I think once people get to my age, they sometimes feel like they are having a mid-life crisis. I'm a 38-year-old guy in decent shape with a wife and 2 small kids. I love the house that I am in, the job that I do and enjoy my family very much. While i find my wife still very attractive, she was never much of a sexual person. We both enjoyed it of course, but she never wanted to expand our limits.
Maybe that's why I always had these other urges to try other things. I watched porn, jerked off, even bought some old girlfriends Only fans here and there. It was exciting because I knew them. A few times on a business trip, I even went to adult video stores. I saw some booths where a few guys and girls went in together, but I never had the nerve to do that. It was exciting for me just to be out in public and watching porn with other strangers.
The thing I never could tell anyone, was how much i jerked off to my sister-in-law Erika. She was about my age as well with a husband of her own but no kids, mostly because I believe her husband was largely not into sex. Even when they were dating, she would say how great he is, the gifts he bought her, the trips he took her on, yet he never was affectionate. She thought it was her, but I can tell you it wasn't.
She was 5'6, a few inches shorter than me with long black hair, full lips, with a very tiny frame. Her boobs were a triple D but looked even bigger on her. Whenever we would go to the beach or to the pool, it was always difficult for me to turn away. Because she thought her body wasn't great, she always wore one-piece suits or something less flattering, but I could still see her amazing body through it all. I had known her for years and she really was like a sister to me but that never stopped me from cranking one out from time to time.
One day during the summer we had her and a few other people over for a BBQ. At one point I couldn't find her so i decided to look around. I found her in the back bathroom clearly frustrated with whoever she was texting.
"Work again?"
"Yea I wish." She went back to texting while I stood there in the doorway. "Sorry, I just...Mike is annoying me as usual."
"Is he working?"
"No, that's the problem. He's just home alone. He just can be so boring sometimes. Just like how Danielle is." It was true both of our significant others could be a stick in the mud at times. Me and Erika would hang out a lot by ourselves because of it. And it was really fun.
"Well, at least you're here. As usual we are gonna have to be the one to save the party," I said trying to cheer her up. Usually that works but I could see it was a bit deeper this time. "You sure you are okay?"
While she didn't cry, she did break down a little. "I just don't know what to do anymore. I mean, I really do love him. He's so good to me but it's things like this that upset me. We barely even-" She stopped herself short, but I knew she wanted to mention her sex life.
"How often do you guys, ya know?"
"It's bad. I can maybe get once a month out of him. And I know that's him and he's just not into it that much, but I feel like he finds me so ugly."
"You know I really like Mike. He's cool and everything but he is a moron if he doesn't find you attractive. I mean, I don't know how he doesn't stop himself from jumping on you every night." She laughed a bit, but it made her feel better.
"Thanks, but if he isn't like that now, he never will be. I mean I don't know how he expects to have kids if we never have sex." I nodded," That is a big part of it." We both laughed again. "Come on, why don't you come outside, get some sun and have a little fun. You'll feel better."
"Ugh fine, if I must," she jokingly groaned standing up. The rest of the night went better. She was her open and fun self. Of course, it didn't hurt when she jumped into the pool with her bathing suit and really caught my eye. She really did look great and still was amazed how Mike could ignore that. As people filtered out and my wife went to bed, i went again looking for my sister-in-law. I found her alone in the hot tub. I thought she was sleeping at first but then i noticed she was sitting right on one of the jets. I stood back for a minute as I watched her wriggle and try not to make a lot of noise.
"Hey, you trying to run my bill up higher?" She jumped at my voice and realized she was caught.
"Geez, don't you give people privacy?"
"In my house?" i joked. She was still annoyed.
"Guess I'll just get out."
"Wait, sorry. I didn't mean to bother you."
"No, it's my fault. I shouldn't be doing that here and right in the open. You have kids here also," she now said embarrassed.
"Trust me, i get it. I do it all of time also. I thought maybe instead of a jet, you would like to use maybe one of Danielle's...toys," I suggested.
"Really? You don't think that gross?"
"No, they always get washed. And she really doesn't even use them that often either." She seemed excited but didn't want to show it. I told her to dry off and go to her room and I'd bring it to her. Once I did, i waited a bit outside her room and listened. She really was going to town on herself. It was clear she didn't have one of her own and wasn't able to do this at her house.
The next day she found me and thanked me. She had cleaned it and put it back, but she admitted she wanted one of her own. She couldn't order it and have it get shipped to the house. "We can go to the shop later. It's about 20 minutes form here," i offered. She was happy for the offer as I knew she would never want to go there herself. My wife took the kids to a friend's house, and I said I was going to hang out with her sister, and she didn't bat an eye. Just left out the small sex shop detail.
Once there, I parked on the side, and we went inside the shop. You couldn't see inside with all the curtains hanging up but inside it was much more lit up. The door jingled and alerted the cashier that she had customers. She gave us a 'Hello' and went back to her phone. We walked past the young girl at the counter and made our way down the aisles.
"People actually wear these?" Erika commented looking at some of the leather clothes.
"You don't want to be a dominatrix," i joked. "I'm into sexy clothes but that doesn't do it for me either." We kept looking and she turned around a few DVD boxes. "Wow, some of these guys are really big," she commented as she stared almost trying to memorize it.
"Get it," I told her.
"Nah, this is already risky for me leaving in the house. I don't need a DVD also." She put it down and made her way to the toy section. "Here we go," she said grabbing a few and checking them out. She turned a few to me and asked, "Which one do you think?" I could tell she seemed excited to be here picking a toy out for herself. I just told me how incredibly unsatisfied she was at home.
"Well not that one since it doesn't vibrate," I pointed to the red one.
"Oh, yea then definitely not." She quickly put it back. I scanned over a few, turning them around to get an idea.
