me feeling responsible. What would it be this time?
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