Chapter 12: More secrets, and sex in a car!
Tom had hired a car and since the winding roads required maximum attention, I resisted the temptation to put my hand in his lap. In a little cliff-side cafΓ© we enjoyed some mysterious curried dish with rice, I think it contained goat, a Caribbean speciality. Our tummies full, we ventured up into the densely forested mountains of northern St Vincent and experienced some of the heaviest rain showers imaginable. For one mad moment I wanted to get out of the car and dance naked in the rain. By the way I love sex in the rain, trouble is it's always so cold in the UK. I suggested it to Tom, but there was nowhere we could do it, apart from the middle of the road. I wonder if anyone has ever been run over while having sex?
Sorry, digressing again!
After last night's wonderful sex I felt we both needed to talk about the future and, as we descended down to the rugged east coast we spotted the ideal place, a little cove, and obviously used only by the locals. Several of them were frolicking unashamedly naked in the rough Atlantic waters. Idly I noticed that some of the male appendages were close to equalling that of my brother, and these were only kids! If this thing with Tom doesn't work out I think I might consider emigrating!
During the car ride I had grown increasingly concerned that our relationship was gaining pace too quickly and, as we settled on a grassy patch away from the beach I knew it was time to share my deepest thoughts with him.
"Tom, I'm frightened."
"Don't worry Sue, the natives don't bite here." He gaze was intent upon the larger breasted female variety splashing water over her kids. I turned his chin toward me.
"I mean about us."
He gave me a concerned look and took my hand.
"What about us?"
"Whenever I have had anything serious going for me, like you and me right now, the guy has walked out on me or, in the case of my husband, got killed."
He kissed me softly on the nose.
"Sue, I have only just met you and I don't plan on going anywhere, and certainly not to Afghanistan to get shot at!"
"Do you think I don't know that Tom? I just feel that I am not ready to commit to a serious relationship just yet, I don't think I could handle another disappointment."
"Okay I understand where you're coming from, but where does that leave us?"
"Can't we just be best friends that have sex?"
He laughed, "I thought we already are? What's really on your mind, Sue?"
I settled back in his comforting arms, feeling a bit of a fool, "Tom, when I was twenty-two I went from having lots of boyfriends, and loads of sex, to two years of living with one man and then two with no sex at all. This last week with you have opened my eyes to what I have been missing and I just want to have some fun. Who knows, maybe even with another girl, I know that will happen someday."
I wasn't to know at the time that it would happen within a matter of hours!
Tom looked a little saddened even though he was now aware that he was still free to play the field and yet have me in his bed anytime he wanted. His conscience replied for him.
"Don't you believe in love at first sight Sue?"
I laughed, "I think it was fuck at first sight if I remember that hammock night! And yes I do believe in that, but in the past my sight doesn't seem to coordinate with my common sense. That's why I want time. Let's have fun Tom and see how we feel as time goes along."
He nodded, no doubt pondering the possibilities open to him, "Okay."
"And talking of hammocks, do you think tonight we could�"
He grinned, "I love your dirty mind."
I kissed his cheek, allowing my lips to trail across to his mouth, "With what we have agreed, does that make us fuck-buddies then?"
"If that means two people not in a committed relationship who want to meet up for sex as often as they want, then I guess the answer is yes, and I am all for that."
Relieved, I leaned forward and gave him a big hug.
"Then we are now officially fuck-buddies."
"Good," he grinned, sliding a hand up the leg of my shorts, feeling for the hem of my panties, "When shall we start?"
I pressed his hand against my pussy for a moment, then slowly pushed it away. Already his cock was hard in his pants. I wondered if that was with the thought of the sexual freedom we had just agreed upon, or he was simply ready for another fuck. I knew at that moment I was in love with both ideas!
"There is nothing more I would like right now than a shag right here Tom, but there are too many people around, and they are locals, they might take offence and report us. I don't fancy a night in a women's prison in this place! I love outdoor sex, but not here thank you."
In an attempt to curb our passion we changed the subject and watched the sun sink slowly behind us in a blaze of red silky clouds. Arms around each other we shared yet more secrets about each other and I surprised him when I told him I used to masturbate with my best school friend Helen (even Rich doesn't know about that!). Helen had been bisexual at a very early age, her very first lover had been another girl, but at that time I never had the courage to touch her other than kiss and hug. Today I wonder what would have happened if we had made love. We still remain best friends but for some strange reason have never slept together. I put that down to our friendship being beyond the sex thing. That doesn't mean that we don't have our own individual female lovers, and of course when we do meet up we share all the horny details!
"Did you ever do anything like that Tom?"
He shook his head, looking away.
I reached into his groin, "I think you did. Tell me."
From his posture I sensed some embarrassment, "You don't want to know."
I squeezed his cock, hard. He was fully erect, there was a memory in there. "Yes I do, nothing you tell me will shock me, even if you fucked another guy."
"Well, I didn't go that far."
"Aha, so there was something?"
"It's very personal and very embarrassing Sue, something I left behind with my childhood."
"Tom, the other day you said you would suck another man's cock if I asked you to, there must still be some interest there?"
He still hesitated, refusing to meet my stare.
"Come on, fair's fair, I told you all about me and my brother." I turned his head to mine, "I like dirty stories, you might even turn me on, and you forget I have watched lots of porn, including guys sucking each other. That kind of turns me on, Tom." I pleaded with my eyes.
He gave a deep sigh, but still refused to meet my eyes. "Okay then, but promise to stop me if you have had enough?"
"I promise."
He sighed and leaned his head into my shoulder, clearly not wanting to meet my eyes with his own, "Okay, here goes then. This is strictly between you and me
(and readers too methinks as I write this! But I have changed names).
About the time I was in the fifth form at school, I can't remember exactly when, me and my best mate Martin used to masturbate together, usually looking at dirty magazines. Just like you said you did with your friend Helen."
He looked up at my face, searching for any indication of revulsion, "So do you think that's dirty, Sue?"
"Not at all, I don't see the difference. I think it's cool. So was it with each other or for each other?"