Author's note: When this story began, I said that it was not meant to be "erotica" (or, Heaven forfend, pornography!). Instead, it is a love story. Several love stories, in fact. Of course, real love stories involve, or should involve, sex, and lots of it -- happy, joyous, thrilling and, occasionally, rough and raunchy sex. And, sometimes, sad -- even heartbreaking -- sex.
But a funny thing happened along the way. I found that the people in this story -- in
these
stories -- had lives, and that these lives might in fact be every bit as interesting as the lurid details of their (numerous) sexual escapades.
In particular, I wondered what life between a stunning-but-"sixty-something" widow and her thirty-something recently-widowed husband would be like? Or about when parents discover that a brother and sister's "fooling around" might be a whole lot more than just a matter of adolescent hormones?
And what I discovered was that these lives were rich and complex, and filled with many things in addition to their varied and numerous methods of coupling.
But -- don't despair! In Georgia's words, they "still fuck like bunnies!"
XXIII − Family Ties
[I just had a thought -- I might have to change some of the "details" of this part of the story to please my editor (the young people tell me he's what's called "
The Man
").]
I haven't written much about the children, mainly because this part is supposed to be about "Ted and I." (Or is it "Ted and Me"? I think grammatical cases can be made for both versions, don't you?)
Anyhow, I discovered that I loved every bit about being a mother again. I mean, I had no doubt -- no doubt at all -- that I would love being mother to Caleen and Eddie and Shana. I guess I just didn't realize
how much
I would enjoy it.
Anyhow -- how can I describe being a mother again -- this time, of three?
Let me put it as plainly as possible: I wake up every morning looking forward to the privilege of being the mother to these three children.
Remember that we -- that is, Caleen and Eddie and I -- started out by being "playmates," I guess you'd say, when Candace and Ted brought them all up for Lauren's and Matt's wedding. And I kind of did a stint as their mother
pro tem
during the three weeks that Candace was away in the Netherlands on a business trip and they invited me up to care for them. [Well, you know how those three weeks turned out, don't you!]
But now, Candace and Ted had entrusted me with the responsibility of being the real, full-time, no-excuses mother to them. And I love them. I love that they were Candace's children (and always will be), and that she trusted me enough to turn over her responsibilities to me when she wasn't able to ... wasn't able. And I love them because they're Ted's, and I don't have to explain to you why that's important. And also, it's because there's some of Ted in each of them, and that's a very good thing.
And I love them because they love me. I don't know how or why, but for some reason, from the very beginning, Caleen and Eddie thought that I was the most wonderful grownup in the world (besides their Mommy, of course); and they made sure to convey this information to Shana just as soon as she was old enough to grasp it.
Don't get me wrong -- they weren't perfect little angels, and everything wasn't all sunshine and lollipops and rainbows and unicorns. There were squabbles, and failures to do chores, and "Why? Because I'm your mother and I said so, that's why!" moments. And the usual spilt glasses of milk because they were horsing around at the table. And the occasional bouts of moodiness. You know the story with kids.
And there was Eddie's broken arm when he got thrown off a merry-go-round at the playground, and the time Caleen had a fever of 104, and the trip to the emergency room when Shana had a nosebleed that we couldn't stop. And the time that Caleen got expelled from school for three days for punching a boy (a foot taller than she) because he'd teased Eddie 'til he cried. (When she was little, Caleen was tiny, and blond, and curly, and cute, and she resembled nothing so much as a young Shirley Temple. But she could be absolutely fierce.)
And at the end of every day, I loved every bit of it.
As parents, Ted and I were incredibly lucky. We had a nice home, in a good neighborhood, and just a few hundred feet away from "family" -- Lauren and Matt and "Little Paul" -- my great-grandson; and James and Mai, and Janey, Ben, and Christiana. The children's playmates were great kids from wonderful families. We didn't have a single worry about who our children were spending their time with.
Caleen was very much like her mother. All three of the children had Ted's steadiness and considered patience, but beyond that, Caleen was like a little Candace. She was petite like Candace, and would probably end up within an inch or two of Candace's 5'-2", with Candace's features and curly blond hair. And like her mother, she was smart as the dickens, excelled in school work, and was the joy of all her teachers.
But most of all, she has Candace's perpetual enthusiasm and optimism and good heart and generous spirit. So many times, I have to stop and remember that I'm talking to Caleen, and not to her mother. And like her mother, she's very responsible, and she often takes a role in helping me manage Eddie and Shana. In fact, we're more often like 'partners' than mother-and-daughter.
And we talk about her mother a lot. Candace is a constant presence in our lives. Not just the photographs and the souvenirs, of course. We speak of her almost like she wasn't dead -- more like she's a family member who lives a very long way away, that's all. And in fact, when I find myself unsure as to how to handle a situation, I often help myself by "talking to" Candace. And you know what? She's never steered me wrong.
Everyone played with everyone, but there has always been a particular closeness between Caleen and Lauren and Matt's Paul -- my great-grandson. When they were younger, she was the 'big sister,' and he was the tag-along 'little brother.' But as they got older (and Paul began to realize his genetic height potential), they started to relate on more of a peer basis. They did everything together, they helped each other with chores and with school work, and, most interestingly, they seemed to be able to take turns being the leader. And without us even being aware of it, they had somehow managed to hit upon an arrangement where they functioned as partners. We grown-ups frequently speculated on where this relationship was headed.
Eddie is -- Eddie. He's a good-looking little boy who's sweet, and kind, and considerate, and always concerned about the well-being of others. He's easy-going, had relatively few tantrums in the early years, and, generally, "went with the flow." He's the one who most resembles Ted physically, with the same build and the same (often shaggy) sandy brown hair. He's good at the usual games and sports, but not great. In the early years, he was not the one who would get chosen first for teams, but he was usually third or fourth. Later in school, he made the baseball and basketball teams, but he was by no means a "star."