I woke up late. Sun was already angling across my window. I felt sluggish, reluctant to emerge from confusing dreams filled with sensual warmth. But as I did, they merged into equally delicious memories of the secret night time visit to Mandy's room - to her touch and embrace of me.
When I got down to the kitchen, however, I found that out she had already left, called in to an emergency band practice, subbing for another flutist out sick. I felt a stab of disappointment, knowing that I had the day off from the Rec Center, and already had been wondering whether I could borrow the car and take her for a ride somewhere.
Reflexively, I checked my phone, and saw a message from her.
Hey John. Sis here. Just saying sorry I missed you, couldn't bail on helping out Mr Joseph. Soon? M
When I looked up from my phone, I saw that Mom was watching me. She had a big smile on her face, and was wearing a short summer skirt. As in short-short. I guessed it was another recent purchase, maybe through her friend at the book club. I hadn't noticed her legs so much before. I wondered if she had been working out over the winter. It was matched by a lavender tank-top that showed off a plunge of cleavage. Her bare arms had the beginnings of summer color, but the strong tan-line around her collarbone, and the pale skin that dropped down into that cleavage, showed how different this was from her typical choice of top.
"That Mandy?"
I dragged my eyes away. "Um, yeah. Just checking in."
"Nice."
Mom smiled again, and I felt self-conscious about my own clothes. Not that wearing a rumpled t-shirt from the night before was unusual for me, but I had rooted around for my jeans before remembering that I had left them in Mandy's room. Left them when I had sneaked back down the corridor to my own room around dawn. The shorts I was wearing instead were a reminder that I needed to get back in there and retrieve them before Mom found them and asked awkward questions.
Which just raised a broader question of Mom finding missing clothes. Had she really been the first to discover that I had snuck my sister's soiled panties out of the clothes hamper? And if so, why on earth would she have sent Mandy to go searching among the rumpled sheets on my bed for what she might discover?
Mom sat down opposite me, coffee in both hands. She crossed her legs and I looked back up into her face.
"How are you doing John?"
"Um, pretty good." I wondered if she could still perceive the afterglow of intimacy with my sister from the night before, an afterglow that felt to me as if painted across my face.
"Summer break going ok?"
I nodded.
"I heard you have another date with Alison?"
How'd that get out? But that was okay, I didn't mind Mom knowing that. I nodded.
"I think that's great, I really do. I think she's really sweet. But you know, just remember, there's no need to get hooked into the first girl you meet at high school."
This was different. I hadn't heard Mom talk so directly before. I made a noncommittal face.
"I'm just saying...yes, do have experiences. No way to know, otherwise, is there? But just, well, just don't feel that you need to be stuck by them."
"Sure Mom. Thanks."
"Because, well, you know, your father and I, we met in high school, and..."
I could guess where this might be leading. I wasn't unaware of what the marriage was like for Mom. And if I could have done something about it, I sure would have. But just going there in words would likely be painful and I didn't want her feeling bad. I interrupted.
"Mom, I was actually thinking, since I'm not working today, um, would this be a good day to get that back fence fixed?"
Mom sat up a little taller, and eyed me with a soft smile. The fence to our neighbors yard had pulled apart in several places, and despite her attempts to put up temporary barriers, their dog had got through numerous times and made a mess of Mom's flower beds.
"Unless Dad was planning on getting it done, that is," I added.
"What do you think?"
I didn't answer that.